Friday, August 01, 2008

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Today didn't went to school.
another day of missing school = another day of loneliness.

Damn boring at home.
nth to do.
all iie could do is staring at the com.
internet was slow.

haiis.
another day of emo.
feeling sad the whole day.
very depress today.
all those kind of negative thinking.
but then again, there's also positive thinking when iie suddenly feel happy.

LOVES THE SHOW D.GREY-MAN.
was at first introduce by Hx but nt because of hiimx then i like this show dehhx.
but iie personally love it after watching 100+epi.
lols!
it's smth like naruto&bleach.
gt fighting fighting but like bleach magic magic and everyone has its own special powers.
heart-warming at time, hilarious at times and full of surprises.
Defiantly something worth watching!

Just happen to watch it at art central today.
was laughing.
And finally felt happy today.
hahas.
been a long time since i've watch it.

miss Wee today.
tot of lots of things.
i'm afraid that things will not work out after all the damage i have done.
if he realli leaves me.
iie dunno if i could accept any other relationship or nt.
because of all the dumb decisions i made, i damage nt only HIS heart but also mine.
my life is full of regrets.
my greatest regrets started out when i was SEC2 and last till now.
ever since SEC2, the wrong decision i've made is countless.
have i grew DUMB or what?.

sometimes, i just feel like ending my life.
because, everything seems so meaningless after all the wrong things i've done.
i know its stupid, but... (=

because, i'm afraid of death.
because i dun understand what would happen after death, so i'm afraid to die.
if only we understood what would happen after death, maybe we wouldn't be so afraid of it.

sometimes i do wonder.
what is wrong with me?
why and how could my life end up so miserable all of a sudden.
within only a few years only.
i use to never had a care in the world.
i didn't care who didn't like me, who uses me, who is my enemy, why did i exist and all those kind of funny question.
i never dislike existing nor like existing, i just live my life as it passes each few days.
hopping i would grow up faster.
but now, ever since i enter secondary school, i wishes i didn't existed.
iie realli wish i could erase my existence.
but reality says it's impossible...


Today's Rate:

80% Miserable
20% Happy

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