juz miie

2nd time blog...

6.30Am

hahax... iie nth to do so come blog out my feelings again...
iie juz realize that ever since we broke up...
iie can neber get a good rest...
at bed need lie there for 1 to 2 hours then can slp...
realli~...
iie realli miss him...
my hearts realli feel bewi unstable without him...
haiiz...
hard to explain narz...
iie juz simply needs him...
but seems like he doesn't need miie at all bahx...
well...
guess i'm a burden after all...
forget it then...
maybe...
juz maybe... i'll slowly walk further from him bahx...
then maybe...
it'll be better for us tt way...
even though iie cannot bare...
haiiz...
ARRR!
dunno narz...
iie bewi confuse now...
wanna forget but iie know clearly iie can't...
iie simply cannot lie to my own heart...
haiiz....
acturally iie wanna start smoking again...
but iie remember that time when he found out iie smoke...
he was realli angry...
and da face he gave miie...
it's the first time i've seen it...
it's realli scary...
and i've made a promise to him that iie won't smoke any more...
actually to miie...
if iie made a promise when iie stead...
then after break...
iie would actually wanna break da promise...
coz iie will think that it doesn't matter any more...
since iie lose him...
everything is lost...
but iie also dunno why n for wad reson...
this promises matters to miie alot...
and iie somehow...
i wanted to keep it....

then iie feel like cutting myself...
but scared of pain...
lolx...
dunno why..
sec1 cut also not scared...
but dunno why iie now so scared of pain so much..
stupid rite?....

maybe some of u who hates miie n read this will hate miie even more...
iie dunno about u...
but if iie were u...
no matter how much iie hate that someone....
i'll try to understand how they feel though their blog...

oh well....
different ppl gt different thought and reaction bahx....

haiiz...