DIED...

haiiz...
chating with kian tart and chen wee...
kiian tart understands how iie feel...
coz he read my blog ytd....
thanks kiian tart...

Chen wee asked miie out tml...
say wanna bring his lappy go fix...
iie agreeded...
then soon after...
he told miie...
he maybe can't meet miie le...
iie ask for da reason why?... izzit becoz got fren peii nii le?...
he say not frenx...
then iie ask then why leh? mind telling miie?..
he say coz got fren wanna go there...

was like... first he say not fren... then he say coz of fren?...

well...
guess it's okay bahx...
humans do changes...
weather to good sides... or bad...
they'll still change...
iie guess...
that chen wee iie used to know...
will neber come back...
even if iie wait for 5 years.. it won't...
iie know iie might think too much...
but that's juz how gals are...
aren't they...
haiiz...
my heart hurts...
well...
maybe iie deserve this...

haiiz..
iie...
dunno wad else to say...
no word could explain these feelings now...

maybe i'm juz being a little too sensetive...
haiiz...
well then...
hope euu hab fun with ur fren then...
well...
no nid hope bahx...
sure will de bahx...
u're frens always manage to entertain euu alot...
sure envy euu alot...

well... atleast iie do have my sistarz..
hahax..
and some ppl who does care...
like zhi hao kor and kian tart who can understands how iie feel...

haiiz...
iie wish my sickness get worst then iie die better...
sorry to say stupid things...
somethings are juz unbearable...

iie felt like a nobody in da family too...
everything someone do smth wrong they muz push faults..
this and that also muz push...
most of da time also my fault...
from small till now...
com spoil, my fault, mouse spoil my fault..
mp3 lost, hp lost, my fault...
always been command de...
shu wei this shu wei that...
got tired...
so tired ans broke free last year...
started become rude..
to teaches, to mother and to sisters...
thinking that maybe being a little repellent would let them know iie grew up...
sure they did...
but i'm still treated as a nobody...
no one trust miie in anything...
yes...
iie cannot be trust when i'm small...
but hello?!?!?
i'm not small any more...
dun lock miie up and take all responsibilities away from miie....
iie am given nth!
iie hate my life...
iie hate being miie...
da harder euu push... da harder it bounce back...
isn't that so?...
welll
nvm bahx...
haiiz...
totally lost...

to live or die?
to turst or not?
to do or dun?
to be or not to be?

when iie tot that iie can finally be happy and smile da real smile...
things happen and da fake smile are force to be shown once more...
iie know iie might be thinking to much...
iie know iie am sensetive...
but wad can iie do?...
iie can't get rid of it...

maybe...
we realli shall end da fairytale and start a frenship tales instead...
wad do euu think?...
atleast da paiins and hurrts will stop a little...

plz gib miie a pain killer...
iie need it...
BADLY...

haiiz...
wad am iie writing...
this issh not wad iie wanna write...
wad am iie doing..
iie dunno wad i'm doing...
plz...
someone...
help miie out of here...
iie can no longer make up my mind or think carefully...

iie feel like saying "leave miie alone"
but iie dun wanna be alone any more...
iie wish someone would know and understand everything...
i'm scared... i'm lost... who... who can be there for miie?...
who is da person iie need now...
iie dunno...
iie realli dunno...
leave miie alone..
but iie dun wanna be alone any more...
plz...
iie feel like i'm going crazy...
my mind's all mix up...

HELP MIIE!!!!

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