Sweet-Sacriifice: Stress

Fine...
my life feels more n more stress now a days...
due to da exams...
my head almost burst in class during my exams today...
iie didn't manage to finish my summary...
not even a proper sentence...
i'm sure to fail now...
wad's wrong with miie....
why iie can't even finish it in time...
why am iie so slow...
20marks gone...
fish my life! X( [no valgaries here...miie guaii kiia XD]

after school, lend XiaoWen's FnN book to print so can study...
in da end...
gave up...
hahas...
so return the class Daily Attence Book...
then went to look for XiaoWen to return her book...

after that da sky look so darn dark lyk gonna rain...
oh well, then walk home alone...
upon reach Mac that BLK, the rain started...
saw Vincent then say hi lurhhx...
after that proceed back home...
reached a BLK Near 221...
then the rain poured...
iie stood there...
starting at da rain...
da divers passing by must have tot i'm crazy...
staring at the rain lyk tt...
hahas...
waited for da rain to become smaller then walk home...
still did get wet...
hahas...

looks lyk kat n ben are better now... think iie cared too much...
iie was wondering why ben become so bad keep making kat sad...
but oh well...
iie guess they were juz busy n stress about studies that they neglected each other...
hahas...
good for them...
hope they get even more close close...
hahas...
atleast ppl around are starting to hab a better life...
so ben, treat her even better after exams uhs...
pay up for all dahhx neglectation u've done these few weeks...
iie created a word,WOW x]
hahas....

okay... iie shall go bath now as later 7pm i'm habing BIO tution which will be my LAST!
WOW! YEAH! celebrate!
hahas...

shall continue my blogging later...
gya na! [jap dehhx "see ya"]

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[[_8.27pm _]] BACK

finish my tution early today...
there's wasn't much to go through...
and i'm getting da basic understand now...
now all iie hab to do issh to read through the other parts myself...
so as to realli get hold of it...

as usual, iie let my dog out...
as my tuition teacher kinda like their presents...
as always, my museli distrub us...
hahas...
he from da floor, climb to my teacher lap then to da table and slp on da table...
naughty as always...
hahas...
here's the evidents...

muahahaha....
caught in da act...

he lay on da book as he dun want us to study...
he wants attention...
hahas...

the culprit face!

ii'm getting addicted to da song pao mo from Wee's blog...
therefor iie downloading it from bai du...
and kept listening to it...
iie dunno why am iie so addicted to it...
but iie guess it's because of da memories it brought back to miie...
about miie and Wee...
haiiz...
oh well...
time for some 'quotes' post...
hahas...

say u love miie
say u do
hold my hand
and we'll take off
together as one...

say u love miie only when u realli do....
hold my hand and never let it go...
bring miie away to a place without worries and pain...
and we'll stay there together for eternal...

boy, dun take ur time...
take chances...
before u realli lose it...

dun touch miie...
dun hold miie...
dun kiss miie...
if u dun mean it...

promise to a guy are remembered...
promise to a gal are eternal...

breaking a promise means
breaking her apart

dun leave miie behind...
take miie away n fly...

fairytales were neber meant to be ture...

my fairytales are the love u give miie...
without them, my life would be a nightmare...

okay... enough of da quotes...
now back to posting my thoughts...

i've been thinking alot..
iie dunno wad i'm thinking about...
but it's juz that my mind is so populated with so many thoughts
that it's about to explode any time...

today during English papers, my mind was suddenly filled with so many past of miie n Wee that iie almost died down there...
but then again...
questions pop up...
that made miie sad...
not because it's not answered...
it is because it's questioned and answered to miie and by miie...
and that's why it's sad...

iie cannot tell u all much here...
then again...
another secret to all of euu...
iie dun wan history to repeat again to a different ppl...
iie dun want...
but wad can iie do...
these happen due to my fault...
to not being able to put down and let go and forget completely...
or am iie moving too fast then iie am suppose to...
iie should hab settle down and rest...
but if without that movement...
iie wouldn't be motivated to walk on with life at such a great speed and motivation...
iie wouldn't even cared about my studies...
and iie wouldn't be able to bring up my courage to solve matter...

and now...
ii'm stuck...
to make a decision...
but every decision will hurt ppl...
and if iie stay at this place for too long...
things will get worst for miie n for them...
and history will be repeated on different ppl in a different way...
and iie will end up habing nth...
and then my life would be meaningless...

iie dun wanna lose anyone...
and iie dun wanna hurt any one...
nor iie wanna be ignore or hated by anyone...
but the solution doesn't consist that...

haiiz...
why am iie alway into such problems...
my life feels so dramatic...
can't it juz be normal...
iie usually crave for an interesting life...
but now, forget it...
it's enough of an interesting life...
too enough...
iie juz wish it to be normal...

oh well, now a days, i've been kinda stress up...
body started to weaken...
appitite low...
headachs...
most of the time tired but unable to fall aslp at night...
thanks to my studies, ppl around miie and the problems...
iie can never do stuff without being bewi becarefull...
everything iie say and every move iie made are clearly being observe by ppl...
juz a small mistake would make my world upside down...
juz when iie tot everything would be alright, stuff happen...
it's hard to keep up a smile that ways...
always worrying, did iie made ppl angry, and all those..
it's realli tiring and stressful...

haiiz...
today post issh so long...
i've said as much as iie can about miie...
and sharing as much as iie can to the ppl who wanna know n cares about miie...
iie juz hope ppl dun get da wrong ideal about my post or smth...
oh well...