addictive

back on blogging today...

today got a bit misunderstanding bahhx...
thanks to my stupid brain....
well, let's nt talk about it...

iie find tt saying is easier than doing it...
yeah...
stay as frens...
be frens...
we're juz frens...
but iie clearly know my heart can't do it...
my mind can say "we're juz frens" as much as it wants...
my my heart can't....

alot ppl tell miie he does hab feeling for miie...
even JJ kor...
yeah, becoz of this i'm even more in pain...
because if tt's true, i'm nt the only one in pain...
and if tt's true, then why?...
why is he hiding his feelings?...
why can't we continue to walk though together?...
i promise i'll take wadever that's coming towards us...
i've been holding on so long already....
and sometime iie felt lyk an idiot...
sometime iie feel lyk why am iie the only one trying so hard...
but when was they tell miie come to my mind...
iie wonder....
are you trying as hard?...

joel n iie did talk about it...
maybe it's like wad iie told Panda before we even got so close...
iie remember telling Panda maybe iie won't wanna stead with the one iie love the next time...
as i'm afraid that after steading, things will change...
the closer we get, the more we expect from each other....
blames will become bigger and more sad things will happen due to the expectation...

but...
things aren't as simple as iie think...
the more u love someone, the more euu wanna get hold of it...
the closer euu get the more of it u want it....
it's addictive...
yet poisonous...
it'll hurt u heart and ur mind...
and the person's personality and it's mood....
it'll hurt everything juz like a drug...
it's a drug tt torture ppl but won't realli make ppl die...
only about 10% of the whole world would die of it...
hahas...

miie n my crap...
but somehow...
iie got a strong feeling...
iie dun care if he love miie or only take miie as a sister...
as long iie give it all iie hab...
and as long as i'm still with hiimx...
and as long as we can still be together...
iie will continue loving hiimx...
=)

love sure is dumb...
hahas...

anyways...
my fren Edbert fund a job for US!
yay!
Nokia event dehhx...
meeting on Saturday 6am at Yishun MRT...
by 7.15 must reach Sentosa...
Going to sentosa work one day niia...
$50...
hahas...
still got slot...
anyone wants?...
but must 100% can then comfirm with us uhs...
cannot last min say dun wan...
hahas...
so HAPPY!

and and tml iie meeting HuiYi in the morning to look for jobs...
hahas...
miie despo for $ mahhx...
there's goals iie wanna get...
xD

and after today's War3 game...
he karp my phone not even letting miie say bye after hiimx...
but he did call back!
=) so happy...
plus plus, he ask if wanna go find joel together tml after he's band...
and and, he said he'll be waiting for my call tml...
ahhas...
happy...
small thing but iie get so happy so easily...
miie issh lyk tt dehhx...
cannot help...
x)
loves hiimx...
even though he dun...
xD

aiis...
iie wonder wad will Wee react if he read my blog...
iie hope he dun read it...
iie dun wish for his to get hurt any more...
iie can only hope but iie can't do anything to prevent it...
aiis...

oh well...
hab a nice nice song for euu guys...
ENJOY!

High School Musical2 - Gotta Go My Own Way

Gabriella:
I gotta say what's on my mind
Something about us
doesn't seem right these days
life keeps getting in the way
Whenever we try, somehow the plan
is always rearranged
It's so hard to say
But I've gotta do what's best for me
You'll be ok..
I've got to move on and be who I am
I just don't belong here
I hope you understand
We might find our place in this
world someday
But at least for now
I gotta go my own way
Don't wanna leave it all behind
But I get my hopes up
and I watch them fall everytime
Another color turns to grey
and it's just too hard to watch it all
slowly fade away
I'm leaving today 'cause I've
gotta do what's best for me
you'll be ok..
I've got to move on and be who I am
I just don't belong here
I hope you understand
We might find our place in this
world someday
But at least for now
I gotta go my own way

Troy:
What about us?
What about everything we've been through?

Gabriella :
What about trust?

Troy :
You know I never wanted to hurt you

Gabriella :
And what about me?

Troy :
What am I supposed to do?

Gabriella:
I gotta leave but I'll miss you

Troy:
I'll miss you

Gabriella:
So I've got to move on and be who I am

Troy:
Why do you have to go?

Gabriella:
I just don't belong here
I hope you understand

Troy :
I'm trying to understand

Gabriella:
We might find our place
in this world someday
but at least for now

Troy:
I want you to stay

Gabriella:
I wanna go my own way
I've got to move on and be who I am

Troy:
What about us?

Gabriella:
I just don't belong here
I hope you understand

Troy:
I'm trying to understand

Gabriella:
We might find our place in this
world someday
but at least for now
I gotta go my own way
I gotta go my own way
I gotta go my own way

Nighty night!

._Loves You_.