Today had my N Level Science Bio n Chem paper.
And Maths paper1.

Bio was like okay okay.
Chem too.
not too easy, not to hard.

Maths was like, TOTAL FAILURE.
T-T

Today sms Wee alot.
he replied all of my sms.
was realli happy.
he damn cute can~

Chat with Hx on msn.
it's like months since we last chat on msn.
kinda sort things out n clear things up.
both of us has the same mind concept.
we both somehow understand that we can never be tgt again.
so yeap...

me n Wee is like going on well.
am DAMN happy.
if iie get the chance to hold on to euu again, i would never ever wanna let euu go ever again.
^-^

Oh oh, iie remember tagging n saying i'll be talking about my group of frens.
the GUYS.

yup, they're GUYS.
and most ppl might think that it's unusual to be best fren with such a big group of guys.
but who say it's impossible.
well, we know each other for quite sometime already.
and yeap, iie did stead with one of them before.
but break liao.
n we talk it out le.
and said that somehow, we're so gonna stay as frens.

as for the others.
chris n joe know me too well le.
so much that we dun think we can make it as stead any more.
so dun worry.

zhang yuan is my ER ZI.

Larhvin is a INDIAN.
iie super race-sis one.
so yar...

And one and only, JASMINE.
who has the same eng name as me.
love her to core.
((:
but iie nt lass.
[x

They might be a group of guys but they're great frens.
they might hab some good points n some bad points.
but each of us are filling up the good n bad points of each other.
We help out one another, and never like leaving anyone behind at all.
We might get angry at each other and fight once in a while.
but this will never break our frenship at all.
because we believe in each other and understand how each of us take each other as.
we're just like one big family.
a family that i will never wanna lose.

but iie know good things never last.
maybe one day, we'll break up.
having our own other group.
but iie know we'll never forget the time n moments we shared n the memories we created.
(:

._OneForAllAndAllForOne_.
._NoOneWillBeLeftBehind_.

xoxo, Jasmine wanna hold on to himx tightly n never ever let him go.

guo nan nu

ppl who didnt read this post on 28 sept then too bad lor.
iie remove the valgarities n all le.

Sorry ppl for the vulgarities.
i know that its so nt me.
but iie feel better after scolding all that.
dun ask me who iie scolding.
that bitch and bastard will know themselves.
if they dun then too bad lor.

if any of u wanna approach me n say i'm scolding u then go ahead.
becoz u ownself admit u're tt kind of ppl dehhx wad.
iie never say the person name down wad.
go ahead n hate me.
i DUN care.
u desearved to be in my hating list.
becoz u did nth but LANJIAO stuff to make me hate you.
u should be proud of urself.
becoz most of the ppl dun get the chance to.
its hard to get into my hating list.
congratz, u're the bitchest of the bitch and the moronest of the morons.
do u wan trophy?

Current No Of Ppl In My Hatig List: 4
keep smiling idiots.

u FORCED n MADE me hate YOU with ur own bare hands.
dun ever forget that.
NaBie.

today wake up then prepare n go study with CP le.
study study study.
cant learn much.
head feel like exploding.
having a very bad headache.
dunno why also.
since 2 days ago already gt slightly dehhx.
but after that the pain just getting bigger n bigger day by day.
today was like rapidly hurting me.

then 6.15pm, we left MAc n went home n all.
now home n blogging.

read someone's stuff.
feel bloody hurt n angry.
why do u like lying to me so much?
does lying so much gin u anything?
u'll regret it soon.
if ppl end up finding ur lies, u'll be dead!
but u're the first liar that i meet that can LIE SO WELL.
what's ur trick?
teach me lehhs~
pui!
iie dun wanna learn such lan jiao stuff from u.

seriously, its time to start changing for the better.
it's never too late.
so stop it.
stop lying n hurting ppl.
stop it!....

*SMILES*
damn happy.
lols.
actually hai hao lahhs...
Wee msn m when iie was out to ask me to Cheer Up.
iie wonder do he know what's wrong with me.
do he know why am i sad?
oh well...
(:



loving someone...
unconditionally?

love them THE WAY they love u.
love them for WHO THEY ARE.
TREASURE them.
TRUST them.
be TRUTHFUL to them.
be LOYAL to them.
if there's anything u think that will affect the relationship, talk it out with ur partner.
dun drag things too long, it'll onli make matter worst.
it takes two hand to clap.
if one of the couple refuse to talk things out fairly, then there's no use trying to hang on.
unless there's a reasonable excuse.
be CONFIDENT in urself n the relationship.
LOVE urself before u love others.
you LIVE FOR URSELF, not for others.
no one like EMO ppl. so dun emo too much.
if there's anything wrong, say it out.
surprise them once in a while n do things for them to assure them that u love them and you'll always do and he/she is always special to you.
think about their feelings before saying anything that'll hurt them.
u dun wanna be hurt in that way either.
if u think ur feeling's fading for them, tell them.
they'll be sad n might even cry.
but atleast they're prepared so it wont be as hurtful as a one shot blow.
if u're falling in love with someone, end the realtionship quickily n tell them why u wanna break.
DUN EVER LIE SAYING THAT U THINK SHE LIKES SOMEONE ELSE BETTER OR SMTH.
u'll end up keep her hanging on.
say iloveyou to ur partener only when u MEAN IT.
dun play with her feelings.
if u say u dun love her anymore MEAN IT.
becoz u'll keep her turning rounds n end up creating more trouble for urself.
and after saying u dun love her any more.
CUT ALL CONTACT FOR ATLEAST HALF A YEAR.
no one can realli actually forget that person they realli love that fast unless they have fallen deeply for anther.
and ever if she/he had stead after leaving euu, leave them alone.
they need time to deepen their love.
NEVER EVER stuck ur head in even if she's feeling down.
unless u love her, but for the best of her, dun!...

loving someone doesn't means u hab to entertain them n all.
i know you're worry that he/she will be bored out by u.
playing with her hair or just li siao-ing him/her is enough.
we just need the one we love to be beside us, showing us
and that's pretty much enough for gals.
guys, iie nt sure.
coz i'm nt one.
but for so far, what i know, most of the guys are idiots more likely to like being entertain.
so gals, watch out.

oh oh, and guys, some gals are need reassurance.
saying i love you n i miss you n just sparing time out to be with her once in a while is nt enough.
NEVER NEVER NEVER BE LAZY.
there's no such thing that things can work out without HARDWORD.
there's no such things as laziness in love.
NO WAY MAN.
if u think encouraging him/her to study and spacing time out for him/her once in a while is enough then u're so wrong.
humans need love and affections too.
we need ur love and we need ur care n concern and we need PROVE to know tt u love us.
the prove is all written in ur ACTIONS n WORDS.
it's just that simple.
other guys n gals can go it.
WHY CANT U?.
right?.
(:


end of theory.
fren ask me write what i think about love n wad hab i learned so far about it.
so yeah.
iie think that's about it.
maybe some cant recall yet.
hahas.

xoxo, Jasmine loves hiim

aiis...
today is a sad n happy day...
infact, a hardworking DAY but a super happy n super sad NIGHT.

iie cried just now...
becoz of one simple reply.
it might seems like nth...
but sweety, u're nt the only one being hurt.
u're nt the onli one with injuries all over ur heart.
i have my own issues too...
regardless who's hurts is more pain n all...
it shouldnt matter...
what's important to me is that, love should be fair among the couple.

a mistake done is a mistake learn.
and i've learn n am trying to change for the better le...
sweety, please dun gib up on us.
unless u have no feelings for me any more.

aiis...
today afternoon, meet wee at 2.40+ then went to near school dehhx mac n meet CP n hd our brunch.
then xuelin turned up n we started studying all the way till 10pm plus.
Xuelin left at 7plus while CP left at 9plus.
Then Wee continue teaching me till 10plus.
after that he walk me home n we chat n played alot.
iie got home then saw hiim walk to the bus stop.
tried to gib him a surprise but failed...
and even worste, end up crying...

but guess i'm alright now.
i hab frens that cares about me.
i'm happy to hab them as gans n frens. (:

now blogging n am going to sleep le...
night.

[[_tears rolled down my face once more_]]

[[_loving someone is hardwork, but loving someone who don't love you hurts_]]

xoxo, Jasmine wished to be his PRINCESS; iloveyou.

loving someone...
what does it takes to love someone?

the willingness to sacriifice for each other?
to love them n care for them?
to take them as who they are?
to understand them?
to be there for them?

how can u defined love as?
what is love?
what is love all about?...

iie dunno.
but it's addictive and painful...
sometimes, deadly.

i'm addicted to euu sweety,
i really am...
or was it all just my imagination?...

no one know when's it real n when's it not.
because sometimes our minds play trick at us.
and sometimes, even our hearts too.
and sometimes, our heart get tricked by our minds.
it's all so complicated.

wasn't it suppose to be a simple thing?
why has it become so complicated?

isn't loving someone simply means loving them n accepting them as who they are?
why is pain even involved?
isn't it just an extral?
or is god making a fool out of us?
enjoying show from up there?
making hi own drama series?...



today, went to school in the morning.
almost late, heng nv.
study n sleep in class...
damn tired n lonesome.
lols.

after school, went eat with gang n all.
stuffs happens n then iie went home at 3pm.
feel aslp.
then 5.30pm wake up.
prepare to go wedding dinner.

meet 3th aunt n took train down to AMK.
meet uncle simon n cousin n er jie.
then uncle simon drives us there.
eat alot n am very sleepy.
then after that uncle simon rive us home too.
got home, bath n put mask n all then online.
internet gt prob so ask er jie help me make.
then done le jiu online n chat wif wee.

haiis...
think totally gt nth to say.
keep asking crap question.
darn it, iie screwed up!
>.<

after that go blog the secret blog.
and now i'm blogging here.
gonna sleep le...

been habing headachs for days...
know tt its nt just any normal headachs.
becoz the pain feels so different.
either my brain is refunctioning or i'm just plain stress pain.
lols.

hao le, Wee asking me go sleep n he' sleeping too le.
chionging finish bloggin~~~
and now, i'm gonna sleep~!

*yawns*
nights guys.

xoxo, Jasmine wanna tell euu, iloveyou, Wee.

today went to school.
study study n more study.
study till headach.
lols
coz been thinking of stuff too...

morning Wee msg me what he wanted to tell me...
aiis...
well...
iie hab no comment on this.

but i'll still continue to work hard.
either way, it'll affect me.
coz i just can fall out of love so easily...

aiis...
iie feel real down now.
not coz of the msg...
but smth else...

i hate being in love.

8 letters, 3 words, one meaning & deadly.

xoxo, Jasmine

Cant believe iie realli study a lot today.
O.o

wake up,saw wee's msg, replied hiim n waited for the reply.
after that went online.
search for new blogskin.
changed n edited it.
and now, tada~!

saw the tag n all.
went explaining myself.
after that chris kor called.
ask me want go study tgt mahhs.
i hesitated.
n think think think.
i did promise Wee that i wont go out.
but i did promise hiimx that i will study too.
and iie ask kor, u realli go study?
then he say "ya, no matter what, i must study today. i dun care what, i will study today"
smth like tt.
so iie was like since he say till like tt, must as well go study tgt.
and so we meet up, had lunch n went to joe's house n study.
begaining, everyone keep playing, damn noisey, only me n chris kor studying.
after that slowly, it quiet down n chris fell aslp.
LOLS.
iie did chapters of 10 years series.
can say i'm atleast trying my best to concentrade n study.
hahas.

after that we went for dinner.
then eat half way, er jie n ma called me to go home as the dogs had came back from gromming and o one's home to open the bloody door.
so iie rush my food n took cab home.
came back, Dogs n Groomer went MIA.
so waited for the dog till going 9 le then they come.
after that juii nth le...

Wee said he wanted to tell me smth..
somehow, iie know its a bad news...
haiis...
heartaching le...
i'm scared n worry...
but its now or nv...
haiis.

[[_i'll take the pain_]]

xoxo, Jasmine fear of losing hiimx...

iie gotta explain before ppl wu hui me coz of the tag.

that guy who tag me tt is a guy jio-ing me alright.
i'm sorry for nt getting it clear to hiim that i dun wan hiimx to call me that.
but iie just did by sms-ing hiimx.
iie already told hiimx i'm waitng for Wee.
but he just keeps hanging on.

yeap, tt's all.

and yeah, i've finally said it.
i'm waiting for Wee.
iie was hoping he would understand my intentions n feelings without having me to say.
and hopefully he did...
been waiting since 16 july.

and after so long of waiting, i'm happy n proud to say, i do love him.
and am finally able to put Hx aside in the past n a closed chapter le.
but...
iie somehow, know tt we will nt hab chance to be tgt any more.
iie can feel tt his feelings like fade for me le.
oh well, what can u expect after being hurt so much?...
it's okay...
if he's happy, iie should be happy for hiimx. (:
i know i'm trying my best le.
and so, i will shouldnt have any regret.
i know it sad n painful this way.
but its okays.
i'll take the pain.

xoxo, Jasmine love hiimx.
for real, i do.

today woke up at 1 plus.
after that prepare till 3pm.
then me, ma n er jie went out to shopping.
5plus going 6 then er jie gotta leave for work le.
then we continue shopping till 9 plus at night.

i bought 2 dress, 2 tube top, one layer skirt, one bag, one shoe, 2 necklaces n a pair of earings.
oh oh, and some skin care products.
spent about 700 bucks including my mom's stuff n er jie's stuff.
mostly were spent on me though.
hahas.

Alot of things happen the past few days.
maybe i'll blog it tml after school.
because i'll be home for 2 weeks straight.
hahas.

Promised Wee that i'll chiong study from now on till N levels.
and i'll do it.
a promise is a promise.
and i know i have to work hard for my own future.
nt for others.
hahas.
but am doing both.
[x

will be attending school and night classes le.
iie know its such a last min thing.
but its better than nt trying at all.

wish me luck then.

sometimes i just dun understand u.
fuck, i hate it.
i hate you!
i know u hate me too.
and that's great!
i'm the curse of ur life n u're the curse of mine.
that's why we must nv be tgt.
but still, thanks you for all that u had done for me.
and sorry for causing so much trouble to you.
goodbye forever.

(:

All The Best To Everyone Who's Taking N levels Too.
GAMBATTE!

[[_missing you_]]
._i'm waiting for you_.

xoxo, sad jasmine's working hard.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JASMINE, MY FUTURE DAUGHTER IN LAW!!!
Ahhhhhh!
i just gt a daughter in law!
yeah!
i'm so happy!!!

ZhangYuan♥Jasmine.
Jasmine♥ZhangYuan.

WOOO HOOO!
Joe joe's happy for his own sister too. [:
Great~!

Sorry ppl,
iie know iie hab been changing my BlogSkin alot.
Coz i'm currently in love with many of them.
hahas.
Loves tha BlogSkins.
I dunno why iie change i into this blog skin.
Just loves the emonish feelings.
muahahas.
will change BlogSkin again soon...
(x

today, a siao gi na msg me say i msg hiim what prono thingy.
fuck his grandmother man.
call my hp, first word go "KaNiNa you send me msg blah blah blah"
he said i msg hiim "DARLIG, WANT TO SEE MY NAKED PHOTO?"
FUCK LAHHS.
i not that cheap okay.
u horny go geylang, dun come here play child game with me.
my sent msg totally dun hab this kind of msg lor.
he MUST have seen the wrong no then scold me.
FUCK HIS BLOODY GRANDMOTHER GRAVE.
scold my mother also lor.
iie talk to hiim then he like very big,scold scold scold, then gib kor hear then he like a dog.
begaining talk to hiim nicely he gan gan gan.
si eh du lan.

[[_you're my one&only_]]
._the only one wif the key to my heart is YOU_.

[[_i've done all i could_]]
._now everything's up to you_.

signing off - Jasmine.....

okay...
maybe iie should really accept the fact that i'm offically single.
whatever iie do will never change that fact that i AM single.
iie gotta start from scratch again if iie wanna go into a relationship...
iie am now not loved or wanted by anyone [as in serious relationship].
iie just gotta be me and enjoy single life.
being with my GANS family would be just enough for me for now.
i'll just be waiting for my MR Right.
iie dun needa rush thing.
patient is the key.

i DON'T need anyone to live on.
iie live for myself n my future family.
iie only CHOOSE to need someone so badly that iie feel that iie wan the rest of my life to be filled with that person, tts why iie i'll said tt i'll nt be able to live without that someone.
that's actually what everyone's doing without noticing too.
hahas.

even though it felt damn emty right now inside my heart.
nt being love n nt able to love that someone special.
that place hab been left emty...
waiting the right prince to come n take over the thron n all...
hahas.

but before iie can say i'm single n available, there still some dumb hopes iie wanna gib myself.
so i'm still unavailable for now.
After my N levels then say bahhs.

i'll be waiting. (:

[[_InThatWay, iWouldntHurtThatMuchAnyMore_]]

TODAY IIE WENT SCHOOL!!!
WOO HOO!
lols.
if it wasn't for XiaoWen, iie wouldnt hab went to school.
promised her.
so could only drag myself out from bed this morning.
Been absent for a week now.
and Chris kor come fetch me to school.
iie HATE going anywhere alone.
its scary~
even walking to n from school is lonely...
hahas.

today in school, sleep + study.
self study...
accept for Miss Mo class.
She still teaches us.
woo hoo!
so i'll be going school every Tuesday n Thursday ONLY.
as there's Miss Mo's lesson.
hahas.

i'll be posting friday post later on.
so do scroll down n read if u are intersted.
(:

[[_SMILES_]]

The Story Of The Killer Tofu

One day, Tofu met a pretty gal and immediately fall in love with her.
He tried making a giant heart with candles to show the love he had for her.

He waited n waited but the gal dint show up.
Soon, the candles melted n what's left was only the waxs.
He was sad but he didnt wanna gib up so easily.

The next day, he told the gurl about what he did for her last night.
He even confess to the gurl.
But he got rejected in the face.
He was depress n realli sad.

He then went home crying...
His frens tried to cheer hiim up by asking hiim out one day.

Who knows he was so suay that he got attacked by an umbrella man.

He then went crazy, chasing the umbrella man away with a long bamboo.

But he was so upset that he went haywire n attacked everyone instead!

So...
BEWARE OF THE KILLER TOFU!!!.
xD

*This story is totally fictional.
*Tofu is Chris kor's little name.
(x

HOPE YOU ENJOY THEN STORY!

xoxo, Jasmine signing off with a SMILE! (:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BEN [KOR KOR]!!!!
coz he older so ya, iie put kor kor there.
lols.

this reminds me of how iie become hao's mei.
iie called hiimx kor kor at first too.
because he's older than me.
but we eventurally became GANS.
hahas.

and....

HAPPY MOON CAKE FESTIVAL/ LANTAN FESTIVAL/ FULL MOON FETIVAL.
or whatever it is called.
iie had fun this year wif, Joel, Chris, Hx, Zhang Yuan n nick[chris's lit bro]
unlike last year, which is suppose to be an important day, yet we miss it.
it was becoz someone, iie forgot who, couldnt make it.
and it got canceled.
sad.
or was it some other reasons from the heart.
lols.
oh well~...

played with candles n sparkles.
hahas.
made the place ALL SMOKY.
lols.
iie made a heart with the candles too.

brought spagatti to eat with them for dinner.
chris kor [also known as tofu] brought marshmellow wif chocolate.
hx n zhang yuan brought snacks.
the other cant bring anything.

ate till very full.
then all went hyper.
dunno why.
lols.
damn funny lahhs.
iie was always the one who sat there n watch show.
weird for a gal to go crazy with a group of guys rights?.
hahas.

today tio burn by fire a lit.
joe tried to extiguse the fine by stomping on it real hard but the fire splater n flew to my leg.
gt burn a lit.
two hole.
iie shouted n sat on the ground.
joe joe, er zi n hx came rushing to me and ask me if i'm okay.
dunno why gt black sports on my leg then they help me scratch off while iie go "ouch, pain"
hahas.
Thanks ppl, for worrying bout me, specially er zi.
(:

joe joe tried opening a coke but dunno why very hard to open.
then he bang the bottle to the table n wall at the void deck but still can't open.
then he threw it real hard to the ground and the water went flying.
LOLS.
the cap crack n break n due to we shake it too much, the water went flying.
heng iie wasnt surrounding joe looking at hiim go crazy coz cant open the cap.
iie looked from afar.
plus, the wall was blocking part of me n the water flew over me!
LOLS.
the others didnt kana water as they squart down.
only nick kana.
DAMN funny.
iie saw the water fly n my eyes was like O.O WTF.

after that chris n joe gt show down.
one take umbralla, one take ppl's bamboo[the one use to hang the clothes to get it SUN.]
LOLS.
after that, hx n zhang yuan took the left over potatoe chip n ran towards them shouting "FOOD FIGHT!!"
n threw it at joe.
lols.
crazy ppl.

afte tt, everyone got engross with a little cat.
feeding it cutter fish n playing with it.
lol.
its a white cat, kinda skinny but can see its well taken care of.
it has brownish ears.
too bad, iie didnt take any pic of it.

after tt, we left the void deck n went to NorthPoint time zone.
played a while.
i'm a lousy gunner.
cant play house of the dead4 well.
scary can.

n HX own everyone at air hockey.
WTH lahhs.
he like smth againest me.
only me hor, he one hit goal.
WTH?!?!

after that everyone send me home.
and now i'm home.
n blogging. (:
gonna sleep soon.

This three days sure was fun.
I LOVE MY GAN FAMILY~!

haiis.
iie n wee teng they all like grew distance le.
lols.
iie dunno how to join in the conversation any more.
saiinz...
zhe mo ban???
will jia you bahhs.

TML iie going school.
think i'll be studying in a conner again in school.
lols.
isnt tt better?
iie cant study when i'm alone, bo mood.
lols.
but still must force myself to.
everyone keep saying about next year stuff to me.
some ask me join northland idol with them n all.
then iie keep saying: "ai ya, no more next year le lahhs. iie know my own standard, dun think iie can go in."
haiis.
wanted to go, but iie scared iie nt enough time to...
somemore iie always so playfull.
>.<

this year is the most valueable year in my life.
i've learn alot.
ALOT SAD n PAINFUL things happen.
but like iie always said, PAIN IS THERE FOR US TO LEARN, NOT THERE FOR US TO GIVE UP AND STOP TRYING.

yeap, n iie sure learn alot about life.
how realistic this life could be.
its nt all about FEELINGS or whats RIGHT or not or what u WANT to do.
but what u SHOULD n COULD do.

i'll try my best in every aspect of life.
and leaves the result to god.
whatever results he throws to me, i'll take it.
i'll accept it, n learn from it. (:

we are the controller of our OWN life.
NOT OTHERS.
we got the power to change our OWN life, our OWN futures.
NOT OTHERS.
we can only help others by giving them our own opinions.
but nt FORCING them to do anything we think its right.
it's THEIR life.
NOT OURS.
becoz we're frens, so we can only SURPPORT them in any choices n decisions they make.
and CATCH them when they fall.
That's What Frens Are For. (:
and this is how much we can ONLY do to help them.
This Is Life.

Today didnt go to school.
Meet kor kor n joe after school at kor's house.
Daddy drive me there.

Went to safra n dance dance.
woot!
then dance half way suddenly a white shirt boii come n scold christ for staring at hiimx.
=="
so diao can.
he dance ofcoz we look lahhs...
whatever.

then he keep on wanna talk outside the arcad.
but we dun wan.
coz we know if we talk outside, they sure beat kor up for nth dehhx.
better safe than never.
then they talk 1 to 1 then suddenly the guy box kor kor.
i pulled kor kor shirt n ask hiim dun hit back.
then the guy walk back again then iie tell hiimx.
"the most i help hiimx say sorry."
then iie bow n said sorry.
then he walk away as his fren make werid werid patten.

after thast we were escort out from safra n went to kor kor's house.
then kor's mama is home.
then they quarrel quarrel.
then kor went crazy.
DAMN cute n funny.

aftr that we went dinner with kor's mom n di.
eat eat eat then after that, we went to safra again.
finish the last three coins.
after that as we were leaving, zhang yuan er zi msg me n ask me if wanna go safra n play a while first before going to the movies.
iie told him i'm already there n will be waiting for him n his pa.
waited n waited...

7pm plus, hx reach safra first.
then follow by er zi n lahvi.
went in the arcad n saw the same group of boiis again
kor went there n ask for the white shirt boii's name.
and then comes along a big big group of boiis.
all scold scold scold kor kor.
iie wasnt realli that worry for him though.
coz kor's back groud is scary.
no one had never notice it only.
hahas.

After that the security guard came in again n brought them out.
MINs later.
they came in like best fren like tt.
iie was super surprise but i'm damn happy for them.
after that, chris kor told me someone wants my number.
then iie was like O.o
who?
then he say dunno.
then iie say dun wan.
after that kor ask me go out the arcad a while as they wanna thank me or smth.
iie was like .... o.O
but went out any way.
the whole group of guys went out along n iie kinda forget wad happen.
but everything ended well.

after that, my GANS family all went crazy playing with the machine.
iie kept laughing.
damn hilarious.
so many pattens one.
hahas.

after that lahvi went home by cab while kor wnt joe house.
so er zi n hx n me send them to interchange n went to buy ticket.
asked for 4bia ticket n they even check ic twice.
then we bought pop corn n went in.
we sat there a while n the show stared.
it was about the show THE DAYS.
at first, we tot it was just the advertisment.
but after that, it lasted longer than usual.
so we were confused n took the ticket out n saw the ticket written "THE DAYS"
wtf!!!
we asked for 4 bia.
why did the old man gave us the days?
er zi n hx went EMO.
the ticket cost us $10
damn ex can.
they wanted to waste this 10 bucks to scared me dehhx.
but end up, they cant.
MUAHAHAHAS.

they did try to scare me alot of time, they failed.
but the last time iie screamed.
iie went "haha, u cant scared me de AHHHHH! COCKROACH!"
lols.
then they went emo.
they got own by a cockroach.
they cant scare me regrdless how many time they try.
but the cockroad only use one try to scared me.
lols.

then they send me home n iie got home n ZzZzZzZz...
Sleep.

xoxo, Jasmine

haiis...
today feeling down...
i miss hiimx...
badly...

i've been telling myself...
"shuwei, u dun need anyone to live de, jia you."
"shuwei, single life also nt bad. dun think so much."
"shuwei, u're not missing hiimx, u're just bored."
"shuwei, he's just a fren"
"shuwei, he's just busy"
"shuwei, dun think so much, must stay jian qiang."
"shuwei, jia you~"

aiis...
very xing ku...
lying to myself is hard...

been habing headach at the right side of the back of my head these few day...
pain...
haiis...

ahhh~~~
hao xing ku...
missing someone out of ur reach is damn painful...
iie hate this kind of feeling.
haiis....

"shuwei, you musn't give up. Must stay jian qiang. JIA YOU~"
haiis...

Today nv go school.
damn sleepy.
school so noisy, how to study?...
afternoon meet jasmine for lunch n then meet joe n then went safra play.
after that, while they playing pool, iie do maths myself.
after they done playing pool, we went dance dance again.
after that juii went home le.
ate dinner, mommy cook.
yummy, bao bao le.
then use com n blog n chat.

habing heartach~
>.<

tml watching movie at night with baobiie er zi, zhangyuan & indirectly connected dehhx gan laogong.
haiis, sad that cant meet wee tml...
hope he hab fun tml on whatever he's doing. (:

as time passes, ppl enter n leaves ur live...
some leavin memory, while some left more than just a memory behind...

[[_baby, i'm missing you so much that it hurts._]]
[[_iie know n understand clearly that u're out of my reach, but why am iie still staying here?_]]

xoxo, Jasmine is dying.

7 sept 2oo8

sunday.
damn bored.
morning wake up quite early.
7am plus.
dunno why.
then msg WEE.
and went back to slp.
lols.
then 10am plus woke up again.

then watch naruto.
dunno why.
lols.
time seems to pass slower when i'm alone.
iie no longer play online games n all le.
use com only go frenster, blogger, photobucket or anime-media.
nth else.
so ya, kinda siian..

after that, bath n all n went to joe joe house watch tv n ate my lunch with Jasmine n joe.
joe tried DLing warcraft fer me but kinda failed.
hahas.
PEPSI DAMN KAWAII NEHHX!!!

after that juii watch KING KONG!
iie cried.
the king kong fighting with the big big dai-na-sor [dunno how to spell] dehhx shi hou, iie was like ahhh! nooo~~ pain!!! ouch ouch ouch ocuh!. xD
mama call me siao.
ppl who were on the phone with me almost went deaf.
xD

the king kong so sad.
just to get the one he love n protect the one he loved, he did lots of stuff.
very gan dong~
T-T *watery eyes*
jia you, KING KONG, in ur next life.
you can do it dehhx~~


8 sept 2oo8

today didn't go school.
over slept.
sorry...

afternoon, joe joe n chris kor ask me wan go watch movie mahhs?
then iie chiong prepare le but still late for da movie.
then end up go safra dance dance para para.
after that, went eat n went joe joe house study maths.
but both bo xim learn n teach.
so suan lor.

after that juii go chat with jasmine n joe n played LEGO!!!
my childhood toy~
hahas.
then after that juii went home le.

LOOKING FORWRD TO TML!!!
(x


*blury effect was auto on its own dehhx.
*no edition did to my face
*only soft effect on photo 1 (:





[[_baby, iie know u're in pain..._]]
._i'm sorry_.
[[_i'm hurting too_]]

[[_iie understand why its hurting n how's its hurting, but baby, no one taught me how to heal_]]
._i'll try my best_.

[[_baby,iie wanna heal ur broken wings, so that you could fly again_]]
._even if no one heal's mine_.

[[_you're impossible to find_]]
(:

xoxo, Jasmine missing hiimx.

just blogged my new blog.
anyone who's intrested can go read.
i've long post the website in my blog.
i posted it here sice iie frist created that blog.
hahas.
go ahead.
search for it. (:
it u're intrested in it that is...

today mornign woke up at 8am plus.
chiong prepare n meet joe joe n ja under my blk.
after that, walk to swimming complexe n went swimming~
yay.
just me, joel n jasmine.
lols.

after that bath n went to mac, eat n talk.
then meet hx, jw at 1pm at katib basketball court.
waited for chris.
then he come le juii play team lor.
siian.
lost again
oh well, Good game though.
it's fun.
and that's what matter the most. (:

after that we went safra.
DANCE DANCE the para para dehhx.
damn nice.
feel like playing it wif someone special.
LOLS
xD

after that juii go joe joe house wif chris.
then all bath n change n take things then me n kor went back my house.
forgot my keys again.
then ring the door bell damn lone then da jie come open door for me.
=="
took my stuff n all n make up for chris kor.
styled his hair for hiimx too. (:
EMO again.
xD





[[_baby, i'll do anything to get you out of my head, but its just makes me miss you more..._]]
[[_baby, i understand, iie truely do._]]

xoxo, Jasmine misses hiimx...

iie tot alot about it le...
me and hx...
dun think we could ever be tgt again.

heard two diff stories from diff ppl...
=="

even though there's two story, one from Hx n one from my fren.
but its okay.
i'll believe both. (:

because the stories wont make any different to me any more.

iie cant find the love iie had for hx in hiimx any more..
iie dunno why.
things seems different.
like iie facing another man that is almost like hx but nt hx.
things dont seems like the same any more.
he's no longer seems like the same TO ME any more.
haiis.
oh well...

lets nt talk about this le.

haiis...
feel like iie hab no rights to talk anything about relationship now.
feel like iie dun deserve love or being love at all.
feel like i'll just make another mistake to hurt someone.
feel like, wo bu pei to be loved...
lols.
aiis...
sad...

confident level of certain stuff become damn low sial...
haiis...

cannot cannot!
iie musn't be like this.
if not i'll end up being the one suffering more too.
gotta hab more confident.
i'll never know untill iie TRY~! (:

aiis.
will GAMBATTE YO.

xoxo, Jasmine

Today got my N levels ENGLISH.
Couldn't concentrate at all.
my eye lids feels heavy n my brain going on sleeping mood.
damn tired.
last night Hx msg miie 11 plus in the night.
the ring tone of my HP woke me up.
he asked how's my ss paper.
then iie reply hiimx.
then dunno how we talk till about us...
that keeps miie thinking the whole night.
so iie couldnt sleep.

so 5.30am went to prepare for school.
meet xiao wen at mac n went to school tgt.

paper was suppose to be easy.
but becoz of my sleepiness.
iie couldn't concentrade n made it seems hard.

After my paper, waited for joe for his band to end.
saw hx, he was waiting for jia wei.
so help him go in the school to tell jia wei, hx waliting for hiimx.
after that, waited for jia wei wif him.
chat abit, like frens.
when jia wei come le then iie go off n find joe joe.

after joe joe band, he pei miie go home bath n change n come out again.
dress emo today.
damn nice.
wahahas.

meet chris kor at NP n then went to joe house.
played true or dare n the first round kana chris kor.
the dare was to mke hiim look emo with my makeup.
iie bring my make up everywhere i go.
xD

so the mission of making hiimx emo started.
and it last all the way from 5 plus to 7pm plus.
the result was.
DAMN EMO.

lols.
iie drew stars at the sie of the right eyes.
i personally like it alot.
while jasmine drew the other side.
looks... demonic?...
xD

After that we went out for dinner.
everyone was staring at hiimx.
xD
went arcad n dance the machine thingy.
alot pai kia was there.
then alot ppl keep shouting
si bei emo sial.
lols!

after that, went home n wash my make up of.
n sleep!

actually before going out, iie made my hair puff up till very cool.
my hair is oily type.
so end of the day, it flatten down.
xD
should hab put more spray to make it stay.
>.< P.S: original posting date, 5th sept.






xoxo, Jasmine LOVES You

i'm in pain.
iie fell again...
looks like i've never learned my lesson...
always gibing so much hopes for myself...
dumb right?...

why didnt euu told me properly from the start.
wht was the kiss for then?...
its a lie too?...
its just for the sake of my study?
not me?...

what for.
iie said before...
if u're being nice just for my studies, thn forget about it.
it doesnt matter.
there's no longer a reason for me any more..
iie dun nid those kindness n pitiness...
its a all a lie anyway.
i dun need it.

maybe its just me.
being dumb.
like i said.
iie am dumb.
guess this is what i deserve for being dumb.
this is what i deserve.
my decision created pain for ppl.
now i'm getting what i deserved back.
retribution.
i'll accept my fate.
i'll accept the pain.

its alright...
this pain will never last for a life time.
so its okay
i'll remember the pain n the mistakes and what i've learn.
i'll take all tht life has for me and walk on.

iie dun need help.
iie dun need fake hopes n dreams.
iie dun need them.
iie dun need a fairytale...
iie dun need happiness.
iie just need to accept what life gives me.
i'll give n take.
that's what's life all about...

Today had my chinese N level paper.

THANKS BAOBIIE ER ZI ZHANG YUAN A MILLION.
for lending me ur chinese dictionry so early in the morning.
sorry for bothering euu so much today.
thanks again! (:

didnt manage to finish my compo.
finished my letter writting completely.
first time see the paper no holes.
coz iie filled up ll the words iie dunno but flipping through the dictioary.

thank HX for wishing me gd luck so early in the morning.

after both papers, went eat ban mian.
after that walk everyone to NP n mrt then we parted n pat walked me home n then he went home.

Got home, fell aslp n then wake up around 7plus.
Jasmine called me.
so iie tio shock n woke up.
hahas.
after that go bath n watch tv and studies...

i've tot about it, positively.
iie realli should move on.
no one need someone to live on.
we live for ourself & the ppl who are important to us.
We dun leave the ppl who are important to us.
We let them leave us.
We dun die when they leave us, we learn.
but no matter what, the memories stays and we'll remember them.
becoz they're once important to us.
they ARE part of ur life n will always be.
becoz they created part of it.

dun lack behind.
move on and walk on.
ppl may be there for you, but they have their own life too.
the life is ours alone, we dun create them.
we change them and share them.
that's what makes life beautiful. (:

dun let saddness drag us behind.
look at what you have now.
look at what you dun hab now.
look at what you wanna achive now.
look at what u truely need now.
make possible goals and strive them patiently.

LET'S JIA YOU TGT!
(:

xoxo, Jasmine loves YOU!

Today didnt manage to wake up for SS remedial...
sorry...
shall not explain myself any further.
its i'm nt responsible enough...
sorry...
>.<

THANKS XIAOWEN A TON.
thanks for helping me to take the SS papers.
hontoni arigato. (:

meet up with ahPOH, XiaoWen n payt today.
xiaowen pass me the SS paper then we go LJS eat a lit.
acturally wanna watch 4bia.
but xiaowen underage.
sorry tt iie cant help much guys...
>.<

after that, iie went down to temp n meet wee.
pei him go eat then he pei me study SS.
he help me stuff 4 pages of SS thingy into my brain.
WOW!
power man.
but head did hurt alot just now.
too long never study iie think...
but after a while juii no more le.
(:

baby, euu make my heart skip a beat. <3
>you make me smile n cry.

around 6 then he left for city hall
so iie walk to take bus while he walk to take mrt.
very sher bu dehhx though...
then took bus back yishun lurhhx..

after that, meet chris, joe, nick and jasmine.
went to safra play a while then go eat then go chris house.
end up never study.
coz kor say he damn tired to help me study.
so iie just follow the majority.
play.
xD

played true or dare at chris house.
iie choose true and jas asked me, " if wee n hx come ask my for stead at the same time, who will i choose?"
without a second thought.
iie said...
heh heh heh,
iie said...
....
"WEE!"
they asked me why and iie told them...
wanna know what i told them?
dun tell euu lehhx.
xD
come n ask me lahhs.
muahahahas.

the joe choose dare so iie drew his bidy with maker.
then jasmine choose dare so iie make up for her.
nice okays.
xD

after that, joe dad n mom n doggy came n fetch us.
they send my home.
THANKS ALOT! (:

then gt home, watch tv n bath.
now blogging.

aiis...
wee seems different...
somehow...
i dunno...
the hearts tell me its different...
maybe iie also seems diff...
i'm sorry if i'm not being myself...
guess we just need time. (:

i'm sleepy le...
wanna slp...
tml chinese paper.
i'm so gonna die...
sobs....

miss euu...

[[_i wanna be love n needed by euu too_]]

xoxo, Jasmine