Alone - Use To It

4.30AM

Today iie couldn't wake up for school again...
When iie woke up iie slack on my bed...
Looking back to da past...
And then iie remember Chen Wee use to call miie up in da morning last time...
Was realli thankful...
But never got da chance to realli thank him...

Therefor...
Today iie drew out my feelings...
iie drew 4 drawings...
but can't blog up da photo now...
Due to that my Digital Cam is in my dad car...
i'll try to get da Camera back tml n take da photos n blog in up okayz?...
Hope it's not too ugly...
hahax...
iie hab drew before 2 pictures and blog it up on o3 March...
if u like, u can view it back...

well...
today didn't do much...
almost da whole da on da computer...
play a little maple and surf a little web...
kept hoping that time would juz fly but it juz seems slower n slower...
iie still remember da time when i'm with Chen We, time realli fly...
But now...
It no longer fly...
it seems like it has and injure wing...
Hope it's wing recover soon...

Today iie tried downloading FL again...
But it got a bit improvement but it seems to still have error...
Actually wanna gib up le...
But he told miie nt to gib up...
was realli shock but realli glad...
^-^

Then later he ask miie pei him listen to 9.33 coz 12am gt ghost story...
iie was realli glad...
but in da end he mistaken da date so dun hab ghost story...
it's okay narz...
let's listen to ghost story together tml okayz?
^-^
iie always wanted to show him how iie realli feels...
but iie always had to hold back...
coz, i'm afraid if iie do, we won't be as close as now le...
i'm realli scared to not be able to be this close with him any more...
so iie didn't make any move nor show any true feelings...
but some how, iie can feeling a bewi big improvement in da closeness with him n miie...
and i'm realli happi...
bewi happi...
bewi bewi happi...
Thank You Chen Wee...

Today iie realli felt like asking...
Wad is da place am iie in ur heart...
and
Wad am iie to him?...
But felt stupid...
Why would iie wanna ask such things...
Even though iie realli hope iie could get da answer...
But it realli doesn't matter bahx...
It's okayz~...
^-^

Today keep sneezing...
Guess i'm coming down with a slight flu...
Hope it get better...

Juz now when iie watching tv, my daddy walk past da tv n iie saw abit of his undies showing out...
So iie told him... "daddy, ur undies come out liao..."
he didn't reply...
so iie tot he didn't heard miie...
so iie repeated myself...
"daddy, ur undies come out le narz..."
then my da jie say...
"nvm lahx..."
then my daddy say...
"all family wad... scared wad?"
then he pull his pants lower lyk hw teenagers lyk to wear their pants low low lyk tt...
then a bigger part of his undies showed...
then my mom saw liao keep laughing lyk hell...
iie was glad...
my family is acturally enjoying themself with this joke...
then my da jie say...
"mummy, daddy's undies too small liao narz... next time buy bigger de"
then iie replied..
"ya... buy those kind u can pull all da way up and cover ur tummy..."
then my mom laugh untill even lyk hell...
lolx...
iie was realli realli happi...

Tml my daddy's God Son will come to our house pray pray...
iie needa wake up at 8am but i'm still nt aslp...
hahax...
he's 11 year old this year...
small than miie by 4 years...
guess daddy muz hab like him alot...
or does he juz wanted a son so badly?...

Everytime iie wanted an answer...
iie would ask myself but didn't get da answer...
so i'll end up telling myself....
iie guess...
it's okayz...
and return with a fake smile...
^-^...
it makes no different...
but iie can atleast lie to myself...
and push down my sadness within...

Here's some cute shot strip...

Be My Penguin

Die Without Ur Love

From then on...
iie will and wants to treasure everyone around miie...
But will they?...


i'll be working hard...
Kambatte jasmine!
iloveyou...

Weak Heart, Weak Determination...
All iie nid is a little pull n a push forward...
Will u do da favour?...

When will da name Marshmellow belong to miie again?...
i'll be waiting and hoping...
Even my hopes are so low...
Let's juz give it all we got...

some people says...
dun get ur hope too high...
da higher hope u have,
then higher u'll fell from there...

i'm almost out of enery to fight on...
i'm nt recharge-able...

My only source of enery is U...

5.03AM