Hesitation

5.09am

Ohaiyo!
elloz guy...

17 June 2oo7, Sunday

this morning rather cold...
Super windy...
Not to mention cloudy...
Woke up around 4pm plus...
because someone married and their dunno wad ah bu neh neh song wake miie up...
so darn lound... ><
Online then chat with chen wee...
Was feeling rather happi...

i've been thinking alot...
iie would love to share it here...
but iie somehow forgot how to explain these feelings....

iie hab so much to talk about,
so much iie hab think about that i'll love to write it here...
but iie forgotten wad it is le...

haiiz...
bad luck and bad memory...
lolx..
lousy miie...
i'll blog it up next time when iie remember it...

after chating with chen wee,
iie remember iie gotta called Ansley...
so iie called him and chat with him abit...
he was on da bus on his way home then..
then chat a while jui hang le nor...
Then afterwards called back again...
lolx...
then yan ting was in da phone too...
chat bewi little...
then later she hung le we chat abit more...
then jui hang up le...
there's one part where iie find myself a bit stupid yet funny...

Ansley: gan lao po~
miie: gan lao gong~
Ansley: gan lao po~
miie: gan lao gong~
Ansley: bye bye
miie: hello
Ansley: bye bye
miie: hello
Ansley: hello
miie: hello
Ansley: hello
miie: hello
Ansley: hello
miie: bye bye
Ansley: hello
miie: hello
Ansley: wo ai ni
miie: ....w...wo~... a..aii~... n..nii~...
Ansley: wo ai ni
miie: wo ai ni....
Ansley: wo ai ni
miie: wo ai ni
Ansley: bye bye
miie: hello
Ansley: bye bye
miie: hello
Ansley: ni hen cute arz ni...

lolx...
iie found myslef stupid then he find miie cute...
he more cute nor
lolx...
but thanks Ansley...
for always being there for miie...
making my life more worth living in...

that goes to my sistarz too~
ChengChin
ChewPing
HuiYi

sistarz forever uhs~

afterwards...
iie chat online with Chen Wee, Loki and Ansley...
Chen Wee online a while nia then log out le...
iie rejected Loki today...
i'm sorry Loki...
but it juz can't work for us...

reasons?...
well...
truth issh..
iie love attentions...
iie dun like being push away or left alone...
iie need attentions...
lolx...
and this 1 week u've been mapling da whole day...
slp at 7pm and wake at 8am
then iie slp 7am wake up 4pm...
wake up le u mapling...
then like neber realli chat at all...
chat also lyk
"hi"
"wad eu doing"
"oh~ eu mapling"
"o... lvl le wor"
"gratz then"
"okay...hab fun mapling"
smth lyk tt lahx...
iie dun like being treated lyk nth...
even thought u dun mean it...
i'm sorry...
it juz won't work...
sorri for being so stright forward...

and please...
dun become cold blooded...
u should know clearly
HUMANS ARE WARM BLOODED
and WILL NEBER become cold blooded no matter wad euu do...
there will always be a time when emotions spreads...
so it's IMPOSIBLE for one to become cold blooded...

and please do be urself...
dun change urself any more...
so many years u've been living with fakes smile and misery...
aren't u tired?...
dun u wanna break free...
aren't Loki juz Loki no matter wad name euu change to?...
think posertive....
dun always be so nagative...
be who u'll love to be...
say wad euu wanna say...
do wad euu wanna do...
but ofcoz...
dun do stupid things that hurt ppl...
and watch wad u say sometimes...
not everyone can take da same joke...
maybe becoz ur parents divorce when u were young...
so u grew up looking at da bad side of life...
but u gotta try looking at da good side too euu know...
failure always comes with success as long as u try hard enough...
and always remember true frens are always there for euu...
no matter rain or shine...

iie know it easy said than done...
well...
think about it bahx...

Later on chat with ZhiHao kor...
he playing scion of fate so iie play also nor...
But keep lagging...
lolx..
then later suddenly internet sot..
restart com twice then can...

Then iie look at da time...
WAH! 5am le
so fast!
oh god!
haben call chen wee...
coz he ask miie 4am plus call him...
he went out with his poly fren go watch sun rise...
lolx...
his life sure issh fun...
not like mine...
so plain and emty and always da same old thing...
exspecially with this kind of mother...

so called him...
he was busy and ask miie call back later....
so hang up...
and decided not to call back le...

reason?...
he's busy and habing fun...
iie shall not distrub him any longer....
hope he have fun there~...
well...
no nid miie say also sure will de...
iie do envy him alot...
habing such fren then will be with hiimx no matter rain or shine...
like once frens always frens...
how iie wish iie were born in tempanises too...
da ppl there so frenly de...
haiiz...
not like yishun de...
exspecialy yishun de gals...
so sensetive...
bei ta han...
haiiz...
maybe if iie were neber born would be betta...
lolx
yeah...
tt's right...

hope iie was neber born!...
lolx...
but since this life issh given to miie...
iie thank god...
and i'll treasure this life and live this life to da fullest~

hummm..
sorry sometimes iie talk like always take a turn around de...
lolx...
coz iie am iie person who looks at posetive and da nagative...
it juz depends which one iie look at first...
lolx...

so now blogging and after blogging wanna off com and go slp liaoz...
today specail uhs...
early15min go slp...
lolx!
guaiiz uhs~

and i'll upload some photos from thursday de...
forgot to upload at da last post....
coz to many pic to upload le...
lolx..
take cares..
buaiiz...










6.45am