My unlucky day

22 March 2oo7, Thursday

is this naruto?...
he looks cool like that~
WAH! so suai!!!
hahax...
my dar dar more suai narz~

Today's my unlucky day iie guess...
Chinese class teacher neber come again...
as usual...
iie ask joel accompany miie...
then stood outside my class kept talking to joel...
maybe iie talk too lound so da malay class teacher closed da back door...
hahax...
noisey miie... so pai seh...

after chiness was math...
was in bad mood already....
teacher still pissed miie...
coz iie can feel that my sisters are hiding stuff from miie...
and it even in culed an outsider knowing about it too...
yeah... iie was angry and jelous that they kept secrets from miie with a non PDP...
WTF...
kinda pissed...
so forget it...
if that's wad they want then be it...
make miie feel like i'm only needed sometimes...
like i'm nt important at all...
can be replace by any one...
the class messy nia then tell miie later we go find teacher together...
iie said okayz then later left da class without a words....
wad's da meaning of this...
haiiz...
one day neber come nia these kind of stuff happens da next day...
stress miie out immidiatly...
i juz simply hate being myself...
iie juz hate being miie...
iie hate miie...
haiiz...
why do iie hab to be miie....
why am iie even trying to do?...
wad am iie even doing?...
wad am iie even thinking...
haiiz...
iie was realli hurted....
iie dunno wad's going on...
one day nt here nia then this fucking stuff happen...
siianz...
tired of my life....
haiiz... sad...

then da stupid Vanan ask miie pin up hair, tie hair push all my hair behide...
iie was realli pissed so iie talk back to her alot...
and luckily she knows when to stop...
coz iie had neber been rude to her...
guess that's why bahx...
then has been controlling my tears since then...
feeling so left out...
like so lonely like that...
like every things againest miie today...
then cp still say stuff that make miie hurt even more...
feel even more like crying...
but...
it's nt her fault any way...
who ask miie is such a BITCH....
my attitude sux to da core...
FUCK MY LIFE!... ARR!!!
haiiz...
then keep controlling untill recess...
then christ, joel, hx and elbert and da another guy iie forgot his name liao, came cheer miie up a little...
thanks a ton my frens...

then PDP come again...
nt even gibing miie a min to breathe...
hit miie with all pains...
and make miie totally cannot handle my emotion any more...
that time all iie can think was
"WAD DO YOU WANT MIIE TO DO?"
"WAD DO U WANT FROM MIIE"
"WHY CAN'T YOU ALL JUZ LEAVE MIIE ALONE?"
"I HAD ENOUGH... PLZ LEAVE MIIE ALONE WILL YA?"
"I DUN WANNA CRY...I DUN WANNA CRY... PLZ LEAVE MIIE ALONE"
"GET LOST!"
"GET OUT OF MY STUPID FUCKING LIFE! JUZ LEAVE MIIE ALONE!"
"IT HURTS! PLZ LET MIIE REST! LEAVE MIIE ALONE!"
"WHY DO U ALWAY WANNA FORCE MIIE"
"WHY CAN'T U LET MIIE COOL DOWN AND REST A WHILE?"
even saying it now spoils my mood...
it hurt miie even juz by thinking of it....
haiiz...

then later GEO class was okay...
miie cool myself down by studying
yet that stupid Dong wen keep sms miie...
Hendry also got but neber msg much...
dar also gt sms miie but cannot blame mahx... =X
iie only scold dong wen stupid by sms miie becoz...
HE'S JUZ SITTING BESIDE MIIE!!!
teacher saw but gib miie alot of chance...

then later went back to class for Bio...
back to a bit tends situation...
then later a bit okay...
thx to wee teng's help even though she dunno that she helped out...
then later after school become settle out tai ji...
then become hab prob with hui yi again...
she gib attitude again...
haiiz...
wad's wrong with her any way?...
iie realli wanna be close to her...
realli wanna tell her sorry for all da attitudes...
and realli wanna explain to her...
but... some how... iie feel that she doesn't gib a dam now...
maybe becoz she's juz currently pissed...
haiiz...
wad miserable life iie hab...
haiiz....
shu wei... stop complaining...
this is ur life... live on with this stupid life till da next life then...
hahax...

then EL period gt new teacher...
which will be teaching us soon...
woah... chaotic sial today...
then iie qurall with pdp still can joke till so happi with cp...
guess alot are fake smile bahx...
but as long as it make someone smile...
everything is worft it...
dun even know if cp's realli laughing...
coz some how feel that some are being force to laught...
haiiz...

then later settle hao stuff with PDP after school then iie went home, bath and go cut hair...
atlast my hair looks more presentable...
accept da infront de...
still short...
still gotta rely on hair strighterner and spray...
hahax...
shhh... secret... =X
after wards iie go meet PDP at around 5.45+
then almost tio tai ji...
siianz...
today so suay sial...

then meet mama afterwards and eat yoshinoya then went home after wards...
then now blogging at watching some naruto...
hahax...
relaxe a while bahx...
after the whole day stress and hurts...
let's take some rest...

AtTiTuDe GaL siging off - it hurts, it's painfull... but wad can iie do?... it's my own fault any way...


colour emotions:

RED - pissed / juz to stand out
Blue - sad/down/depress
Yellow - g;ad/thankfull
Pink - happy / paiseh
Black - nth
Purple - normal