imisshiimx

3.56am

elloz...
Today morning woke up 3pm...
Cheng chin called miie...
say wanna meet miie coz got two guy wanna say three words to miie...
actually issh say to her lahx...
she got alot guy jio sial...
lolx..
if intrested... do go my friendster find her...
jk jk...
later she know iie promoting her iie fly...
lolx..

Then iie prepare hao le...
then iie call her...
she replies...
"uhs? u call miie for?"
then iie was like =="
then iie asked " iie tot euu want come find miie?"
"er.... later then iie come over..."
iie was like "wad da hell?..."
well...
nvm bahx...

so then about 15 to 20 mins later...
"ding dong"
they finally come le...
lolx...
so went out with CC, hui yi, kia tart, chuck ye...
went eat my so called breadfast...
shared with hui yii...
chuck ye treat us drinks....
*thanks chuck ye*
then hui yii treat miie my bread fast...
coz we share...
O.o
wad da hell...
so un fair...
they dun let miie pay back...
then my $10 take go out for wad?...
hahax..
then later meet chew ping...
on da way buy da glass bottle de coke...
then later they went lirary dunno for wad...
then miie n kia tart drinking water so cannot go in...
so miie, chuck ye and kia tart stood outside...
chuck ye help miie drink some of da coke away...
if nt iie drink till tummy boom ba le...
then later continue drink nor...
so iie kpo kpo ask them...
euu both like cheng chin harz?...
chuck ye say "iie dunno about hiimx..."
then iie say "then euu leh?"
chuck ye "uhm!"[nood his head]
miie "then kia tart, euu leh?"
kia tart "huh? er... they come out liao..."
iie turn back then they came out le...
lolx
so fast...
then later left a bit more iie bei ta han le...
tummy wanna boom le...
so ask CP help miie finish it...
then she say "mei ban fa... who ask i'm ur sistarz..."
lolx...
want drink jui drink narz...
no nid so cute de rite?..
lolx..
ai si ni le lahx chew ping!

then later go near by Cheng chin de house de fitness conner play...
lolx..
they play like ki siao sial...
only chuck ye siian siian de...
wonder wad ChengChin told her on our way to da fitness conner...
lolx...
ChengChin also another cartoon one...
nvm...
dun tell euu all why...
then 6pm we all go home nor...

we wait for bus with hui yi and chuck ye...
coz they taking 804 home so iie peii them nor...
kia tart walking same way as miie by da way...
then later on bus come we say good bye then go off lurhx...
then later go buy another glass bottle of coke...
kia tart bought one too...
then iie open da cap for hiimx...
coz needa use da dunno wad thing to open...
kinda hard larhs...
siince iie use to iit le so neber mind larhs...
then he send miie home and later walk off himself lurhx...

reach home...
then later call Gan Lao Gong...
chit chat with him a few mins nia then en wei call in chat...
then late en wei hang up...
then iie hang up a few mins later...
due to we had nth to say...
lolx...

then later online, play game, chat...
then help boiboi samuel do his game de job promotion test
and chat with Chen Wee when he online jui nth much le...
tt's about it...


About Miie And ChenWee

iie thought alot le...
forget it...
i'm gibing up...
for miie...
and for chen wee...

he did tried to ask for patch three times...
but somehow we're still frens...
coz both of us are in a bewi hard to decide situation now...
he needa study...
and he's aiming for a good grade...
coming to yishun to find miie or spending time with miie will juz be a buden to hiimx...
we mustn't be selfish and only think for ourself...
as ppl say...
study important...
and he's concentrating on it now...
so iie shall not stop hiimx...
nor waste any of his precious time...
he shall hab all da time he hab to studies...
and chen wee...
euu got my full support...

he won't hab any time for miie due to his studies...
and iie know he thinks it's kinda unfair to miie...
coz i'm a person who seek for attention and time...
even though i'm not bewi sticky...
but when iie need someone...
iie realli needs hiis attention along with some of hiis time...
and not meeting or being together at all...
is a big down for couples...
especially when there's so much influence around us...
u'll neber know wad will happen...

iie hopes to be taken as an IMPORTANT person in ur life list...
but iie know clearly now it's impossible...
looking at da way euu react to miie...
and to others...
iie can clearly tells euu...
wad euu miss was not miie...
but da past that we had together...
and to tell euu da sad truth...
da past miie issh already dead...
it's as good as taking it a non exsisted miie...
better off taken as a dreams...
iie wish that miie would come back too...
but iie couldn't...
iie know that miie love euu more than anything in this world...
but now...
that miie has died...
died from loneliness...
and sadness...
drowned in regrets...

it's not like iie dun love euu any more...
juz that...
well...
it's hard to explain...
iie know u roughly can understands it bahx...
juz by reading this and feelings wad's inside...
u can understand de bahx...
rite?...

and iie can also say that...
last time that euu...
issh also dead already....
coz...
euu changed...
maybe not to other ppl...
but to miie only...
euu changed...
coz of wad happen...
euu changed...
and that pass euu...
is as good as being dead too...
those are out past...
da past us...
that we wants it back but are unable to...
guess it time we moved on....
even though i'm unwillingly moving on...
i'll still try to push myself de...

for us to be together now...
is hard...
there's a wall that has been build...
quitely, not being notice yet un willing...
but yeah...
it's builed...
and we're over and done with...
this wall...
can neber and will neber be broken down any more...
this wall...
is builded by our pains and sorrows...
and this is why...
we are neber gonna be able to be together again...

unless miracle happen....
unless we are able to stop loving each other...
and become frens...
and then like each other again...
but u know clearly...
once u love someone...
it will be hard for one to forget their love for that person...
especially after they stead and even break off when both are still in love!

haiiz...
so...

iie finally come down with this decision...
we shall not patch...
nor wait for each other any more...

let's end this disaster fairytale now...
and start a new begaining....

i'll miss alot of things for sure...
i'll miss da way we played in msn...
i'll miss da name chocolate and marshmallow...
i'll miss da " wei she mo"
i'll miss ur smile...
i'll miss ur voice...
i'll miss ur presence...
i'll miss ur warm...
overall...
i'll miss euu...
alot alot alot...

but there's no way we can turn back now...

if wei lai you yuan zai xiang jian bahx...



✖ dying without being notice...✖


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