Sweet-Sacriifice: iie hope nightmare never comes...

1.37am

sorry for not blogging for so long...
didn't had da feeling of blogging some thing...
but today...
there is...

iie had to declare...
iie hate love...
iie hate fall in love...
no matter how or in what way...
it always hurt...
da feeling of hurt when u miss someone...
da feeling of hurt when u can't seems to get in contact with hiimx/her...
da feeling of hurt when that person is cold towards euu...
da feeling of hurt when that person got angry...

there's juz so many ways of getting hurt...
iie know iie think alot...
but iie can't help it...

iie juz hate love...
iie hate falling in love...
i dun wanna fall in love any more...
iie dun wanna take da risk any more...
guess iie juz had to avoid it...
keep avoiding it...
even if it takes to lie to myself...

for Wee iie had hurt myself enough...
iie think so much untill my brain gonna burst and almost everyday crying myself to slp...
this might no seems real coz no one notice...
and even though every thing slowly grow cold...
and we grew apart...
but this doesn't mean it doesn't hurt when we parted even though it's da best choice for us now...

even untill now iie still look back in da past...
that hiimx...
iie love hiimx so much...
then turn back to now n gave myself a smile and told myself...
"it's all past... oh well, eveything will be alright..."
lies lies lies...
it's always lyk tt...
iie had to...
juz to keep miie smiling...
haiiz...

oh well...
stop with da trying to be so pityfull Ng Shu Wei...
life is lyk tt...
take it or leave it...

haiiz...
oh well...

A Song Fer You All To Enjoy...

WhEn ThEr WaS MiiE And YoU

It's funny when you find yourself
Looking from the outside
I'm standing here but all I want
Is to be over there
Why did I let myself believe
Miracles could happen
Cause now I have to pretend
That I don't really care

I thought you were my fairytale
A dream when I'm not sleeping
A wish upon a star
Thats coming true
But everybody else could tell
That I confused my feelings with the truth
When there was me and you

I swore I knew the melody
That I heard you singing
And when you smiled
You made me feel
Like I could sing along
But then you went and changed the words
Now my heart is empty
I'm only left with used-to-be's
And once upon a song

Now I know your not a fairytale
And dreams were meant for sleeping
And wishes on a star
Just don't come true
Cause now even I tell
That I confused my feelings with the truth
Cause I liked the view
When there was me and you

I can't believe that
I could be so blind
It's like you were floating
While I was falling
And I didn't mind

Cause I liked the view
Thought you felt it too
When there was me and you

iie got da song...
if u want iie can send u through MSN...