Today didn't go school again...
Mom wake miie up but iie end up falling aslp back after iie brush teeth.
Dam lazy.

haiis...
iie cutting out all the things that would somehow have connection between miie n hx...
trying to delete all the testi iie gave hiimx...
and maybe iie should leave friendster.
so maybe, it would be easier for hiimx to move on faster...
and he'll be happy without miie dehhx...
infact, happier...

after reading n deleting all the testi, iie found that miie n hx realli went though alot...
high n low, up n downs and lots of changes...
haiis...
it hurts miie...

iie love hiimx.
iie realli love hiimx real truly and deeply...
but, i'm afraid that...
if he end up with other gals, iie might slowly hate hiimx...
iie dun wan that to happen...
because if iie hate hiimx...
that mean, i'll be realli badly hurt...
even though in this world, iie might nt be the only one to go though this...
but this is how much pain those that share the same pain as miie...
and it's totally unbearable...

iie struggle to hang on alone...
without much support...
but only the thoughts of ppl who want miie to live on n be alright...
iie dun hab and can't hab ppl who bring miie out everyday to have fun just to cheer miie up...
but iie have ppl who are willing to hear miie out.
iie dun hab ppl to crack jokes to cheer miie up whenever i'm breaking down.
but iie hab ppl to encourage miie to hang on.
iie dun hab ppl to occupied my time so that iie wouldn't remember sad things.
but iie have memories that iie can recall...
even though it'll make miie cry n make me sad.
it doesn't matter, because it's our memory.

infact...
iie stop going out that much.
because iie hab something to do...
something that is the least iie could do...
even though it's nth much.
but iie do hope it'll make hiimx happy for just that one day...
even without miie...

ppl been asking miie to hang on and move on and relax and take it easy and forget about it.
iie say i'll jia you.
iie realli will and am realli are...
but iie still feel i'm slowly breaking down into pieces.
one piece by one piece, it falls off...
is this punishment?...
retribution?
just like how iie left Wee for Hx?
if so, iie felt it...
and it's painful & unbearable.
sorry is already too late.
life realli sux... (: