enough...

well...
actually iie had made my decision long ago...
but wasn't able to confirm it...
but since someone help miie choose it...
iie shall continue with wad he chosen...
so...
iie would be with none of them...
this should be a good thing...


iie wouldn't need to hurt wee any more...
no more...
iie had enough hurting hiimx that iie started hating myself...
Wee i'm sorry...
iie promised wee iie will remember hiimx...
and that will be most precious promise iie made...
and iie will keep it true...
and iie also swear to hiimx...
that our love was always true...
iie truly loved hiimx...
realli...


people who hate miie would probably scold miie bitch for leaving Wee but still say this kind of stuff...
i'm sorry to made euu all angry...
but iie would not gib a dam about wad euu all say...
becoz...
iie mean wad iie say...
iie seriously mean it...


well, i'm starting to miss hiimx...
realli...
but this was the decision iie made...
so...
iie shall not turn back...
even if iie regretted...


aiis...
iie would change my blog link soon...
sorry...
becoz iie dun hope Wee to read my blog any more...
becoz...
iie know reading this will only make hiimx even more sad...
who ever out there that love hiimx...
please help miie take care of hiimx...
help miie heal his wounds...
help miie make hiimx happy again...
iie do hope he will be the cheery hiimx...
iie love hiis cheeryness...
so please, help miie keep his cheeryself...


since 8 Nov 2oo7,
alot has happen....
decision made...
new frens...
bonds broken...
aiis...
alot...

let's talk about today....
christ kor has a close fren name kenneth...
they've been close fren for two years...
then ytd and today...
becoz of miie...
he keep lying to kor...
iie dunno why either...
he lie to hiimx that he go ah ma house when he's acturally going out with miie...

ytd,
becoz iie was realli sad on smth...
so he n kor actually wanna meet miie to cheer miie up...
but well, iie overslept...
but kenneth wanna meet again later on ...
so well iie agreed...
iie ask hiimx where kor he say dunno...
but the next day kor tell miie he got tell hiimx where he go and can call wad number to find hiimx...
he lied...
but he was realli nice to miie that day...
he brought miie to the movies, to time zone bought two bears for miie and ask to take neo print...
he everything also pay till he poke liiao...
aiis...

then the next day[today]
he meet miie at da eveing to go hiis house fer dinner as his maid will cook and his siblings will be home but he told kor that he going ah ma house...
when iie got in contact with kor, he told miie tt kenneth told hiimx he going ah ma house...
so we smell smth fishy liiao...
so they say they will see wad happen lurhhx...
so they somehow followed us...
lolx...


in the end kor caught hiimx red handed outside hiis house...
kor was furious lurhhx...
he keep asking "why euu lie to miie?!?!?!"
but kenneth keep saying "wad euu wan now?!?!?!"
then kor will reply "NO! now iie asking euu, why euu lie to miie?!?!?"
then kenneth will say "iie know! but now iie asking euu wad euu want now?!?!"
he juz dun want reply...
=="
then in the end they went to the stairs there ask ask ask but nth come out...
kor was angry so walk away...
then we[miie, joel, christ] going into the lift then kenneth suddenly pull hiimx by his shirt when the door is closing...
pull hiimx out n whack hiimx...
iie dunno wad i'm thinking then but iie went up and ask them to stop and protected kor from two punches...
hahas...
three years of bring Gans so we kinda close lurhhx bahhx iie think...

iie got two punch then felt dizzy, sat on the floor scream "BU YA DA LE LAHHX!" and cried uncontrollably ...
iie was... terrify...
but after he hit miie...
he didn't stop...
he keep wacking kor...
joel kept trying to keep miie going into the fight...
he know miie well that iie would juz bug in...
but he fail to hold miie back...
but when iie sat down n cry, he drag miie abit away from the fight...
kor stop fighting back and juz sat there looking at miie cry while getting kick...
untill kenneth ah gong come out to protect us...
his ah gong actually wanted to fight with kenneth...
thanks hiimx alot...
so after that iie got drag back into the lift, shivering...
and went down...
then saw a cute doggy that immediately brighten mii8e up abit...
kawaii desu nehhx...


iie was realli scared that iie was shivering...
it was the first time iie got hit so hard by a guy...
it was the first time this happen to someone close to miie...
iie was realli scared...

then later we sat bus back to NP then we go there walk walk n cool down...
ate sushi...
drink slurpy...
then sat down at a blk n talk about stuff...
keep habing terribal headach for about an hour or two...
then later hand cannot lift up at the neck to the shoulders there hurt...
iie dunno where he hit miie....
hahas...

but now no pain, no nth now le lehhx...
lolx...
powerfull back iie got...
xD

then later 10pm plus go home lurhhx...
but go up to 6th floor then notice kenneth was waiting for miie at that floor...
iie was shock but iie took a few steps backward when iie saw hiimx...
iie am scared of hiimx already...
he walk towards miie and held my left hand...
iie walk backwards again...
he ask if iie was okay...
and if kor's okay...
he said he didn't know he hit miie untill his di tell hiimx...
coz his di was there too...
he didn't know wad he was doing...
he gib miie two punches still can dunno???
O.o
funny...
then iie coldly reply hiimx iie was alright and all...

iie seriously only took hiimx as fren...
he ask miie for stead a few times already..
but iie rejected...
iie told hiimx iie dun love hiimx
iie told hiimx dun wait for miie becoz iie know iie will not love hiimx even in the future...
but he keep asking miie...
aiis...

and for some reason...
he remind miie of my sad past and made miie keep crying....
why he always manage to make miie cry so easily lahhx...
iie wasn't crying fer hiimx...
iie was crying for my past and myself...
he was using hiis words to gan dong wo...
but sadly...
he remind miie of my past and iie could only cry...
iie hate this...

aiis...

so end up...
iie 'so call' kap hiis phone...


iie juz hope...
iie dun nid to see hiimx any more...
i'm kinda scared of hiimx..

well, kor also hab a bit misunderstanding with Panda...
they've been 8 years of frenship lurhh...
so long...
envy them...
but they sure went though alot...
hope the misunderstanding will clear up soon...


aiis..
well...
i'm badly hurt by Panda...
habing sleepless night becoz of hiimx...
and now...
iie can't even slp at all after wad miie joel n kor discuss today...
aiis...
let miie die man..



*HATE vs LOVE*

iie hate euu
iie love euu

._WoHuiJianQiangDehhx_.

[[_will be juz myself from now on_]]
no more trying to change...