sorry for not blogging for a few days now.

i'm in contact with Wee aot now.
DAMN happy can?...
i'm so glad he decided to give us another chance...
i'll gib all i can to love hiim.
i've set my goal.
"To try my best till 1st NOV 2oo8."
if nth improves...
i'll quit...
i'll not bother euu any more...
but untill then...
i'll try my best.

Friday

Today ahPOH's birthday.
didnt went school.
iie msg WeeTeng and she didn't reply.
iie tot she was sleeping so therefore = to one go to school.
so iie went back to sleep.
untill she finally reply me around 7am plus...
but its too late le...
i'll be late for school.
therefore iie replied her tt iie would go to school nd explained myself.
and went back to sleep.
woke up at 10am and prepared.
meet pohli, pat, wenqiang at 12 plus.
then styled the guys hair and went to yishun mrt station.
met up with WeeTeng n Xiaowen.
Then see john wear formal, comming up the exculator.
DAMN COOL & SHUAII.
hahas.

took MRT and went to cityhall.
the sakae sushi buffet starts at 3pm.
we're early by half an hour.
so we went walk walk around untill times up.

we were the first goup to enter for sakae sushi.
damn nice!
iie ate till iie could nt stand straight and walk.
iie gotta hunch a little.
if not i'll feel like vomitting...
>.<
too filled.
ate 3 cha soba, 3 sakae chawamushi and alot other sushi
damn yummy.
that say complain next time dun wan eat this any more.
everytime eat untill lyk that.
but now think think...
IIE WANNA EAT SAKAE SUSHI BUFFEET AGAIN NEXT TIME!
hahas

after that we walk to marina there.
sat by the see, took pictures and talk.

WenQiang talk to me till iie cry.
he keep saying how bad iie am.
how much iie did nt try to be nice.
how lousy a person iie am...
haiis...

I TRIED MY BEST IN LIFE ALREADY ALRIGHTS.
i'm sorry for being lousy.
i'm sorry for being dumb.
i'm sorry for being bad.
i'm sorry alrights...
but iie know clearly, iie did my best to think of everyone.
iie tried my best to do things for ppl sake.
iie tried my best to make everyone around me happy.
sorry for not giving euu enough of what iie got.
i know i'm lousy at it..
but......
i've tried...
what else u wanna ask for?
i gave everything i got.
and its still not enough?...
i gave so much that it hurts...
sobs......

maybe i should stop thinking for myself.
iie should stop caring about my own feelings.
iie should just concentrade of other ppl feelings.
would that be enough now?....

it realli hurt damn much when he said that iie didnt care for others n all....
haiis...
it hurts...
it freaking hurts...
i hate hiimx the most.
I REALLI HATE HIM THE MOST!
he's damn bias...
SUPER BIAS!!!
hate hiimx...

after that my makeup run as iie cried.
iie did try my best to hold back my tears le...
sorry that iie didn't succes.

after that iie go toilet, wash face and remakeup.
after that go back n then we took lift up to the roof.
look at the sea view...
and it was beautiful.
iie wanna bring the one i love there.

either to that place or vivo there.
DAMN NICE!
think vivo's roof better.
BIGGER, QUIETER, DARKER, WINDIER much more ROMANTIC.
lols.

then took photos n all.
after that we went lots of place trying to buy 4bia dehhx ticket.
everyone's 16 le, accept for xiao wen...
wow, she's the youngest in our group.

even meet Miss Siva, our CHEM teacher and asked her for help.
But too bad,
ticket sold out...
sad.

so end up we went back PlazaSing n watch Wall-E.
DAMN cute.
love it!
"walll eeee" , "eeavaaa.", "dicrective"
lols.
kawaii desu nehhx.

after that juii go home le lurhhx.
then pat keep emo.
dunno for what fuck.
damn du lan.
iie rather iie talk to wall then talk to hiimx.

got home, got scolding but iie go hong mama.
then she okay le then iie go bath n all n slept
(=

any way, iie created a new blog.
hehe.
a secret blog.
its for someone dehhx.
hahas.
HaoKor's the only one who knows the link.
why?
iie dunno...
he's someone who i realli look up to for advice.
my brain is written: "he's a very nice person n a great kor."
hahas. ^-^

i'll end here.

Today is suppose to be a happy day.
Why am iie feeling kinda depress now?...
haiis...
Jai you~ iie gotta stay happi n positive...

N levels, N levels , N levels...
iie hate it. suddenly hate it.
Dun use this to push me down, control me or treaten me n all.
i hate it.
i'm losing confident...

Hate being force to do smth.
Dun force me to do anything!

All this mixed up feelings make miie hungry.
Am feeling happy yet sad, angry yet in pain and depress + stress + disappointed + lost of hope.
So fuck up can.

I hate disappointing ppl.
but iie know i'll disappoint lots n lots of ppl this time round.
I'm very sure that with the standart iie am in, i will not be able to go up sec5.
Even if i do, i will suffer.
Because i'm the one studying now so iie know.
I'll try my best alright.
But its not a promise that i'll go up sec5.

Feel like crying now.
But iie mustn't.
No one will be there for me even if iie cry.
No point crying also.
Nth will change.
I kinda understands what's going on.
iie always refuse to accept the fact that it's all gone.
Always lying to myself that iie just gotta try harder, there's still hope.
FUCK YOU SHUWEI!
THERE'S FUCKING NO HOPE.
STOP IT ALREADY!

I must stay jian qiang...

i should hab gib up everything and move on.
EVERYTHING!.
I'm fine with my life now anyway.
Even though smth feels like its missing...
but...
realli....
maybe its realli time for me to let go and move on.

DARN IT TEARS.
STOP TRYING TO COME OUT OF MY EYES.
SUPER XING KU.
HARD TO CONTROL...

What is love?

Love means loving someone with ur whole heart.
Even though he/she might break ur heart one day, u just gotta believe its nt today.

Love means regardless how much he/she hates you.
You just gotta remember that, you loved her.

Love means giving them the chance to break ur heart again and again and trusting them it won't happen the next time.

When love leaves you.
You dun leave love.
You open the door and let them be free.
When love comes back.
You dun push them away.
You open the door again to let them in.
As long as you love him/her, nth is impossible.

Love is DRAMATIC, SAD and TRAGICAL.
But no matter how pain it is, it's still beautiful.
Because you're in love.

Love means...
Understanding when its time to let go and when its time to grab hold.

Love doesn't work with one hand.
It takes two hands to clap.

Be true to love.
Love only when u're in love.
Stop when u're not.
Dun break hearts like how ur ex breaks ur's.

Dun give hopes.
Be straight forward.

Pain is there for us to learn,
Not there for us to stop trying.

WTF is love?!?! xD

[[_AiBuXuYaoTiaoJian_]]

xoxo, Jasmine <3

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Sorry for nt blogging everyday.

Today went to school.
Had Maths paper1.
Dun think can pass but at least i can do quite alot.

FLUNK MY BEST SUBJECT.
GEO!
15 pages.
done 3 page only.
The rest, ALL BLANK.
what's wrong with miie today?...
Miss Moh is so gonna kill me...
=="

after school, went home and bath n all.
Meet chris kor then went to Dover to find Carabelle mei.
She's the only one iie realli accepts as mei.
I'm still trying to accept the others.
iie need the feel, euu know.
xD

Love my bao bei Carabelle mei lots lots. (=

After that chat with her a lit n then she gotta go off.
So went back yishun with kor.
Ate yong tao fu and then went home.

Now blogging.

Today kor did ask miie one question.
He say "which part of ur life did u felt the most happiest?"
iie think think think...
and guess what?...
my answer was...
my answer was...
very cute one huh.
it was....
when i'm with Wee. (=

Surprised?
Don't be.
It's a fact in my life n in my head n heart.
so yup.

It's paiful to be with HongXian.
Dun ask me why.
iie dunno.
Maybe coz he can control my mood damn easily.
and somehow he didn't realise it.
Oh well.

iie remember asking kor what's the feeling of being in love last time.
He said the hearts feels warm warm dehhx.
And iie shook my heart n said "realli?... somehow i dun feel it..."
it just getting colder n colder somehow...
Then Hx was there too that time.
He said "where gt, iie still do feel it."
as he said, he touched his heart/chest and flash me a smile.
That time was damn happy.
But guess it was a lie after all...
Or maybe, its just temporary...

But oh well, it's over.
I dun care about it any more...
It doesn't matter to me any more...

Tml i'm having Chem and FnN.
Last papers!
Shall go study later.
Dun wanna flunk it any more.

Tml after school, meeting kyran to go study.
Heard that he has about 24sets of maths paper given by his teacher.
My head gonna go boom!...
xD

Then Thursday meeting joe, they all to go somewhere.
Forgotten where le.

Then Friday is my school's cross country day and teacher's day n acer day.
school will end at 11.30am.
Then we'll go home change n make up n hit the town to celebrate AhPoh's birthday.
Gonna eat sakae sushi buffet n go walk walk. (=
WeeTeng, XiaoWen, AhPoh, Patrick, WenQiang, AhJohn, LiYing, PohLing n ME are all going.
Dunno still gt anymore ppl coming nt.
Like i say, the more the better. (x

Changed my blog n friendster song le.
Go check it out n enjoy.
Wait a while for it to load alrights. (=

Wonder how's WEE.
Hope he's doing well with his exams n all.
Jai You!
Fighto!
(=

Today msged hiimx.
Hesitated in including "i misses you." in the sms.
Somehow...
am afraid that...
it'll sound fake to hiimx...
I send hiim those words anyway.
Leaving the results to god.
Knew he wouldn't reply my msg.
Wasn't expecting one either.
didn't know since when did iie stop hopping so much.

YTD sent hiimx a commen in friendstr too. (=

[[_imissesyou_]]
[[_ThinkingOfYouMakesMyHeartFeelsWarm_]]

and that's truely true. (=

i'll end here for today.
Dun miss miie too much guys~

xoxo, Jasmine <3



BRIAN McKight - I Believe Lyrics [Blog's]

Some people think they've seen it
But once they get in between it
They find out that it's not the way they hoped and they prayed it would be
The stories are so dramatic
The endings are sad and tragic
You find yourself so far away, a distance that love could not reach

[bridge:]
It's easy to find a someone, a mister or miss for right now
Promise you'll never leave someone you can't leave without

[Chorus:]
Baby I believe it's you
I don't care what other people say or do
It only matters what we have is true and I believe it's you
Oh baby I believe...

Some people say they have it
Only to find what they have is habit
Like waking from a dream and every cliché is true
Is it better to love somebody and lose?
Then never to love somebody who
Doesn't feel like you do, fairy tails don't always come true

[bridge:]
It's easy to find someone, a mister or miss for right now
Promise you'll never leave someone you can't leave without

[Chorus:]
Baby I believe it's you
I don't care what other people say or do
It only matters what we have is true and I believe it's you
Oh baby I believe...

How did you think I found love
I wasn't sure 'till right now
I wasn't loud enough 'till you... 'till you

[Chorus:]
Baby I believe it's you
I don't care what other people say or do
It only matters what we have is true and I believe it's you
Oh baby I believe it's you
Baby I believe... it's you



INA - FALL LYRIC [FRIENDSTER]

I gave you all you desired
All that you needed
Boy, I provided
I let you into my head
Into my bed
And that’s a privilege
I had your back at the answers
You took the dollars
I took the chances
Defended, battled and fought
Cuz I thought you really loved me
I don’t know where to start or where to stop
No, but I know I am done
I’ve had enough

So fall out of my hands
Out of my heart
And when you hit the ground
You’ll be sorry that I’m not around
I will watch you
And you fall out of your mind
Out of your fantasy
When you hit the wall
Think of me
I’ll be on the top just watching you fall

You said that you were the strong one
I was the girl
And I was the young one
I kept your feet on the ground
My head in the rounds I had you
You told me you were so grateful
I was with you
And I was so faithful
Stood by in all that you said
And all that you did
I loved you
I don’t know how to act or what to say
But I know I am good
I’ll be okay

And you fall out of my hands
Out of my heart
And when you hit the ground
You’ll be sorry that I’m not around
I will watch you
And you fall out of your mind
Out of your fantasy
When you hit the wall
Think of me
I’ll be on the top just watching you fall
I’ll be on the top just watching you fall

So fall out of my hands
Out of my heart
And when you hit the ground
You’ll be sorry that I’m not around
I will watch you
And you fall out of your mind
Out of your fantasy
When you hit the wall
Think of me
I’ll be on the top just watching you fall
I’ll be on the top just watching you fall

so unfair

elloz da jia.

Today morning went to gym.
Siian.
meet Hx first as other was late.
Waited for CP then we took buy down to Kathib stadium.
Waited for a while then Joe joe came with hr sis Jasmine.
Then waited damn long for Mr Tofu kor.

end up we went in first.
Then after our gym then he reach.
damn zun though.

Then went to New yoke pizza eat the buger pizza.
SUPER DUPER HARD CAN?!?!
THE FORK CAN'T EVEN POKE THROUGH IT LEHHX
SERIOUS!
IIE BITE TILL TEETH GONNA DROP OUT LE.
>.<

After that went buy drink then go play basketball.
DAMN FUN.
3 guys vs 3 gals.
but still we lost.
maybe i'm just lousy.
>.<

After that went to mac.
Cool ourselves down.
after CP left, iie went crazy.
all hyper n MAD.
lolx.
kor even took video of me being crazy.
xD

After that went home
Jasmine1 n joe came to my house to see dog.
hahas.
then they left le iie go prepare to go church.

meet kor n took bus 171 to church.
Watch the movie with winni n kor n everyone in Church, in church.
xD
The show damn nice.

after the show, carabelle cried and said she miss her mother.
so iie huged her n all.
Hoping she would feel better.
Because there was nth else i could do.
after that one of the staff came out n ask her "what's ur problem?"
then ask her go out of the room n talk.
She talk like one fucking bitch lor.
Ppl cry coz miss their mother also wrong.
fuk.
Then iie say her lor.
ppl miss their mother also wrong izzit?.
n all.

then kor n winni pull me away.
then kay lor.
iie stop lurhhx.
then iie damn angry can
it's so fucking unfair.
Ppl cry also wrong.
Church is somewhere where ppl can go to when they hab problems n needa seeks help from god and clam their mind n pray to good, worship god, thanks god n all.
Why is SUCH a BITCH doing there?...
fat n black n i dun like her face + butt!.

Forget it lor.
then iie also cried.
thinking about the unfairness.
Their life is already damn terrible with family probs n all n this kind of ppl exist in the HOMES to make their life worst?.
Aren't hostel somewhere for ppl to stay guaii n out of trouble only?
Is crying silently call dramatic?
Is crying wrong?
Is crying a crime?
This is so unfair!
She's just 13!
She's in children home because she has been abuse and need help n love n care!
But why is ALL the stuff there so FUCKING IDIOT?.
all indians n Tamils.
I AM RACE-SIS!
BUT I HATE THIS KIND OF BITCHES THAT THINKS THEY ARE STAFF AND HAVE THE RIGHTS TO CONTROL THEM SO THEY ARE BIG, THEY CAN TREAT THEM AS SLAVE, THEY CAN SCOLD THEM, THEY CAN DO WHATEVER THEY WANT AND DUN NEED TO TREAT THEM AS HUMANS.
THEY ARE HUMANS TOO OKAYS.
INFACT, THEY ARE JUST CHILDRENS N TEENAGES THAT NEEDED HELP.
THEY NEEDED CARE.
THEY NEEDED CONCERN.
THEY NEEDED LOVE.
THEY NEEDED SOMEONE TO GUIDE THEM THROUGH THEIR LIVES.
THEY ARE NOT YOUR DOGS!
EVEN DOGS HAVE FEELINGS OKAY?!?!

haiis.
sad lahhs.
iie know this post is messy.
But iie am damn piss n damn sad about the Unfairness in life.
Why is it that the ppl who doesn't deserve this treatment get this kind of torture while those who deserve it dun get punish?....
What actually is god planning?.
Is he letting those those ppl to know the pain n sufferings so that they'll grow up to be a better person?...
Is this the way he guide them?
iie do wonder...

Last night, chat with joe n chris on the phone.
joe n chris told me smth damn funny.
and iie went all crazy.
how fun. (=


[[_iHateBlackBitches_]]

[[_iHateLiars_]]
[[_iHateTheScarOnMyHand_]]
[[_ButILoveTheWayItRemindMeOfPain_]]

[[_TiredOfAllYourFunnyActs_]]
[[_TiredOfAllYourLies_]]
[[_iHateYou_]]

[[_imissyou_]]
wu[ya]er[zi][jiao[ling]

Firstly, he's nt my boyfren.
He's my 4years dehhx kor. (=

i wanna take this kind of sweet sweet photo with euu too Wee.

Today went to school.
Took cab down to school again.

Had my english paper today.
Composition iie wrote about Happiness.
But iie think iie totally BOOM it.
>.<
god damit.

Paper two was rather easy iie think.
Just that thoughts of someone keep making my mind fly off.
You know who you are~ (=

Then after school walk in the rain tgt n went to the bus stop outside NP dehh to take bus 169 to go AMK hub.
Reach le juii go buy mam mam eat.
Bought cheesy hot dog eat.
YUMMY.

Then after that go walk walk outside AMK hub.
Then bought smth from Old chang kee an eat.
Then walk walk around AMK again n then took bus 169 back yuishun again.

Got home around 4 plus.
And BOOM fall aslp again.
8 plus woke up n ate dinner then study n edit some photos n all till now.

Shouldn't have fallen aslp so soon when i got back.
Woke up then realise Wee was online in the afternoon.
But iie wok up too late.
x(

YTD play webcam with Wee.
Was realli realli happy.
He's dmn cute can.
Even thought i only i on webcam and he didn't.
But the way he talk is just plain cute.
Love hiimx lots lots. <3

everytime iie say wanna gib up then things happen to make miie dun bare to lose hiim again...
>.<
WTH...
haiis...
hope iie won't build more pai fer hiim...

[[_i wanna scream it all out for love_]]

xoxo, Jasmine

Today is like studying day...
Studied the whole day.
Aftr school eat BanMian n went to LJS to study n eat again.
xD
6.30 plus wet walk at NP.

7plus went home.
Sleep.
zzzzzzzzz.........

10plus wake up.
bath, n now blog.

Last two days iie was realli in mood swing lahhs...
even now also.
Wee gt scared by me
xD

haiis...
sorry....
iie know iie have no rights to say i love you now.
Damn stupid rights.

Maybe iie should just leave it as it is...
you'll be way happier without me rights?...
actually iie know it makes no different whether i'm in ur life or nt.
it doesn't matter any more.
You've been living ur years without me, things just gotta go back to how it is.
Isn't that better?
U can improve ur life urself.
And seems like u're doing it.
You seems happier. (=

Give u n the other gurls that like u a chance.
Ai cannot mian qiang but can pei yang.
Give it time.
If really cannot work out then forget it.
But u'll never know until u try.
Dun be afraid to be hurt or hurt them.
At least it's nt as much mistakes as i do can le.
Know what u're doing.
Pain are there for us to learn but nt there for us to stop trying. (=
You never know u'll lose a chance in getting smth better.
Don't let the pass hold you back.
What's important is what's in front of u right now.
Grab the chance while you still hab it. ^-^

i knew it all along iie shouldn't hab come into ur life.
now it's too late to regret getting u involve in such great stage of my maturity.
i've learned alot since then.
Thanks for helping miie to learn how to love n who to love.

i'm sorry...
iie always wanted to be able to heal you the most.
But looks like i'm that dumb.
i failed n even created much much more pain...
dui bu qi...

this realli hab to stop soon i guess...
life goes on...

`✖ ` The Scar That's Left On My Arm Always Reminds Me Of What LOVE Had TAUGHT Me...
iie wanna always be reminded how painful LOVE could be.

[[_Chocolate Marshmellow_]]

Today morning wake up, meet Chris kor under my blk to go Church.
Tody the church is for adults one.
So it's kinda sleepy listening to it.

anyway, made more new frens today.(=
yay!
lols

After church, went back yishun to eat BK.
After BK, went home.
Got home, and continue msg Hx.

This morning, he started msg miie saying if iie hate hiimx, he dun mind letting miie scold.
So we kinda started msg all those troublesome things n all.
But iie didn't reply hiim whn i'm in church.
i onli replied hiimx when i got home.
and then we kinda msg till iie felt giddy n headach n told hiimx iie needa rest.
let's nt talk about this any more, it's meaningless now n all.

Slept from 3pm all the way to 7.30pm.
Then msg chris n hx that iie wake up le.
as chris did call miie when iie was sleeping.

After that, chat with hx online in msn.
Kinda came down with the conclusion that we shall onli be frens.

Oh well...

Sorry, but iie dun believe euu still love me.
Now all the evidence i hab can onli convince me that u love XueYan more than anything in the world.
It has became a fact to me le.
Sorry, i can no longer believe euu like how i used to.
All the best for euu n XueYan, ur XiaoZhuZhu...

Wee~
How hab euu been.
Jai you in ur exams wor.
TakeCare of ur body too.
Dun fall sick wor. (=
Gambatte!

xoxo, Jasmine.

Today morning, meet Joel, Jasmine[joel's sis] and Chris at 11pm at Northpoint OCBC bank there.
Took bus down to Yishun Stadium n went into the gym.
Use the cycling stuff first then to the trackmill.
Then went to buy water n came back n try out almost everything.
We gals left the Weight lifting stuf all to the guys.
Other than that, we tried out almost everything.
Shiock.
Wonder tml will hab musscle ach nt.

We work out till 2pm n went to Kathib Mac n eat.
While chating, we laught alot n then iie laught laught laught till poke tio the straw with my nose.
Then my nose gt cut n it bleed.
>.<
SUPRE DUMB CAN.
But pain pain lor...

After that Daniel called miie n ask miie if iie wanna join him n his fren watch the hiphop simi-final de competition concert.
It's free admission.
But iie promised Chris to go church with hiimx.
So iie thought about it for quite some time and rejected his offer...
Sorry again......
>.<

Therefore, iie went home n bath n prepare n meet Chris at 6pm.
Took 171 to the church.
The ppl there were all SUPER FRENLY!
That's what iie like about Christians. (=

After that, kor send me home n i bath n use com.
Then joe ask if iie wanna conference with hiim, hx n chis not.
At first i dun want dehhx.
But i end up calling in anyway.
But iie ask Joel nt to tell anyone iie am on the phone.
So as i hear them talk, i cover the talking hole n as hx talk, iie keep scolding back even though he can't hear it...
xD

BUT END UP.
I DIDN'T KNOW HE COULD ACTUALLY HEAR ME a little.
FUCK, didn't know my house phone so sensitive to sound...
siian.

after that i was finally reveled
Chris did hang up before i was reveled.
so he msg me just when i'm reveled.
then my first few word was...
"christ said tt he will call back later..."
"he say tt if hx hang le we still wanna talk then call hiim."
then hx say "okay, bye bye"
karp!
=="

my explination went wrong again.
chris did msg me saying he WILL call back joel's hp.
But he alo did sy that if HX hang up already then we can call hiimx.
Probably he was busy.

iie cried again today.
Chris, Joel n Jasmine were there for me.
But iie was thinking all the way how nice it would be if Wee were here for me.
but iie know he couldn't...
and maybe he could never be there for me any more.
Everything's changed..
even though i always wish he would be there for me.
But...
it just seems so obvious that....
he couldn't...
maybe even wouldn't...

i wonder for what iie cry sia...
everything's over le.
my life has started a new.
i'm moving on.
but why for that instand i felt such great pain?
the thoughts of KC, Wee n Hx simply hurts somehow...
the pain didn't come from just HX.
it's all acumilate into one big giant PAIN....
guess onli my heart knows the ans itself........

GAMBATTE WEE!
UR EXAM'S COMMING IN ABOUT 1 WEEK TIME LE!
JAI YOU! (=

[[_This Is All That I Could Do_]]

Today went school as usual.
Everyone came to school today.
But somehow, things feels different a little in the begaining.

Class went pass as normal
Nth unusual.

After school, chiong home n bath.
Then about 2pm, i meet Chris kor n joel di at Yishun MRT station.
Went to AMK hub n watch Meet Dave.
Joel underage so can't watch Love Guru.
Maybe nt time. (=

Movie starts at 5.15 so we went to bought the yummy ice-cream.
It's like snow~!!!
YUMMY!

After tt walk around AMK n Joel even challange someone at Soul Callibur 4 outside a game shop.
LOLS.
looks like he had fun.
then dunno how we walk walk till almost time le juii go buy pop corn n nacho n went in.
Meet Dave is SUPER FUNNY!
Smth worth watching in a cinema.
Alot ppl laught tgt. (=

Aftr the movie we went walk walk around AMK.
Saw two parrots.
At first they well like "hellow~" "hellow~" "meow~"
lols.
but after i said Konbanwa!.
it went silence all the way.
>.<
is Konbanwa realli that scary???

After that we sen joel to his church n went home.

Chris told me some stuff that makes miie feel rel hurt.
Makes miie feel like...
No man can be trusted...
Aiis....

I've learn a lesson...
A big lesson...
Life can never be like the stories n comics written so lovely n dramatic.
I gotta learn to be realiastic.
No more living in my fantisy world.
No more believing that ppl can be totally trusted.
I dun even trust myself...

No more hopes for me (=

Today morning wake up around 6.10am n chiong preparation n then meet Pat n went school tgt.
Bought mam mam to school thinking tt i could share it with everyone...
But end up only Me, ahPoh nPat came.
the rest all MIA...

Today damn guaiis, very attentive in Eng class.
After eng class, iie saw christ kor n talk to hiimx.
ask hiim how's his bouquet of lollipop as last monday he sms miie asking if there's any place where by he can buy tt right now.
This kind of things needa order before hand one what.
So iie suggested to hiim to go buy alot of lollipop n bring to the flower shop n ask thm to help hiimx wrap into a bouquet.
He replied that he hasn't buy it yet.

After that, Miss Moh walk pass n pulled my bag along with me n drag miie back to class.
LOLS.
It was her period already n she dun wan miie to be late.
So ya.
Then instead of teaching us GEO, she taught us SS as this two sub are combine tgt dehhx.
So she wanted us to get better marks so she used her period to teach us SS.
In the middle of her class, Daniel msg miie n iie forgot to off my HP silent.
X_x so she confiscated my HP again n returned it after her lesson.
After her class, she sayang sayang my head to ask miie try nt to absent myself that much as N level's comming in 20days time.
All iie could do is nodded my head.
Am happy though. (=

After that was PE.
While sitting outside one of the first floor class[3ta], iie was talking to santina n saw XueYan walking pass towards her class.
Was staring/looking at miie all the way lahhs.
Then when Santina walk away, iie stare back lor.
Then she look away.
SEE SEE SEE, never see before izzit?.
What iie do sia.
iie gt reason to hate euu but do u hab reasons to hate me?
by right, iie should hab stop disliking euu le lor as i'm TOTALLY OVER UR "GAN GE" HX!

forget it, i'll just ignore the pathetic act of little gurls.

after tt, juii recces, MT, Math n VE.
then school ends le.
Went eat lunch with, Pat, Qiang, Kailin, ahPoh & WenLing.
After tt, went home, bath n use com a while juii fall aslp le.
Utill 8pm wake up then eat dinner n study le lor.
Study math algebra, standard forms n all. LOLS.
Study half way...
WEE TALK TO ME. (=
happy happy.

finish talking le juii feel motivated to study le.
so continue study lurhhx.
Didn't do much prat ice.
Rather, iie listen to the explanation online more.
Went through GEO too.
My fav sub.
Hope can score high high then the other sub can hab more point to spare.
ENG n FnN.

This year need 3 subject, including ENG to be 10 points n below.
supposing, it'll be easy to pass if iie gt study.
I'm aimming on ENG, FnN and Combine Humans now.

Alot of my frens advice miie that if iie dun like studying or know tt iie am nt gd in studying, i shouldn't go up sec5 as i'll be wasting one more year.
I'll end up going to ITE again n spending another 2yrs then go poly.
Because O level is gonna be three time harder than N levels.

But alot of ppl ask miie dun go in ITE as the ppl there usually will influwence miie to not study n i'll turn bad.
And they keep asking miie to pass N levels n must go up sec5...

aii yoos...
Zhe mo ban...
iie wanna pass N levels but iie know i am nt the type for studying dehhx...
iie wanna go up sec 5 but iie scared iie fail my O n end up wasted 1 more year...
>.<
heachach lahhs...

TML meeting Christ Kor, Joel di & Edbert after school to watch movies.
After that juii go home n study study study.
Sat, morning 6am meeting pat n christ go running as now i dun dare run at night le.
Then after running, i'll go home bath n go study with CP & HYing at XueLin jie jie house.
i'll leave her house at 4pm n go home bath again.
then 6pm, iie will go to church with Christ kor.

LOVES MY BUSY LIFE!

Very long never step into a church le.
The last time iie went to a church was with my sis.
We went to city harvest church.
That place DAMN BIG.
xD

I'm currently enjoying the lollipop my sis gave miie.
YUMMY!
Love lollipop.
After finishing this lollipop, i'm gonna go brush my teeth n go to bed~

OYASUMINASAI DARLING! (=

._i've learnt to not gib myself too much HOPE_.
no hope = no disappointment = no fall = no pain = no tears = no sadness

[[_Baby, TellMeEuuLoveMeOnceMore_]]

Outing day

Today almost late for school.

If it wasn't for Hx's sms, iie would hab miss school again.

Thanks again wor. (=

He morning msg miie asking miie why XueYan wanted to know my class.

guess he's worried tt smth had happen between us.

So iie replied tt iie did know why n also tt if he's intending to tell her, ask her if she's blind as she visit my Friendster profile so many time still cannot see what's my class.

Then he ask miie why so iie reply i'm nt sure but most probably she wanna see what you would reply miie in comment as tt time iie send hiimx some.

And also in another sms, iie said "you're also another funny one, it's she view miie nt iie view her, you ask miie why for what?"

Well, iie know this sounds kinda rude.

I'm sorry alrights. (=

so he got pissed n we kinda quarrel alit.

After that, iie meet Pat n we took cab down to school tgt.

Was almost late.

Then school just went pass lyk tt n all.

After school, sat bus with WeeTeng untill Northpoint there then we got off n went for lunch.

Me, Qiang kor n Pat went for lunch.

after that, they send miie home.

when iie gt home, iie open the gate with my one n only key which iie grab this morning as it looks easier to take.

Then iie took out my shoe out n wanted to open the wooden door.

but then iie realize it was lock n i only brought one key out.
I WAS TRAP!

Called mom n she ask miie go her work place to take from her.
So iie called Qiang n Pat to accompany me.
After that took MRT down to mom's work place n took key n money from her.
Then went back home, bath n go out with Qiang n Pat.
Went dhoby ghaut n bought the jap sweet as a present for JingZhi.
After than wonder around n decided to go bugis walk walk.
Saw alot of clothes iie feel like buying dehhx...
x(
Damn xin ku cans.
Can see cannot buy.

After than went to the 3th floor foodcourt eat.
Bought PASTA.
but it's SUPER YUCKY!
SUPER OILY n SALTISH lor.
Waste my $6.80.
end up eat less than half plate only juii feel like volmitting le.
So never eat much.

After that, took MRT back home.
Reach yishun le then meet mummy at FairPrice n help her carry the stuff she bought.
LOVESSS MUMMY!
Just simply love her can.

Then went home, bath n blog. (=

Never study today beside studying in school.
TML not gonna go anywhere.
After school eat n come back study!
GAMBATTE!

Today didn't go school.
Wasn't feeling well in the morning all the way till the afternoon.
Nose is like water tap.
Then keep sneezing n wiping my nose till damn red.

Damn tired the whole day.
Morning 9 plus, ahPoh call miie n ask miie help them check the movie time slot.
So iie wake up, too my laptop, place it on my tummy n go online check the time slot.
type down in an sms n send them the time slot.
after that finally can sleep le.
Sleep till suang suang then ErJie called miie n ask miie help her go find a pink book n look for someone's e-mail add.
So iie pull myself awake again n search for the book n read the e-mail gib her.
Then sleep till suang suang again daddy came in n scold miie, why never go school again n all then iie woke up n sleep back again.
Then sleep till suang suang mommy shout from her room asking miie why iie never go school again n all...

Then suan le, dun wan sleep liao.
Wake up n brush my teeth n all.
Then on laptop again n reply all comments then started studying.

When iie was about to go Log in the website to study dehhx, then HE talked to miie in msn.
AM REALLI HAPPY CAN.
This motivated miie more.

After tht iie felt more n more unwell...
and wrote in my nick that iie wasn't feeling well.
So he noticed it n came n ask if i'm alrights.
iie felt realli very happy.
But i'm like multi tasking.
Chat with hiimx while studying n trying to concentrate n ignore the giddiness.
Slowly, iie felt more n more giddy.
Wonder if i've said anything wrong...
As he sounds so shiong in the end.
I was realli very giddy lor...
I wanna study, but iie feel realli tired n sick n iie wanna chat with hiimx too but iie felt strengthless n damn cold.
aiis...
Wonder did iie said anything that made hiimx angry...

After that went on studying till 8pm.
Bath n went to buy mam mam.
Wanna buy porriged but the shop close le.
So bought FriedRice instead, forgetting that i can't eat them.
iie only ate a few spoons n lose appitite again le.
Not gonna eat it anymore.
I'll just drink more water.

Mummy ask miie help her SaiYiFu n vacum the floor.
But iie only help her SaiYiFu...
Feel strengthless to vacum the floor.
Sorry mom...
Now i'm damn tired.
Gonna slep soon.

Oyasuminasai Sweety.

one newly edited photos.
others are edited by TanXiaoWen last week.
P.S:finally able to post pic again. >.<

Morning 10am woke up.
Meet Daniel at 11 going 12 oclock then had breadfast & accompany hiimx go cut hair at FarEast.
After that we did't have anything to do so decided to watch movie.
The Month of the Hungry Ghost, or smth.
It's just like a normal TV show ut last for about 2hrs introducing about ghost things n our culture n all.
And he watch till he fall aslp.
xD
This stuff doesn't intrest hiimx.
They talk in chinese n hokian n all and he can't understand them as he's from MyatMa.
Unless he reads the subtitle lahhs.

After that, meet pat at city hall.
Waited for hiimx for like 20 mins.
While waiting, there's this two kid who LOOKS younger than me.
Like sec1 or sec 2 lyk tt asked for my number.
My first question was "how old are you?"
And he replied "what about euu? how old are you?"
and iie replied "16"
and he said "i'm 16 too, born in 1992 rights?"
but iie still refuse to gib hiimx my number but he insisted on it.
So iie ask can iie gib e-mail instead?
At first he refuse, but iie keep insisting that iie dun realli talk to strangers.
So end up he agree so iie gave hiimx my e-mail n he left.

Today didn't realli hab the heart to study during Class.
But remember that this morning, Wee msg miie to ask miie JaiYou study.
So iie tried my best to clam my mind n pay attention in class...
Am realli happy to recive his msg so early in the morning. (=
It made my say seems brighter somehow.

After class, iie was all hyper...
The 'evil' part of miie came out.
iie was like all hyper n crazy...
I was like torturing hiimx n all...
And iie realli enjoy seeing hiimx suffering in my hands.
MUAHAHAHAS!.
xD

Then on my way home, iie saw the cat that the last time iie post her sleeping photo here dehhx again.
She was sleeping around the ame place but in the middle of the road.
so iie went towards her n she woke up string away n keep meowing at miie.
So iie tot she was hungry so iie bought a packet of food n fed her.
She was realli enjoying it but my whole hand kana the fishy food smell.
YUCK!

But it's good that she enjoyed her meal. (=
Meow Meow~

tt's all for today.
nights everyone.

xoxo, Jasmine

I'm home today.
And ya, as usual, iie always tends to think alot when i'm home.

I WANNA STUDY TODAY!
Can't seems to find my password for the page where iie can revise my chapters dehhx website.
Just for the password, iie needa pay money one okay.
F***
gonna contact the perso later to ask what happen.

Couldn't help missing HIIMX today.
Should go find more stuff to occupipe my time.
I dun mind going out alone n wandering about either.
As long as it save my mind from thinking too much. (=

iie should keep my mind set as waiting for fate.
But somehow, iie tot about something since ytd.
Sometime, if fate dun comes to us, we hab to go find fate.
Without hardwork there wouldn't be pay off.
Even though what meant to be ur's will eventually be ur's.
But...
What if fate gib us chances but we ourself didn't take the intiative to grab the chance???...
It's true that without fate, effort will be wasted, but without trying, how do u even know if it's meant to be urs or nt?...
Just like without tasting the food, how do u know that if it's yummy or nt.
Even though if the food eds up yucky, atleast u learns n understands that it's yucky.

Everytime see hiimx online feel realli happy.
Yet, i dare not talk to hiimx.
Dun wanna end up distrubing hiimx.
He's always busy with his school work.
School work more important okays.
And dun wanna take risk spoiling my own mood either... (=

iie can't do anything.
iie dare not do anything.
All iie can do is sit here n wait...
Wonder will the future lies for us.
Hopefully, it'll be a happy one...

I always hab alot of plans on my mind, but when ever i come to blogging, iie would kinda forget it all.
>.<

did iie say before i'm gonna go exten more hair on my head after N?
Becoz now iie feel that my hair is too little to created the effect of the hairstyle i wan.
xD
But then again, maybe nt. (=

I so gonna CHIONG to shopping after N levels.
i can't wait to buy more clothes.
LOLS.

Oh. and finally, CP present arrive le.
It's nt from other country nor is it very expensive but, it sure is hard to find and it's brand new!
And i'm gonna find time go buy the JAPANESE sweet for her too. (=

WAH!
ZHI HAO KOR! IIE WANNA KILL EUU!
UR BLOG'S SONGS MADE MIIE MISS WEE EVEN MORE.
ALMOST CRY CANS.
>.<

oh well...
but the song sure is nice, exspecially with that kind of blogskin.
It become all so sad n sweet.

I'm going to my ah ma house soon.
Will blog again later. (=

9.57PM

BACK!

can't seems to get HIIMX off my head today...
this sux...
where did my positive thinking went to???...
>.<

aiis...
today's nt a realli gd day...
is my GOOD DAYS gonna end soon?
are those BAD DAYS starting soon?
haiis...

ALL BAD THING CAN COME!
I DUN MIND!
Just please stop after 3 weeks.
The most gib euu last timme oct.
after that, please, dun spoil my life.
Please dun spoil my life too much...
i dun wanna lose hiimx.

xD
i'm crazy.

[[_NOTICE ME PLEASE_]]

Start of a new chapter.

YAY!
GT MY MINI LAPTOP LE.

Sadly, iie can't post how it looks like here as my house's internet seems to hab somekind of problem stopping us to.
Oh well.

Today morning 10am plus wake up.
Went market with mom to buy her stuff for cooking n praying to god god dehhx.
After that, gt home n waited for the delivery man.
Then the guy deliver to my house & explain all of the stuff n was about to pay by credict card but the card gt prob.
So iie go bath n went down to bishan with the guy to my aunt house.
I even msg my mom saying "you nt scared he kidnap me har?".
letting miie travel all the way to bishan by MRT with a young man around his 20s. which we oly met for like 1hr ago???
LOLS.

reach le then found my aunt house.
AND FINALLY GT TO MEET SUGAR THE DOGGY!
KAWAII DESU!

Then my uncle settle the paying prob and also bought a chinese dictioary for Da biao mei, JINGZHI.
Stay there play till 4 plus going 5 then left n went home with my aunt's family.
Everyone stayed at my house n had dinner.
MY FIRST MEAL OF THE DAY!
mommy's cooking is the best man!
(=

After that had to entertain both BiaoMei.
When i finally run out off batt, i let Da Biao Mei play my HP game while XiaoBiaoMei play barbie.com.
LOLS.
then both squeeze in my bed playing game while i lay on my bed rest.
Was having headach.

when they left, i was using com replying comment n all.
dunno why my life suddenly seems to change so much.
or was it just me who us changing?...
Alot of comments now a days.
From both gurls n guys.
well, guess times flies n things changes.

A NEW CHAPTER OF MY LIFE HAS STARTED. (=
And i'm sure that it'll be a kinda happy one.
Even though GOOD THINGS NEVER LAST, but i'll try my bet to keep this happiness.
Without hardwork, there's no happiness. (=

btw,
HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE!
ILOVEYOU SG!
WITHOUT I WOULDN'T MEET ALL THE PPL HERE N WOULDN'T BE SAFE FROM NATURAL DISASTER!

i finally started to love my life.
but iie kow i'll hate it again sooner or later.
Life gonna be harder n harder.
Ppl grow older n older n ppl comes n go..
Goodybye can never be prevented.
TREASURE THE PPL AROUD YOU NOW.
BEFORE IT'S TOO LATE.

HAPPY NATIONAL DAY & HAPPY HOLIDAYS EVERYONE!

3 more week to N levels...

INTERNET LOUSY AGAIN!
CAN'T POST PICTURE AGAIN.
SIIAN!

Today almost late for school.
Then gt meet PAT
so iie 6.45am wake up then called hiimx "pat, now then iie wake up lehhx, zhe mo ban?"
lols.

after that chiong prepare then 7.15 took cab to school.
7.22am then reach school.
late by a little.
heng today no detention.

After that, time flies and concert time gt singing dehhx...
We sang and then later blah blah blah n went to eat ban mia then after tt juii go home le...

Gt home, went to my mama room, she still slping thus air-con is still on.
Climb up the bed n fell aslp.
After a while, went pee pee then went to my own bed slp till 5pm plus.

Then went dinner with mom n went NTUC bought alot mam mam.
Now home le.
Blogging n all...
Mom suddenly spoil my mood...

Was feeling rather happy.
Like "TODAY'S ANOTHER HAPPY DAY FOR ME!!"
and iie hope that iie will never loss this kind of happy days.
But good things NEVER LAST. )=

My leg's better already. (=
Can walk normally, JUMP & even RUN!
hahas.
but iie can't wear shoe tt's like school shoe.
then nail hit smth a little will pain.
So ya...

WAH!
PHOTOS CAN FINALLY BE UPLOADED.
BEEN USING MY HP TO POST ALL THE PIC THESE WHILE!
YAY!

Today went to school.
Meet pat then meet WenQiang&WeeTeng for breadfast.
Yummy.

Went school and all.
Study & sleep. [at free period]
After school went for lunch with WeeTeng, ahPoh, WenLing & Patrick.
Didn't bring enough money today.
So didn't hab money for lunch.
But they all insisted on miie habing my lunch & went buying the food fer miie.
THANKS GURLS & STARFISH FOR UR CONCERN!
LUBB YA ALL LOT LOT. (=

Today's another go called happy day bahhs.
Even though after eating, i emo the whole day.
But it was due to the weather.
It was all dark clound and windy day.
I wanna smile n stay happy but could help being all tired and moodless.
SORRY!

After that went home, bathed and meet MUMMY.
Went shopping.
Mom bought me a MINI LAPTOP.
Actually it came in an educational package.
The memory of the laptop is only 2GB lor.
xD
Mom bought for miie to study only.
Not for gaming.

After that saw alot of makeups on sales.
So bought concealers, 2way foundation, eyeliner.
And bought two things that can help miie tidy up my eyelash a lit bit when putting on makeups.

Intending on putting on MakeUp on days when i feel like to only.
So don't worry.
xD

After that went eat n all.
And then gt home around 10pm.
Now damn tired.
Gotta go sleep le.
Tml iie going to National Day celebration at school.
Guaiis rights? x)

Wee~
How have euu been.
Hope u're eating well.
Don't gib urself too much stress kays.
LOVE YA! (=

i no longer need an answer from euu.
i dun need any answer any more.
i'll just be here.
Whenever euu need miie.
i'll be here, waiting for da day that we'll be tgt again.
When everything could be restarted.
When everything would be perfect, just for the two of us.
No more distrust, no more one sided love, no more unneeded pain created.
Untill the day when we will stand strong tgt.
Untill the time comes for us to be tgt.
When we got the chance from fate...

P.S: Am realli happy. Thanks to euu. (=



[[_SweetMemoriesOfMe&You_]]
._You'llNeverBeForgotten_.

Meow

Just got home again from night class. Today totally can't concentrate in chem tuition. Additional 4ppl join our class which was noisey enough already. Now it's like noisey till can't study. Sian... Meet daniel after class. Chat a lot. Then chat till 10.40pm like that and we parted. He's a really nice and frenly guy.(= after that jui went home le. Nothing much happen today. Wasn't feeling well the whole day. As usual, ate one meal today. Totally no to appetite these few days. Oh, today Wear slipper to school everyone saw my badly injured toe and kept asking me what happen to me. I keep repeating the same thing till Damn Sian. But i know everyone's just worried. Thanks guys! Todays is so called a happy day for me. I'm 90% happy today. Finally, a day that makes me feels so happy and blessed to have all the frens around me. (= Wonder how's Wee today. Hope he's as happy and cheerful as always. And i really miss you today... When will we be able to be beside each other, smiling and laughing happily? Please stay happy wor. Let's jai you tgt for our exams/tests. Gambatte! Sorry for the merry post again. Used HP to blog again.

I ACCIDENTALLY KICKED MY DAD'S HARD HARD BAG AND MY TOE NAIL ALMOST FALL OFF.

blood slowly leak out from the wound through my nail.
iie was like bearing the pain n making all kinds of funny sound till my family scold miie noisey and iie broke out my tears.
then finally, my mom came and some how nurse miie a lit bit.

DAM PAIN CAN.
as my mom put the yellow medi, iie was like chewing on the skin of my left hand.
find it kinda delicious somehow.
xD
but still...
PAIN!...

can't control my tears just now... )=

Prelim

Today had my Chinese Prelim Paper.
Totally flunk it!
aiis...
About 3 more weeks to N levels.
i'm so dead.

My First N levels paper is Chinese - o2 Sept 2oo8 @ 8am to 10am paper 1, 10.30am to 12pm paper 2.
Chinese Listening Comprehension - o3 Sept 2oo8 @ 8am to 8.30am.
Social Studies o3 Sept 2oo8 @2pm - 3.30pm.
Eng paper 1 - o4 Sept 2oo8 @ 8am to 9.45am
Eng paper 2 - o4 Sept 2oo8 @10.30am to 12.10pm
4 Science paper(BIO/CHEM) - 29 Sept 2oo8 From 9.45am to 12.45pm
Maths paper 1 - 29 Sept 2oo8 @ 2pm to 4pm
Maths paper 2 - o3 Oct 2oo8 @ 8am to 10am
Geo paper - o3 Oct 2oo8 @ 2.30pm to 4pm
FnN paper - o8 Oct 2oo8 @ 2pm to 3.30pm

Wonder why the timing all split so big dehhx.
Do we have to go to school when there's no paper that day?...
>.< style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">D.Gray-Man today.
Here's the First few episodes for euu all to watch fer fun first.
It's SUPER NICE LOR THIS SHOW! [to me lahhs.]

Miss Wee....
My heart's hurting a little by little as i misses hiimx...
When will i be able to contact hiimx again...
haiis..

我很怕.
I'm afraid that thing would change...
I'm afraid that i would not be able to get everything back to normal...
I dun wan anything to be different...
I wanna make everything back to how it was...
But it needs time...
and iie lack confident...
What if iie am not able to heal though wound?
What if those wounds will never we able to heal?
But i dun wanna lose hiimx either...
aiis...
these thoughts are tearing miie apart.

._TornApart_.

[[_uoyevoli_] [[_uoyssimi_]] [[_uoydeeni_]]
wu(ya)er(zi)(jiao)ling


P.S: INTERNET STILL SOT.
CAN'T POST ANY PIC ONLINE. )=

Sushi day

Today i went to sakae sushi with baoli, weeTeng, ahjohn and pat. Ate till Damn full. Almost can't walk after that. Total cost was 94.75 dollars. I only ate like 10 plates lahhs. Feel like i'm gonna grow fat soon. Later wee don't want me for sure. Lol. After that meet Xiaowen and HweeHuang and left Yishun at 6.15 to go city hall for extra lesson. Today's class with as usuall. As usual, we can hear the dancing class's music from downstair in our room. Even the floor's shaking. Wonder if wee's having fun and how does he look like when he dancing. Haiis... Every time i write about him here, i feel so dumb. What if he end up don't want me and rejects me? I'll be feeling so dead. Everytime i always xing gan qing yuan de. Ppl never agreed only say need time think yet i bury myself so deep in. I am really dumb isn't it?... I'm sorry if this post looks like this. Because i'm using my handphone to post this post. It's 1am already and i needa sleep. I'm just doing a quick blogging. Oh well, i miss you... Good nights.

Tml's gonna be Monday again!
YAY!
GT NIGHT CLASS AGAIN! (=

Everytime i've always been hopping for miracles to happen.
even though i know it impossible.
but iie still hope i might be able to meet himx.
my heart will totally be mess up.
and even though i wanted to meet hiimx by chance so badly, i wouldn't dare to look at hiimx.
now just by thinking of it makes my heart skip abit.
i hab great imaginations. (x
DRAMA! xD

But still, i look forward to tml's night class. (=

Today am home the whole day.
Read the manga online the whole day.
xD

Miss Wee too.
To what extend did i miss hiimx?
To the extend i wanna see hiimx right now. (=

Now thinking back...
i'm all so happy n all, hopping this, hopping tt, miss hiimx n thinking alot of things n all about hiim...
Scarly he end up dun wan me then i'll be like from heaven fall all the way to 18 floor of hell.
Maybe nt 18 but 1800000000000000 millions feet down into hell...
aiis... )=

Somehow....
now just by thinking of Wee, makes miie smile.
i wonder why.
is it because today i'm feeling happy so i'm thinking of all the positive things tt's why i'm so happy just by thinking of hiimx?...
He's realli someone who makes miie realli happy and realli do so much and touches my heart.
He's the type of guy that i will never have any douth in & he's someone who cannot be replace by anyone.
As in like other ppl i stead n break le, their love can easily be forgotten n replaced, but Wee's different.
i dunno why.
I will never forget the way he loves me then.
Aiis...
now say so much also no use... )=

oh well, i'll be waiting.

[[_it's my turn to wait fer euu_]]

Today online MSN around 7 or 8 plus till now.
Changed my Blog's Song & friendster profile's Song & changed my MSN nick.
What other changes did i make???
hummm...
dunno...

i'm thinking of growing my hair long and let it grow back thicker.
As my current hair dehhx layers are too messy and too much layer tt's why it's QQ.
Then iie wanna cut my layer back neatly.
When will that be possible???... )=
Hair~ Grow faster cans?...
XiaoWen asking my to cut my hair SHORT with her.
Because she wanna cut but dun dare cut alone.
Should i cut my hair short???...
>.<"

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Later TV got show incredible tales.
Gonna call JOEL and watch the tv.
Coz no one pei wo watch then iie scared lahhs.
Especialy now is HUNGRY GHOST FESTIVILE.
If only Wee could watch it with me.
xD

[[_Gib me one more chance to love euu right_]]

Today, as usual, i stayed home.
DAMN BORED.
But what to do?.

Internet was slow as usual.
So didn't online MSN again today.
Maybe it's good that iie didn't online.
If not i see Wee online, iie will hab the urge to talk to hiimx online.
LOLS.
xD

Spent most of the time sleeping than studying. )=
haiis.

Just listen to the song 只欠一句我爱你.
suddenly recalled the time when miie n Wee went to Sentosa that day.
Heart suddenly gt a warm warm feeling.
Kinda happy dehhx feeling.
But then again, it doesn't last long...
Because the state we are in now, might never be the same as last time again.
Haiis.... )=

Wonder how he's doing now.
Everyday, gt the urge to sms hiimx but.
We shuo hao le.
After his exam then he contact me.
So...
I'm waiting.

What if he didn't contact me?
Could that be that,
he never wanna see me again?...
haiis...

Today watch an anime & read an interesting manga online.
World Destruction & Ga-Rei.
I prefer Ga-Rei a lit bit more though.

Today's the second day of the Hungry Ghost Festival.
I personally is Suay one.
In fact, my family are the suay ones.
So sometimes will meet tio.
So hope & pray tat WE won't meet any by chance this year.

Thanks for tagging ppl. (=
I just happen to see alot of my frens putting their BS links at the shout out.
So i followed.
Monkey see Monkey do can.
Hope i dun get spam for fun because my BS link can be found easily through my friendster shout out.

So ppl, please, NO SPAMMING.
Thanks. (=

My school 1EA ppl sure are friendly huh.
All go around friendster adding who ever's in northland.
Wow.
Compare to them when i was Sec1.
iie didn't dare do it.
Because, that time iie hab a smaller social circle.
And i'm more quiet n soft spoken.
Didn't wanna cause any trouble so didn't put any effort like add who ever's a Northlander.
Oh well.

Darn it!
Why is it that the song's codes that i wanna find so tt iie can put it in my blog dehhx always dun hab.
siians....
is the song I decided by R kelly really that rare?!?!.
F***!
xD

Forget it.
It's 3.03am now.
iie shall go sleep le...

Nights.

Today didn't went to school.
another day of missing school = another day of loneliness.

Damn boring at home.
nth to do.
all iie could do is staring at the com.
internet was slow.

haiis.
another day of emo.
feeling sad the whole day.
very depress today.
all those kind of negative thinking.
but then again, there's also positive thinking when iie suddenly feel happy.

LOVES THE SHOW D.GREY-MAN.
was at first introduce by Hx but nt because of hiimx then i like this show dehhx.
but iie personally love it after watching 100+epi.
lols!
it's smth like naruto&bleach.
gt fighting fighting but like bleach magic magic and everyone has its own special powers.
heart-warming at time, hilarious at times and full of surprises.
Defiantly something worth watching!

Just happen to watch it at art central today.
was laughing.
And finally felt happy today.
hahas.
been a long time since i've watch it.

miss Wee today.
tot of lots of things.
i'm afraid that things will not work out after all the damage i have done.
if he realli leaves me.
iie dunno if i could accept any other relationship or nt.
because of all the dumb decisions i made, i damage nt only HIS heart but also mine.
my life is full of regrets.
my greatest regrets started out when i was SEC2 and last till now.
ever since SEC2, the wrong decision i've made is countless.
have i grew DUMB or what?.

sometimes, i just feel like ending my life.
because, everything seems so meaningless after all the wrong things i've done.
i know its stupid, but... (=

because, i'm afraid of death.
because i dun understand what would happen after death, so i'm afraid to die.
if only we understood what would happen after death, maybe we wouldn't be so afraid of it.

sometimes i do wonder.
what is wrong with me?
why and how could my life end up so miserable all of a sudden.
within only a few years only.
i use to never had a care in the world.
i didn't care who didn't like me, who uses me, who is my enemy, why did i exist and all those kind of funny question.
i never dislike existing nor like existing, i just live my life as it passes each few days.
hopping i would grow up faster.
but now, ever since i enter secondary school, i wishes i didn't existed.
iie realli wish i could erase my existence.
but reality says it's impossible...


Today's Rate:

80% Miserable
20% Happy