Crazy

My Shadow

3.14PM

Konnichiwa!
It's been 4 days since iie last blog...
this four day iie wasn't using da com...
coz internet kana confiscated...
lolx...
but now holidays are here...
and guess i'll become more n more lonely le bahx...
ZH's birthday coming...
haiiz...
dunno whether to gib him present anot...
well...
see how bahx...
thx to my mom for confiscating my internet...
iie could finally stop myself from chating with Zh...
atleast...
this will be better...
coz he could finally be free...
from miie...
while i'm still trap in da world of my own...
searching for an exit...
let time take it's place bahx...

Well...
i'm thinking of ending everything...
ofcoz nt my life...
u should get wad iie meant...
maybe by ending those relationship with others and starting a new would be better...
even though iie know iie still need tons of time to get over stuff...
but...
like iie say...
let time take it's place....
maybe i'll find someone who can guide miie of of my misery...
even iie hope that that someone issh ZH...
but iie know if iie choose to let go then...
let it be bahx...
unless he dun wants to...
i'll always turn back to him if he wants...
iie regretted so much...
haiiz...
forget it...

Now all iie hope for issh for him to understands...
iie dun nid anything else...
but iie guess...
it's nt important any more...
coz if iie want him to understands...
and if he realli do...
iie would wanted him to come back into my life...
so iie rather nt letting him understand...
and he'll be able to find true happiness lyk tt bahx...
i'll be happi for him...
realli!... ^^

Sowi wor...
this few days i'll be breaking so promises...
maybe smoking...
maybe cuting...
lolx...
coz i'm nt good at taking pains...
so i've gotta use other method to stop da pain...
sowi guys...
if u wanna gib up on miie...
plz do...
lolx...
dun nid worry about miie...
juz leave miie to rott bahx...
lolx...
dui bu qi neax...

iie know this kind of pain is nt as bad as other ppl's...
like those with single family or so...
but juz let miie be stupid n silly...
juz for a few months or a year or so...
untill iie find someone else...
either a fren or a stead...
juz as long as iie can find someone, any one...
who could be able to bring miie out of this stat...
i'll stop...
so for da time being...
let miie be stupid...

This few days in school got Northland Olympic...
so no studies at all...
Wed got go since center da lap to do some experiment...
Tue got da cooking festible...
iie was an extra there...
as usual...
a black sheep...
a useless black sheep...
no one needs miie at all...
juz a replacement...
a stupid ku ku standing there do nth...
humph!... angry sial...
lolx..

This few days in school play tai ti...
and gamble $$ so going poke le
lolx...
siao rite...
even knowing iie bad with cards...
but still wanna gamble...
lolx..
good wad...
atleast it made miie feel better...
i'm always a loser any way...
so use to it liaoz...
lolx..
[as iie say... let miie be stupid n silly for a few months or a year]
[so let miie be]
[leave miie to rott]

kay then Thursday neber go school...
then this few days after school nt with Ben jui shi with Andrew...
Thank you for keeping miie company...
Thanks a ton...
[dun worry about miie]

Today gt PTC...
Dad drive miie n mom to school and waited for us in da car...
while we go meet da teacher...
lolx...
my results sux...
U Grade
U Grade
U Grade
U Grade
5
U Grade
U Grade

onli combine humanity pass...
fuker rite?...
lolx...
[sowi for being vagaritic]
[let miie be]

then now fianlly got internet back...
lolx...
so now blogging le...


I wanna Enjoy Life
Like everyone...
But i can't...

Waiting for someone,
anyone,
to save miie...

Wasureta Kioku
Nakushita Kotoba
Iroaseta Kotoba Noni

Boku no baka desu...

Miie n Ben's Shadow

miie n benjamin di