missed

For some reason...
he's on my mind the whole day...
was it becoz of the dream iie had last night?...
a bad dream of hiimx n miie as usual...
most of the time, when iie dream of hiimx n miie...
it was always a very sad one...
the ones that would make miie cry...

iie dream that he suddenly came back with a gal...
they were together...
the gal infront of hiimx alway like very nice to miie...
but when he's not around she always scolds miie bitch n all...
iie told hiimx about it but he didn't believe it...
she even slap miie and kick miie...
he didn't know tt...
untill he suddenly came back from toilet then saw her scolding miie like hell...
iie saw tt he saw it...
then he pretend like nth happen n walk towards us n held her hand and walk...
iie ask hiimx about it but he juz keep saying he didn't see it n continue to believe the gf...
so iie couldn't stand it n walk away...
then then then... IIE WOKE UP...

after that, iie slp back...
got another dream but got a bit link with the previous one...
dunno is wad day then my relative all went to a place where hab alot alot ppl...
saw hiimx n the gal tgt...
but due to alot ppl...
they we parted...
iie saw the gal n offer to help her to find hiimx...
but she juz scold miie n walk away...
iie keep following her...
then she turn around n keep scolding miie then iie saw a guy holding a penknife wanna stab her...
iie told her about it but she dun believe...
and call miie a liar...
then walk away then the guy wanna stab her shoudle then iie block for her with my hand...
iie cover her shoudle with my hand...
then my hand keep bleeding...
he saw it and quickily bring miie to the medi place...
the nurse put a tissue on my hand it turn red slowly...
the gal keep trying to pull hiimx away but he juz ignore her...
[yay! xD]
hahahas...
then iie wake up liiaos...

today didn't went anywhere...
played game till 5pm then we prepare n meet mummy...
bought school shoe, two t-shirts and a mouse pad?...
and some mam mam...

today went to the singtel shop~
mommy like agreed to get miie the student plan...
YAY!
gonna get a HP lurhhx~
YAY!!!
hahas...
so happy...
can listen to MP3 anywhere iie go lurhhx~...

today iie looked at our past photos again...
it made miie miss hiimx more...
suddenly feel like crying...
iie wonder why...
iie shouldn't think so much...
all iie brought hiimx was pain n tears...
iie shouldn't bug hiimx any more rights?....
iie couldn't bring hiimx happiness like iie used to any more...
like iie said~...
i'm a failure in love...
iie can only bring pain...
can't do anything about it...
iie can't change it...
iie can't manage it...

iie can't even figure out myself...
iie dun think iie got the rights to love someone nor let someone love any more...
lost darn lot of confident these days...
in life n in myself...
oh well...

life goes on~...


._Bitter Drops Of Love_.

bitter man

today meet ChenWee at 3.30...
actually meeting earlier but iie dunno why he suddenly change the time...
anyway...
had fun walk around town...
lolx...
even though it's like nth to see accept ppl...
xD

went out with an empty tummy...
he bought a pack of about 10 small sushi and we shared...
iie made two of the small sushi drop...
sobs~ T-T
sorry~

and then we cross the road then had a cup of ice-cream...
after that went in a shopping mall see see...
walk in n out of action city then Wee saw hiis fren...
after walk walk around then went taka again then see big big christmas tree...
then he meet hiis fren again...
lolx...
all buying present...
then if iie go poly sure die...
christmas spent $ like no body business liiaos...

after that he decided to but cookies for everyone...
so iie got a packof cookies too...
and finished it in one day too~...
xD

went home by bus...
leave at 6.30pm reach home at almost 8pm...
how fast~ O.o
hahas...

after that got home...
the rest awhile...
then go out again to meet mummy...
bought a bit sushi and SOBA!
ONE OF MY FAV!
yay!
then got home...
eat eat eat eat eat...
ate ham and sushi and the soba!
yay!
shit! fat liiaos... xD

then the rest of the time was planing on tml...
to make it a special one...
hope i'll hab enought $ to spare tml...
aiis...

tml need wake up early early~...
AHH!
haben make the cookies!
die~
no nid slp liiao...
xD hahas...
how nice...
maybe nt slping tonight bahhs...
been planing on tml untill forgot time n all tt...
lolx...

working so hard to plan coz they're my best best fren...
and plus...
to make up to them for forgetting tt iie ytd say wanna meet up today...
xD
hahas...

oh well....
MERRY CHRISTMAS!
and
A HAPPY NEW YEAR!

changing my blog link back soon~

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._Bitter Drops Of Love_.

lala

elloz...

been a long time since iie last
updated my blog...
christmas eve is tml~
WOOT!
iie here by whising everyone a MERRY CHRISTMAS and a HAPPY NEW YEAR!
hahas...

school starting soon...
iie haben bought my new books and my new uniform for my school...
iie haven seen the new uniform though...
wonder how it looks like...
some ppl say nt bad....
iie wonder...

today went joel house...
ate sashimi then later see them learn the basic defending style from panda...
wow...
iie watch and learn abit here n there...
hahas...
iie juz sat there eat eat eat and watch...
watch movie~ xD

iie feel like going to cut my hair again...
the hair dresser tt time cut liiao my hair soo weird....
hahas...
this time iie wan explain nice nice then let them cut~,,,
xD

hope my daddy get miie the HP he promise by school reopen...
but sometime iie feel tt no HP also nt bad...
dun hab mother calling and asking "where r u?!?!"
"come back now!!!"
bewi siian ones...
lolx...

friday went KBOX with panda, joel and christ kor.,...
so ex lahhx...
$94 dollars....
can diies...
lolx...
now they all swear they never go KBOX ever again...
lolx...
it's their first and their last....
lolx

day by day passes and everyday seems to be almost the same...
laughter, joy and crazy plus retardedness...
hahas...
wonder how next year will be...
a hard working year?...
who knows?...

think i'll change back my blog URL to sweet-sacriifice.blogspot.com
iie simply loves tt name....
even though it's almost the same as zhi qii accept no "a" and iie hab doubble "ii"
hahas...
well...
it's like share share...
xD
iie wanna believe zhi qii or other ppl would nt be tt bo liiao to spread stupid rumor juz becoz almost the same url...
so smile ppl smiles~...

think iie stop here today...
gonna bug my dad on the HP when he comes back~...
hahas...
buaiis~

._Bitter Drops Of Love_.

it's snowing!

today went ice skating with Wee~
woke up at 6.30am...
then wait till 8.30 iie call wee up...
chat abit then we go prepare....
met up at 10.30am...
went jurong tgt...

reach there then eat mam mam...
iie ate bake rice~
wee ate the yun ton mia...
he say tt it's nt nice...
hahas...

he brough gloves along~
yay~
so nt tt cold~...
thanks alot!

then got in then mesure the leggy for the ice skates...
first time wearing tt kind of shoe...
he help miie abit...
then after we wear our shoe, we put our stuff in the locker...
and off we went on the ice~...
he held my hand and taught miie ice skating...
thanks alot...
if without hiimx iie sure fall till everyone also fall with miie...
STRIKE!
xD

my leg like so wobbly~
iie must depend on hiimx to surrport...
><
then iie only like know a bit bit on how to ice skate...
still can't get on the ice alone...
hahas...

then after skating...
we went mac to get plastice bag...
sat outside mac there the open air there sit sit and chat chat abit...
while drinking water...

after tt we went to KBOX...
iie sang like about 5songs lyk tt while he sing alot~
he say he sing till bewi tired...
hahas...
iie go toilet he also peii miie go and wait for miie outside~
so nice...
the toilet like so scary...

after that we went back to yishun to eat RAMAN!!!
YUMMY!
MUSHROOM!
xD
i'm so loving it~

after that he send miie home and then went off lurhhx...

a fun day altogether~
hahas...
tt's all for today~...

hair cut!

14 Dec 2oo7

today went cut hair with joel and panda...
christ kor came along too...
miie cut my hair near the mrt station there while joel n panda cut at near bus interchange there...
joel hair turn out to hab no different as he kana the jie jie cut...
while panda's one, style~
xD coz the guy there better with guy hair...
hahas...
then there got two doggys....
so cute...
LOVE IT!
hahas...

after that went to panda house then they all play naruto fight fight dehhx...
while iie play with joel's handphone...
took photos with hiis hp and played hiis handphone dehhx game...
hahas...

then after that around 7plus juii go home lurhhx...


15 Dec 2oo7

went to joel's house today with HuiShi, christ and panda...
huishi use joel's com while miie, panda, joel and chirst kor stay in joel's room watch simson movie...
so darn funny...
xD

after that we played monopoly till 6plus then went to had lorti plata for dinner...
then went to joel's near by exercising place play...
hahas...
after that we went back joel house take things and proceed to panda's house...
as hui shi never go panda house be4...
so we're taking her there...
on the way there miie n hui shi saw pa-sa-ma-lum...
so wanna go buy mam mam and go hx house eat...
joel joel withdraw $20 and then treat us everything~
yays~
hahas...
then bought Fishball, tokoyaki, tu tu kua and so on...
iie bought drinks~
hahas...
then went to hx house lurhhx...
after that 9.30pm we all left to go home...
huishi daddy come bring her while panda n joel see miie home first then they went joel house...
that's all for today~...

PHOTO TIME!

JOE JOE!

Christ kor n miie

who look more like ghost huh? xD

i'm ugly here, so is JOEL!

lalalalalala world

Been in contact with wee already...
iie wonder...

been baking cookies...
mommy n daddy said it's nice~
yay~...
hahas...

today went to panda house with Joel di...
as he wanna buy smth gib hiimx as surprise...
but in the end out of stook...
so tml needa go see again...
so the surprise is delay~

tml meet panda n joel again to cut hair...
YAY! finally can cut hair liiao!!!
YESH!
xD

today's another random post huh...
lolx...
iie juz felt like updating it abit...
hahas...

iie wonder wad URL can iie permanently change to...
this cannot tt cannot...
must as well change back....
OH YA HOR~
can rights?
hahas...
shall change back the old URL soon then...
iie super bo liiaos...
lolx...
even though iie like sweet sacriifice more...
hahas...
but nvm bahhs...

buaiis...

[[_Make Miie Wonders_]]

lala world

greetings~
hahas...
christmas is coming...
i'm thinking of baking cookies for everyone tt's close to miie...
hope everyone would like it~...
hahax...
iie today ask my mommy to buy ingredients liiao...
i'm gonna try baking some tml...
i'm planing on staying home for this week as iie wanna save money...
everyday can only save $6...
sad...
hahas...
but nvm...
slowly lurhhx...

Wee n Hao they all habing test n all now...
wish them all the best bahhs~
Jiia You!
Fighto!
Gambatte yo!

hahas...
will things get back to how it should be?
iie wonder...
well...
iie juz gotta try harder to make my life perfect...
even though tt means more troubles...
hahas...
iie also needa jiia you bahhx...

next year my school changing uniforms...
awww...
iie never seen it before...
but iie wonder if it'll look nice on miie...
><
iie also haben buy school textbook...
thing will be going to buy it soon bahhs...

iie wanna buy some normal T-shirts...
saw some rather cute words on it from a fren's on9 shop...
wanna buy....
hahas...

iie wonder wad can iie do for this one week at home...
ii'm sure i'm gonna be bored to death...
later euu all read news paper then they will title " Teenager Died At Home Due To Boredom "
hahas...
miie n my craps...
aiis...
slowly find things to bake bahhx iie think...
hahas....
iie actually loves cooking n baking...
hahas...
i'll learn a few dishes bahhx iie think...
wish miie luck~

i'll end here for today...
simply has nth to blog about...
am juz bored...
so came here...
hahas...
such random post...
xD

[[_Wishing For Everyone Smiles_]]

no different

iie hab nth to do...
so therefore came to blog...
iie dunno wad to blog about actually...
aiis...

slept at 5am last night...
woke up 7.10am then nv slp liiaos...
then use com n all...
then evening dunno wad time fell aslp again till 7pm plus?...
then use com again and played with HongXian n JJ...
aiis...
dunno wad's wrong with hiimx lahhx...
forget it...

iie dunno how iie can explain how's my life has been...
after thinking back...
wow...
it's chao...
hahas...
oh well, my life has never been any better any way...
thanks to this brainless head of mine...
hahas...
i'm use issh dumb plus stupid...
hahas...

iie realise life has always been unfair...
iie can never express my feeling properly...
always keep it suppress down in my heart...
it's suffocating miie...
even if iie do express it out to tt someone, they wouldn't understands...
coz humans are selfish...
everyone is in pain in different way, nt only miie...
everyone mostly see the pain of their own only...
as they can feel how terrible it is...
but the victim is not only one person but everyone...
life never goes as we plan nor how we wanted...
sometime we are force to do things we wouldn't wan to...
ppl are force to hurt someone...
and ppl are force to be hurt...
sometime hearts can lie...
even our own mind can be deceived...
wad we see and wad feel can sometime be a lie....
made by ourself...
ppl always lie to themself...
to get away from pain n not face the fact at all...
as the fact can sometime be too painful for one to accept...

enough of my nonsense...
buaiis...

Black and White

today went ice skating with my YuYing, JJ kor and panda...
but in the end nv skate due to too many ppl there...
saw alot of Northlanders there though...
suddenly remember tt Wee did say he wanna bring miie go ice skating before...
but guess we can't now...

been thinking more n more stuff lately...
and figure out some stuff too...
talked to my trusted kor today in the night also...
rather happy someone who understands can listen to miie...
lolx...

sat MRT to juroung then go there too many ppl so went eat...
then went CINE watch movie " The Golden Compass"
nt bad...
then went walk a bit, saw my er jie then after that we went play pool...
first time iie play pool...
quite fun...
got a good teacher though...
JJ! my shi fu~
hahas...
then after that took MRT home lurhhx lorhhx...

after reach Yishun MRT, walk pass a bread shop then they got sell Donut then quite cheep also so iie bought 3...
and also a waffle...
it reminds miie of Wee...
iie remember iie gib hiimx 3 Donuts before also...
hahas...
and waffles...
he loves to buy it for miie sometime as he scared iie later at night hungry again...
hahas...
...dots...
*cough*

then got home already 9 plus...
go bath then later online...
then chat with hao kor about smth...
and now, blogging...

i'm gonna change my link into smth funny...
as a temporally dehhx bahhx...
Hao kor creat8 dehhx, it's...
iwandrinkzhihaobloodyhand.blogspot.com
shall iie change into this?...
hahas...
cute right...
can read?...
xD

tml iie going hospital for back bone check up...
gonna slp soon...

wow, my fren found a short phrase tt's nice~...

to love is nothing
to be loved is smth
to love n be loved is everytink

wow?...
nice rights...

Panda said smth meaningful today:

pray for not 4eva
but once having

pray not long taking
but happiness

pray not holding on in
but letting go for life

pray not lost
but enlighten

but if you know it
don see the breaking
take the stating

many things can happen between long term
but remember the love always given
not juz hate

END

Chim hor...
iie dun quite understand also...
but a lit bit in the front narhhx...
xD

wah...
these words sui bo...
lolx...
nice huh...
found it also...
dun copy huh!
xD
coz iie copy first~
hahas...

kay bahhx...
iie end my blogging here...

[[_Dreaming_]]
._Euu And Miie Together are like a Dream_.

[[_UnReachable_]]