Today woke up with a NightMare...
Maybe to some, it's not a nightmare...
but...
it's realli scary...
i'm realli scared...
i dun wan such thing to ever happen.
i hate her.

Sorry ppl, for nt blogging for so long...
Been busy and lazy.
hahas.

haven been going out with gan family recently.
trying to hunt for job n all.
still hab 34 bucks on me only...
>.<
how long can i survive with that?

been feeling really down today.
thanks to that dream i had last night.
i woke up in cold sweat & was breathing damn hard.
i realli panic in that dream...
damn...
i hope that gurl don't appear in my dream again tonight.

i wish my hair could grow faster.
i want it longer~
like how it was before~ T^T

two days ago, was my prom night.
somehow, had fun.
sad thing is never take photo.
lazy.
[x

ytd went hx house.
like always, fought with him.
hahas. pillow fights and all.
muahahas.
bought sushi and shared with Him.
he say next time he get pay he treat me sushi back.
WOOHOO~!
sushi!

been playing dota with him alot too.
and he's still playing FL with me.
even though FL can be so boring sometimes.
even edbert n joe quit it saying it was realli very boring.
i wonder how my other frens in FL chiong their lvl so fast.
hahas.

i'm realli scared that the thing i fear most will happen.
wad r we?
why r we so close when u said u wasnt ready?
wad am i to u?
who am i to u?

i'm starting to burry myself deep down again.
is it a wrong thing to do?
becoz i'll be going to ite.
and he'll be aiming for poly...
i know things will break and shatter de.
thanks to busy life & less comunicationg & time.
like how it had happen the last time.

maybe i should do wad i never like.
should i stop things now to prevent the hurt in the future?
it will hurt in the future, it will.

dun ask me why.
or since when did i become so negative.
i'm nt negative, i just stop believe in love can do the impossible.
i met a guy who did the impossible for me.
but i met a guy who prove him wrong too.

my life feel so messy now.
i know my little comfortable world of mine will fall apart when school starts.
it will de.
it always happens.
i'm worried.

like always, i wished i was never born.
i dun like this kind of mess up feelings and the problems i face when i'm alive.
i hate it.
who dont.
i just hope the world get destroys soon.
no one will be in pain any more.
no one will need to suffer any more.
no more pain and misery.
no more....

why do i have to meet ppl who would mess up my life.
why me?
why?...


[[_i wish i could just die tomorrow_]]

xoxo, Jasmine.

P.S: Go ahead, call me loser for trying to run away from my problems.
But i'm sure u did too. Dont need say dun hab, i'm sure u did too. You're just another loser for calling me a loser, Loser. [x