14 April 2oo7, Saturday

Today issh da day that you're coming back from ur camp...
iie miss eu so much dar dar...
i'm barely alive now...
this few day iie spent a quite lonely life...
some how feel extral with PDP now...
feel like i'm only needed sometimes...
cp changed alot...
now when iie look back and look at wad's now...
iie hope da cheerfull cp would come back again...
da one iie loved so much...
da one iie can hold hand with and walk around without worrying that she'll mind...
da one iie can pamper and be pamper with...
da one i'm so close with, my gan mei....
haiiz....
ppl been asking her to change so much but iie can't do anything about it...
she's always helping miie solve my probs but iie can't do anything when she's lost...
wad a useless gan jie iie am...
iie didn't helped her and made her into....
like this?!?!....
iie dunno issh da last time da cp a real cp who did not force herself to do wad she dun wan or,
izzit now issh da real cp?....
i couldn't imagine if last time da cp issh nt her real self...
then that would be that....
my best fren and closest gan mei has never exist....
now walk around with them iie dare nt say much...
coz i've always been ignore...
i say a joke, everyone like neber heard it....
iie talk, either someone cut in or rite after iie finish they say something else...
wad am iie to u guys?..
are we sisters or wad?...
iie tried so hard to get close yet u all juz ignore...
i'm gonna die soon in this kind of life...
wad am iie to u?....
let's end here....

dar dar...
to day u coming back le...
iie hope to be able to contact u somehow after 8pm...
i'm sorry...
i'm now too troubled to say anything sweet or happy....
juz gib miie time to cool down bahx...

lost signing out - Hope to get out of this life soon...