A little help advice from a fren

Tuesday, 3 July 2oo7

11.32pm

juz now after blog iie went to slp...
wasn't feeling well...
woke up already 9pm...
lolx...
woke up then msn a lit...
then later go cook mam mam eat then he online...
chat while eating then had a bit of a conversation...
he answer lurhhx but somehow i'm still so confuse....

he says he's afraid that he has no time fer miie...
monday to wednesday end at evening...
thursday friday got cca and projects to rush...
it's all left sat n sun which issh when iie most of da time cannot come out...
haiiz...

iie dunno wad else iie can say...
haiiz....

then iie somehow ask advice from my fren...
iie call her orange juice...
hahax...
she says...

STARTS

i know im an outsider and i have no right to get involve in this or to tell u wad shud u do..
but i can bear it..
i dun wan see u suffer and sad in a relationship...
i wan u to be happy...
just tell him..after his ns..then come back for euu...
pls,dun be foolish and say i love you dear i will wait...
this is not a story a fairytale...
thinks dun happen the way euu think it wud...
this is reality...
i dun wan euu to regret...
now euu have the chance...
u still wun lose him cos u know if he truly loves euu..
after his ns...
he'll be lookin for euu
pls think abt urself 1st..
i know ppl say...
its lousy just to think abt urself and not care abt others...
but thats wad he's doin all along...
u just didnt realise now euu just wanna carry on ur life onli..
euu tell him...
after his ns we still can be together again..
trust me...
pls be smart kayz?..
take care..
and jia you happiness

i maybe the bad guy now tryin to make euu leave...
but shuwei...
dats wad euu wanted..
and euu shud have done it long ago...
euu just dun have the courage and strength..

it dun takes courage to wait..
but it takes courage to break free...
just how much longer do euu wanna live in sadness and holding this burden..
dun be stupid..i know ur smart...
do wads best for euu and him and for everyone...
it may hurt euu or himx for awhile...
but when time comes he'll realise its right..
even if he dun...
then he's not fit for u to love..
ur fate depends on euu now..

..cheer up...
theres still mr right...
out there waiting for euu..
i know euu guys think of marraige and think of when euu both old le...
still loving each other...
everyone does dat but its impossible...
look at ur age...its too early to confirm the guy euu'll spend ur life with
in the future..euu'll get more and more mature
ur expectations are higher...
then euu'll realise why when i young dunno how to think?
hahas...

he already put his studies infront of euu..
u're not happy and he make u sad wit out knowing..
he dun wan euu to be close to guys but he dun wanna spend more time with euu...
i ask euu...when NS over...
then wad? university more hard...
like cant even meet..
then? when older? i need a job...i need to work...im sorry dear..i have no time...
now he alreay lidat..next time how?

hmm..for this 1 guy...that ur not really happy with, euu wanna wait..
no point..
pls remember... at ur age now...
all just having puppy love

im just being bad..and spoil to good lies..
tellin the fact.
arent i love euu forever..i promise!! i wan marry u! i wan start family wit euu..i wan love euu till i die...to end of time..
at last no...they wanna break..
all just pack of sweet lies...

when talking to him...
euu'll soft hearted and just dun dare again...
euu wan end this just tell him wads ur decision...
hen..back to square 1
end up u more stress euuu more sad more things happen..bigger things
..then how? climb all the way up..and the come back agian?

shuwei..just do this 1 time..and end all misery and break free
i know..sure feel heartless..sure heart pain..
will think tt euu very bad...
but...no choice...
pls just 1 hit ko the situation k?


END

intresting?...
haiiz...
wad shall iie do now...
it make miie got a clear vision of love...
and a clear vision of almost lyk wad iie do...
but being lyk this...
is this miie?...
iie feel more n more heartless now a day...
my heart doesn't have a place to live and is in pain and is so confuse that it's already in heart's MENTAL hospital!...
maybe...
haiiz...

Thanks darling orange juice...
she dun wan ppl know her name lurhhx...
so iie name her orange juice..
hahax...

i'll end here bahx...

12.28am