这么办呢?

Sunday, 18 Aug 2oo7



Sorry for not blogging so much recently...
no mood to blog...
for some reason, juz dun feel lyk it...
on well....

haiiz...
miie n dar dar dehhx relationship not working well...
ppl say that communication issh da key...
but somehow miie n hiimx cannot communicate as well as we used to....

that time we went for a movie...
then we walk walk lyk so quiet and nth to say...
in my heart iie kept telling myself...
"shit shit shit! wad to say now... come on shu wei, think of smth!"
iie know he's trying to think of smth to say too..
and we're trying bewi hard lurhhx...
but nth seems to work....
on phone also da same...
in msn also da same....
haiiz...

we love each other but somehow this relationship issh stuck some where...
haiiz...
and now come extra problems....
instead of everyday sit home stare at da com n do nth, iie had some new frens...
and we hang out alot...
and wad make things worst issh they are all guy...
maybe not new frens but somehow we became closer...
iie know being with 3 guys and being close to them can mean smth else...
and is a bewi bad things for someone who are in a relationship...
but iie can't help everyday staying home n stare at that bloody com...
i'm sorry...
iie realli dunno wad else iie can do about it...

when he tell miie "wad happen 4months ago is hard to froget..."
my heart sank all da way down...
it's sad...
and iie felt lyk doing smth....
haiiz...
pay more attention to hiimx, talk to hiimx more, meet up more?...
sometime it's kinda hard...
he's busy...
and iie cannot comfirm when he's free and wad time iie call himx and when he won't be busy...

begaining when he started schooling...
iie called hiimx in da afternoon and he will usually say "iie call u back later"
or we will chat less that 10 mins and he will say he call miie tonight and it'll end up chating in msn with da same old words...
"how's school?"
"u eatten?"
and so on...
and he'll be busy on he's projects again.....

okay, enough of my complains....
i'm da bad gurl here, not hiimx...
iie broke his hearts once...
and now it might feel lyk i'm gonna break it again...

but it's not lyk i'm holding hands or steading another guy or smth....
i'm juz close with a few guys...
u might be asking, why guy n not gals...
gals are harder to be with....
always's sensertive on so much stuff and get angry easily and so emotional...
unlike guys, iie can punch hiim lyk a punching bag and suan hiimx lyk wad da hell they also take it lightly lyk a joke....
and everyone will juz keep joking and laughting and enjoying them self....
this is why iie lyk hanging out with guys more....

haiiz...
iie always never believed in "i love you forever"
iie had never believed in FOREVER...
and he made miie believe in it...
but, guess it will neber happen...
no matter how hard we try, there's juz so much obstacles blocking our way....
communication, trust,love, frenship...
parents,fren,studies,temptations...
and so on...
it's a never ending hardwork...
guess we are still too young to think properly for ourself n for others...
making a right decision and doing wad's right while trying out best to not hurt anyone in da process....
wad adults say are right...
we are still to young....
it might be wrong for them to say that we still do not understand wad's love...
we do understand it quite well...
but it's juz that we are too young to handle love...

haiiz...
and now... we're trap...
infront of a broken bridge ...
either we walk a big fat round over or we stop and turn back...
but u'll neber know it there's another broken bridge in front again...
haiiz...
这么办啊, 这么办?....



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