Been home the whole of today.
Mom work afternoon.
Sister all went out.
Dar went Joel house with Bert.
Guess i'll hab some time of my own then...

Watch anime the whole day...
dunno why feeling like eating things but when iie see food, iie dun feel like eating any more.
i realli gotta save money fast.
or should iie ask my mom buy the thing iie wan n cut my allowance to $2 a day for 3 months?
iie wan to buy a PSP!
So iie can share it with Dar also...
hahas...

i'm bored now...
currently looking at some online shops...
nth nice to see dehhx...
lolx...
found smth intresting...
LOOK!

cute bahhs?
go www.magmypic.com to make one!

BLAH!
i'm bored...
why can't they find a proper RO server gib miie play...
iie siian dao...
gonna die liiao~...

quick find a proper server!

anyway, iie found a song that's rather nice...
here, click it to enjoy the song.



that's all for today...

signing out: i miss you Dar....

Quote Of The Day
If one day, i choose to leave you...
Doesn't mean i don't love you any more...
It's because i love you too much...

Days passes with weeks and months followed by...
Without noticing, a year had past...
Many memories are made...
Some are forgotten, some are kept close to our heart...
Regardless how much u remember or forgotten, it doesn't matter...
What matter is that i'll always remember you..
That gentle smile, that gentle voice and the way you look at me...
You'll never be forgotten...

Moon n Star

Yo!
Been days since iie last update my blog.
Days seems to past by faster than normal...
Guess it's becoz i've been keeping myself busy this week...
hahas...

Mummy never go work for almost a week le...
She yesterday even scare miie that she forgot to go to work...
WTH...

My studies still as lousy as always...
if only iie hadn't slack at all...
i've slack too much that iie kinda forgot how to concentrate and listen and how to understand it properly...
Who to blame?...
MYSEF...
Darn it!
Someone Save Miie!
i totally have no confident in my N levels...
Wad if iie end up in ITE?...
sad...

Dar say hiis sister gonna tutor us during JUNE holidays.
Good luck to his sis...
coz even my tution teacher teach miie also wan volmit blood le...
dunno wad will happen if she treach miie...
somemore she like so scary lyk tt...
opps... =X

I've been feeling alot better now a days...
Maybe ii'm starting to let go of the past already...
i felt so sorry for Wee...
But what can iie do for hiimx now?...
Nth, and iie can't do anything for hiimx now...
iie hab someone else that iie want to do smth for hiimx already...
If iie could do smth for hiimx, i'll surely do...
But now, iie can't...
I'm sorry.
Even though iie know saying this doesn't change anything...
sorry...

Thanks Dar for being there for miie for the past few months!
Thanks for caring for miie so much!
Thanks for treasuring miie!
iloveyou Darling!

Been taking photos of random things this week...
Food and the things iie draw.
i'll upload it~
Enjoy!

Wahahaha, iie vandalize the table again!

The Moon is so bright!

the view from my bed

Today went to meet dar in the afternoon...
Ever since the 1 week holidays, Dar been nicer to miie lerhhx...
realli happy~ (:

Been playing MoonRO the past few days...
quite fun~
been helping dar hunt items and all...
even though very ma fan coz the item super hard to hunt somemore need 800 of it...
but iie felt realli happy to be able to do smth for dar~

haiiz...
been remembering lots of thing of them past....
real sad...
suddenly recall some thing of KimChuan...
heart hurt like hell....
forget it...
that idiot...

then also, it's hard to forget Wee that easily...
alot of places in yishun holds alot of our memory...
and the relationship iie had with hiimx...
is wad iie realli can realli called it LOVE...
hope we'll meet again someday...
depends on fate then...

DarDar!
iloveyou~
treasure miie okays?
i'll treasure euu too~
let's try to walk as far as we can...
dun let go of my hands untill it's time to~
Muacks!

signing out - iie dun need a forever, all iie need is the time that we are together.

Didn't went school today.
Met up with Dar in the afternoon...
Realli happi to see hiimx!!!
So Happy~ So happy~
hahas...

After that mom called miie to go home so went home...
Got a good scolding from mom for nt going to school today...
She went through all the trouble to wake miie up at 5.35am but iie slept back...
>.<
Sorry narhhx...
Then mom reminded miie that tml gotta hand in F&N Research...
OH GOD!
iie haben do...
guess i'll start doing after iie blog.
Not much to blog today...
Cause nth much happen besides finally meeting Dar.
Just plain happy to see hiimx today!
Last week we only meet once~
And we didn't contact much...
Maybe that's why i'm sad...
But now i'm alrights~ (:

I'll end here for today~
Smiles!

signing out - Dar, i love you!

it's always the same

Today i'm home again...
Morning brought my dogs go vet...
Museli has skin infection while cho cho get her injections...
After that stayed home...
Read Mango again...
BeastMaster & Cherry Juice...
Quite nice~...

It's getting harder and harder for miie to sleep now a days...
Even harder for miie to hab a good rest...
aiis...
iie love sleeping and dreaming...
but iie always wake up after 4 hours of sleep...
feels so tired but iie can't seems to be able to sleep back...
so gotta force myself back to sleep...
and doing so make miie feel rather uncomfortable...
tired~...

Did my homework...
But iie ran out of fullscap papaer to do it...
iie keep getting frustrated while doing the homework...
bloody pissed...
forget it...
HuiYing say teacher will go through so iie think it's alright...

aiis...
aiis...
aiis...
been feeling realli realli down recently...
can't help it...
dunno why...

i'll end here bahhs...

signing out - feeling rather down

I'm home the whole of today again...
it's the second last day till school reopens...
haven't finish my homework yet...
iie still think time flies slower n slower...
maybe iie hab stop enjoying life...
lolx...
somehow, iie just hate being alive...
hate the existence of miie...
iie rather gib my life to someone else and never exsist in the world at all...
for at least, that's wad I've been thinking for the last 4 years...
hahas...
dun nid to scold miie about this...
as many ppl been scolding miie about this...
but it has yet to change my mind about this....
oh well, too bad, I've existed already...
so can't do anything about it but to live on~

today was home using the com the whole day...
and do some homework but...
iie totally dun hab the mood to do my homework...
as usual, home alone.
but still iie manage to find stuff that entertain miie up untill now...
lolx...
i've been reading a manga online...
called Monster Love...
Quite nice~
like it!...
hahas...

haiis...
tml last day of holidays...
iie gotta finish up all the homework...
it sucks!...
haiis...
hate it hate it hate it hate it...
it's not like iie dun like doing homework...
it's just that....
there's some other reasons...
i've been seeking for one thing in life...
just one small thing...
it's not a big dream or smth...
but guess iie will never be able to find it...
tt's why life sucks now...

it sucks it sucks it sucks it sucks!
iie better stop blogging from here on...
cause iie dunno how frustrated iie am with my life and myself...
idiotic! >.<

signing off - my existence bored miie out!

Never Let Go

._iloveyou_.


Yesterday Night and the whole of today...
Internet was down...
Totally down...
Dead bored...
Has completely nth to do...
So iie spent most of my time lying on the bed thinking...
Reading into some old msn msg history...
Took my time bathing till all the warm water has been used up...
Playing Computer GBA games and Computer games that doesn't need internet...
Like Virtual Villages one and two, SpongBobSquarePants Dinner-Dash and FairyGodMother Tycoon.
Started watching TV at night...
Found a few intresting shows...

Last night asked Da Jie to restart the router...
She probably DID NOT!
just now iie took the key from mom when she got home and restart the router.
and POOF!
the internet's back!
Bloodly LIAR!
iie hates lies...
exspecialy lies that come from my family...

sms Dar abit abit...
He's been sweeter than he used to be...
Wonder why...
Is it becoz of not being with hiimx EVERYDAY makes hiimx treasure miie more?
Or did he suddenly understands wad's i'm thinking/facing and decided to put in more effort?...
but some ppl say when guys suddenly became nice means that did something bad behind ur back...
but...
in this case, iie can totally trust Dar that he would not do such things...
He's nt such a person~

Oh well, iie wouldn't know why he's so nice untill iie ask hiimx rights?...
But iie dun think i'll ask though...
it's not like something iie desperately wanted to know...
it makes no different weather iie know the answer or not...
wad matter is that he cares...
right? (:

Yesterday iie went to meet Dar.
Went to his house...
Well, that's where iie meet hiimx everytime if it's just miie n hiimx meeting up...
I'll always be with hiimx in the computer room...
Playing games together and watching anime or drama series together...
Just habing our time together...
Sometime, being with someone doesn't realli matter where u go, but who u're with....
And that's all it matter...
His mom is always home as she works at home...
She's always so nice and kind to miie and usually cooks dinner for miie too...
Her cooking are simple yet delicious!
His dad would drive miie home everynight...
They're rather nice and easy to communicate with...
His sis on the other hand...
Are more of...
Harder to communicate face to face though...
She's a rather clever and wise person...
For atleast, that's what i've heard from Dar...
And iie somehow seen it myself too...
While playing dota with her...
She's... scary?... lolx...
Oh! and she's rather good in alot of sports too!
Someone that iie would looks up as a V.V.V.Good example of what it means to live ur life to the fullest n all...
Just my idol! xD
I rarely speaks to his sis though...
rather scared of her...
dunno why...
And from wad iie always hear on the phone when i'm talking to Dar...
she's rather cute~
She can just pop out anywhere, anytime, anypart of the house to gib euu a surprise...
hahas...
And Dar said they never fight over stuff...
They always quarrel for letting each other go first...
As in... "You can play the GBA first~" "No, you go first, mom bought it for you."
"It's okay, you go first" "No no u go first" "You go first lahhs" "Dun wan. You can have it first."
"I said you first le rights?" "You first lahhs!"... and so on... [examples only uhs...]
I envy hiimx for habing such a nice family...
I long for such family too though...
But can't say i'm one that could make that kind of family...

Oh! By the way!
My Blog Song load slower...
So do gib my blog sometime to load the song...
If not refresh it if it doesn't come out after a long wait...
It's rather nice to miie...
Holy and peaceful~...
Aww~...
It's from an anime that i've kinda enjoy...
D.Grey-man.
A Japanese anime.
The song's in Spanish though...

Lyric:

Spanish:
Lacrimosa dies illa
Qua resurget ex favilla
Judicandus homo reus.
Huic ergo parce, Deus,
Pie Jesu Domine,
Dona eis requiem. Amen.

English Translation:
Requiem day that
On which will arise from the burning coals
Man accused to be judged.
Therefore, O God, do Thou spare him,
Faithful Lord Jesus,
Grant them rest. Amen.

May God Bless You!

i've been home the whole day...
wow, iie wasn't realli bored today...
i've been chating with andy and BaoLing for almost the whole afternoon...
then after that iie read back my old blog post starting from the DEC entry...
iie loved Wee so much so much then...
aiis...
iie even saw one part that almost got miie dead...
as in...
made miie recalled so much of the past...

somehow, nt being with panda...
makes miie think alot...
alot of bad things ofcoz...
why would i?...
iie dunno...
aiis...

there's so much iie wanna express...
but iie think iie shall express it next time...
or...
maybe nt...
aiis...
aiis...
aiis...

iie blog again later bahhs...
maybe...

No longer alone...

I'm back!
Just now after blogging, iie went out with PohLing~
We were both dead bored so we decided to go out to do homework together...
Not saying it's realli that entertaining...
But still, iie enjoy the time we had together...

Meet PohLing at 4pm but end up meeting at 4.30 both of us were a bit late...
then went to woodland library and did some homeworks tgt...
but mine's maths and her's other subjects...
untill it's around 6.30pm, we decided to go see the sunset at sembawang beach...
but we were late...
so we end up playing with the sand and cleaning the wet bench with papers that she dun need it anymore...
we were near a couple of police and they were looking at us wiping the bloody bench...
we just keep giggling as we thought it was kinda funny...

stare at sea n do nth...
end up realising the rain's about to come so went back to sun plaza meet up with joel...
Had our dinner while joe crap with pohling...
just watching them craping makes miie laught like hell...
enjoyed it!

Miie n joe talked about it...
iie do wonder...
am iie a burden?...
am i no fun to be with?...
or wad other reasons is there to let miie stay alone at home while he go out with his frens?...
no bad intentions realli!
iie just do wonder wad is he thinking?...
why wouldn't he bring miie along?...
iie just need an answer that iie can accept...
am iie always bothering hiimx?...
ii'm confused...
iie realli dunno wad's his thinking anymore...

i've always solve alot of whys myself..
but this why can't be answer by miie...
iie just dun get it...
he wants some time with his friends without miie?...
am iie a burden that would disturb he and his frens?...
or does his frens avoid hiimx more when he's with miie?...
is it harder to talk with miie around?...
iie wants some answer...
but iie dun dare to confront hiimx...

it's not like iie douth hiimx or smth...
it's nt like iie think he's lying to miie or wad...
iie totally trust him...
iie just do wonder why...

maybe iie just thinks too much...
guess so...
think iie think too much le bahhs...
hahas...

today iie solve a why myself...
iie finally know why iie missed Wee every now and then...
and why iie am trap with the decision of choosing between them during NOV...
but iie won't say it out...
it's a secret~ *smiles*
hahas...

wad is every gal's dream boy?...
a kind n sweet gentleman?
a cool and protective man?
or both?...
who don't wish for both?...
but too bad...
this kind of guy doesn't exist...
but iie met both of this type of guy...
almost at the same time...
and BOOM!
there goes nth...
hahas...

The View Of The Beach...

Greetings!

Introducing:

THE BLOGGER!

It's been a LONG LONG time since iie last blog...
iie finally re-created my blog...
i've changed my link and put up passwords protections...
guess i can expect little ppl to read my blog...
as now lowering my profile is the best...
coz iie recently just had my very first enemy in my whole 16 years of life~

not something that i'll like though...
habing enemy is so troublesome...
just by seeing hiimx in school and thinking back, spoils my mood...
tired of the war but still, iie die die also won't wanna be that bastard's friend...
dun need a fren like hiimx...
everything of hiimx is so fake...
hiis attitude and words hiis expression!
*puke*

Yeap, as everyone knows, i'm ATTACH to Cheong Hong Xian...
who iie regard hiim as Panda to friends who is nt in Northlands...
A relationship that's....
iie dunno how to discribes...
nt as wonderful as being with Wee...
yet...
iie chosen this path...
painful...
no expectation...
sweet but nt like honey nor sugar...
nt much xing si applied...
full of quarrels...
caring...
protective...
loving? only when we sees each other iie guess....
not a fairytale...
just simple and nice...

truth is...
Wee n Miie was the most wonderful and beautiful relationship that iie has ever had...
yet...
iie let go...
iie dunno why...
it's like...
creating a character in maple...
and totally mess up the stats...
but the friends and people you met was wonderful...
and you are even a guild leader with a wonderful guild...
yet lazy to retrain a new character...
so never play le...
and so...
THE END...

something like that...
iie just dunno why iie dun dare to start all over...
no ideal why...
but...
iie can't stop missing hiimx once in a while...

[wu] ya [er] zi jiao [ling]
5.2.0
our past...
just kept flashing back....
words can't express these feelings and thoughts...
iie dun realli know how to explains...

oh well...
love can't be compared...
it doesn't matter which is more wonderful...
it's just on the feelings you have for that person itself...

PHOTO TIME!

Such a big moon!

UGLY MIIE! >.<

Caught Red-handed by Santina!
Vandalising table...
OPPS!=x
Given by ChewPing&HuiYing 4 Valentine.
Differs from ChewPing.
Ferrero from HuiYing.
John Yeo's Ah Pek Face!
HAHAS!
dun tell hiimx iie took this~...
Lastly, My Ugly Face Again.
Look at how tired i looked...