o4 May 2oo7,Friday

so many thing happen in juz one month...
guess iie was da one who spoiled my own life myself...
i've been standing up and falling down so many time that i barely could stand up any more...
life is nt juz about one person...
but everyone~
why do we need frens?
why do we need relationships?
why do we need family?...
to support us, encougrage us, lift us up...
and most importantly, to stay happi with us...
iie dunno how long can iie hold on....
no one seems to care...
accept for my family...
but...
iie dunno...
iie still feel so empty...
iie feel like no one could understand my feelings now...
the pain...
the suffering...
iie might nt be as unfortunate us some other ppl...
but this is something iie had neber came across with....
not even any of my fren...
so many thing juz pop up all of a sudden...
if it' s not important nvm....
but all of it plays a very big role in life...
can anyone help miie?...
i've tried...
but no...
i'm tired of being disappointed and being stupid...
iie had been so stupid all my life that iie cannot let go so easily...
why am iie always lying to myself....
iie lied to myself that ppl around miie are my frens....
they cared for miie and like miie as who iie am....
iie lied to myself that my relationship might juz have hope....
iie lied to myself that iie juz hab to try harder....
but...
no one seems to notice...
so wad's the use for even trying?....
i'm realli tired...
iie realli hope that iie can relaxe...
even sitting infront of the com dosen't help any more...
wad iie need issh someone...
someone important...
someone to brighten up my day and make miie go on with life....
iie realli need someone to help miie...
please....

iie couldn't slp all nite...
iie can't slp with such a heavy heart...
it hurts so much....
iie had neber been through this pain before....
atleast for once in sec one...
iie dunno why...
iie tend to take outsider more important that family...
maybe iie juz afraid of loneliness....
iie dun wanna be alone outside becoz it's such a big world?...
who know?...
dosjte?...
haiiz...
i've neber been so lost in life before...
i'm such a failure in life....
everything that iie say are feelings so deep inside that even saying it hurts...
who would be able to help miie?... a strength of one is not enough...
haiiz...

Marshmellow this word hurts alot...
Apple this words hurts alot too....