Only Miie...

Monday, 16 July 2oo7

6.38pm

Today woke up at 5.30 lyk tt...
wanted to not come to school as iie am feeling unwell...
but changed my mind...
as iie heard tt there's test...

didn't went fer PE...
followed wee teng, hwee huang, eleena and xiiao wen around during PE...
as had totally nth to do...
Mr Low treat da 5 of us oreo...
Thx cher...

ate it even though i'm sick...
sometime iie juz hope iie can die...
iie realli dun gib a dam about my sickness...
somehow feel lyk i'm running out of reason to live on...
ate porrich for recess....

after recess, iie followed CP they all [accept CC] to 3ED outside...
then slowly iie saw more ppl gathered outside 3 NA...
Then there was a fight...
iie was so shock as iie see alot of ppl kicking one person only...
iie didn't know who was it then...
but iie am so scared and had a feeling tt it'll turn out bad...

when da ppl who hit tt guy scathed, iie saw tt guy was...
PETER!
my gan dii....
WAD Da HELL!
he was bleeding...
iie am so shock...
so worried...
so angry...
and so confuse...
wondering wad has cause this...
iie ask yong qiiang, why u beat hiimx as iie tot yong qiiang was beating hiim up too...
yong qiiang was angry and said he did not n walk a way...
so darn confuse...
then later on found out yong qiiang was kicking away those malay guys who issh kicking peter...
Sorry Yong Qiiang...
wu huii nii lurhhx...

then iie asked around who was beating peter...
ask quite a number of ppl about who beat peter and about wad happen...
so many different stories were made...
and so many different point of view...
tt heard from ket tt yuan laii he got join gan dunno 400+ dehhx lurhhx...
wad da hell...
ii've been hiis da jiie since Sec1 and iie still dunno...
he might be too short tempered or smth but to miie he's a bewi guaii dii lurhhx...
was a bit shock but well...
no wonder he's so naughty to teaches now a days...
haiiz...
xue huai lurhhx lahhx...
yuan laii he's under elwin since sec 2....
haiiz dotz....

Then Peter went to da Sec2 toilel...
alot ppl gather outside there trying to know wad's happening and how's peter...
alot of unhappy faces there too...
wee teng also kana hiit...
O.o ke liian... lolx...

Then so things juz went on lyk tt so iie went FnN late lurhhx...

Then later after FnN when iie got up to 3th floor with poh li, Pho Li went "WAH!"
and ran towards a crowd...
Wad da hell again...
this time shopia n a malay gall quarreling and lyk wanna fight lyk tt...
power sial...
gal nehhx...
then alot ppl pulling them away...
so da quarrel is over as Mr Shaiful came up...
everyone went back class so iie went to my GEO class...

school ends early at 1.25 instead of 2.00

met up with PureDevils n cheng chiin was ignoring miie again...
then later iie heard she said "da comic dehhx volume 3 finish lurhhx, iie cannot find it any more lurhhx."
then in my heart iie was thinking "is this why u r ignoring miie..."
"juz for a comic book?"
"wad am iie to u?... haiiz..."

iie started to hate my life more n more..
iie shall die man...
shall spoil my life and die!
die die die die die!
iie know it's childish to say die...
but no matter how childish or how small da situation issh....
all this means alot to miie and it's hurting miie more not u guys...

sometime iie do wonder...
wad am iie lurhhx...
juz a fool?...

my existence feel extra lurhhx...
iie hate this...

iie can only rely on myself...
when one's sad, habing someone to rely on issh surely so good...

but iie can no longer hab any lurhhx...

this sux... this sux....
this sux sux sux sux sux...

P.S: ChewPing cared about miie alot today...
guess it's due to my sickness bahx...
well...
Thanks a ton! ^-^

._it hurtz_.
[[_life sux_]]

Sunday, 15 July 2oo7

today woke up at 10 plus...
whole day internet has problem...
even my sister's complaining...
wad happen to da bloody internet man....
haiiz...
didn't talk much to hiimx today...
super sad...
but i'll get used to it...

today when internet's okay, mostly i'm playing da online game name GUNZ with hx...
yeap!
it's a guy fren...
but tt's da only thing iie can get my mind off all da silly thoughs and boringness...

Thx Hx from accompanying miie...

Sometimes...
iie realise...
when even i'm sad, lonely or hurt....
da only person iie can rely on...
was juz plain miie...

no one else...
there's no one iie can rely on...
usually, it use to be hiimx...
and atleast iie felt better knowing someone's there fer miie...
and he's da first one iie felt confident in tt he'll be there....
but seems lyk iie didn't treasure it, lost it and it's never coming back any more...
haiiz...
blame miie...

iie hate this....
maybe dying might be a better option...
so depress now...

._Depress_.
[[_crying_]]

7.02pm