i sux

Yo...
It's a raining day today...
iie feel all so moody now...
Chat with WQiang kor this afternoon about Dar till iie cry...
iie dunno why either...
now just chat with dar in msn...
feel so... disappointed in myself?...
dun ask miie why...
iie just find myself such a big failure all of a sudden...
iie always can't do anything right at all...
not in studies, not in frens, not in relationship, not even in my own thoughts and feelings!
iie hate myself...

My Hp take go fix le...
when will it ever come back?
iie miss my phone...
haiis...

iie hate myself...
my life has always been so terrible n full of regrets all thanks to myself...
i never knew iie got so much to learn again...
from studies to life....
iie know nth...
nth at all...
bloody failure...
sometimes, iie do wonder...
why do iie even exist in this world...
hate my existence!

iie feel all so little all of a sudden...
haiis...

JASMINE NG SHU WEI...
I HATE YOU!...

10.44pm

Told dar iie going sleep at 10.41pm...
when iie gonna type "Nights"
he replied "wonder wth u did todae =x"
iie replied back "just sat n chat n walk in rain, tt's all"
then he said "once i look away, u'll do all the things i don like"

He went offline right after that...

i'm hurt now...
why must iie do things that he likes?...
he never did do things that iie likes...
iie took himx the way he were...
why couldn't he?...

yeah, maybe iie complain too much, maybe iie am irritating or being too much of a burden...
but aren't this miie?...
why must iie be the only one to change according to what he like?...
iie never demanded for anything...
all iie wan is for him to love miie normally...
and that's all...

can't he just accept miie for who iie am...
iie hate being in love...
it bloodily hurt...
iie used to said that if he break with miie iie will only cry n that's all...
but now, come to think of it...
and kinda feeling the pain a little...
iie dun wanna imagine wad iie will do if he leaves miie...
maybe they're rights...
i'm too obsess with hiimx...
iie realli dunno what i'm gonna do about my life if he leaves miie...
all along, the things that makes miie aim for poly was hiimx...
i'll lose my goal if iie lose hiimx...
this bloodily sux...

God Damit!
Someone, save miie...