just miie

it's been a while since iie last blog...
hahas...
nth much to blog these days... pai sehh....
kinda lasy too...
Monday to Friday are tiring...
always feels sleepy during weekdays....
oh well...

Mr Joel Kool gave miie his 'last letter' and inside it's written:
"Please forgive Christopher, he realli wants to be your fren"
smth like tt...
aiis...
should iie say he's dump or stupid?...
nvm...
should iie gib them another chance?...
aiis...

been absent from school three days this weeks...
aiis...
these few days, sometime things run though my mind and made miie real sad....
sometime iie realli dun understand why...
and end up with no answers...
but sometime habing an answer doesn't matter any more...
but this always continue down like a cycles...
my confidants has always been low...
and sometime...
it just gets lower...
and lower...
but sometime...
when small happy things happen...
my confidants can suddenly be raise up so high unexpectedly...
oh well...

in class, Santina has become someone iie couldn't be without in school...
without her in school, ii'll feel lonely and all
hahas...
she has become a fren to depend on...
maybe iie spends to little time with her after school...
maybe we should go out sometime...
oh well...

i wonder if writing about Wee in my blog will be unfair to Wee or nt...
saying letting go but my blog still writes about hiimx...
is it evil to do so?...
he's someone that iie can never forget though...
iie put everything behind but iie can never forgets hiimx...
nt even able to be a fren is kinda sad...
but maybe it's better this way...
coz even though iie put the past behind miie but if iie sees hiimx with other gals...
i'll definitely be sad too...
oh well, enough of this talks...

my studies aren't good these days...
i'm dead...
feels restless these day...
like no heart to learn anything....
motivation's there but heart's isn't...
wonder where it went to...
i'll just gotta try harder iie guess...
enough play time...
time to get serious....

KAMBATTE SHU WEI!
hahas...

idiots...

Disappointment every where...
aiis...
wad's fun about smoking...
the more iie see and hear about them...
the more disappointed iie am in them...
so everything were juz lies and play and a replacement for boringness during holidays?...
now iie can see the problem with guys...
the lies n excuses they makes...
sound fun doesn't it?...
just staying with us for the sake of staying...
not becoz they realli treat euu as someone important...
how used iie felt....
i've always been used any way...
from sec 1 till now...
it never stops...
well...
i'm unlucky then...
hahas....

let's say iie gave up...
i'm enough disappointed in them...
please dun come back to talk to miie...
can can no longer supress those feelings...
i've cried for two guys for the same reason on two different days...
they juz dun understand...

how dumb iie am to used to take them as my brothers...
it was juz a name after all...
dun juz can't understand how important that word brother meant to miie...
and can see how hard iie am trying...
iie felt like a family then...
but guess they dun...
miie n hx were nt even important then...

want to smoke juii go smoke...
iie won't say euu all liiao...
euu stress juii smoke?...
this is just an excuse...
iie used to gib that excuse too...
iie juz wanna play bad by smoking as it's looks fun...
but overall stress IS JUST AN EXCUSE...
look down in ur heart n feel it lahhx...
if iie smoke and tell euu coz iie stress u will angry not?...
if iie never smoke before n iie started smoking...
u will disappointed a not...
and worst come to worst...
i got smoke but keep telling lies say i never smoke till now then i say i got smoke...
u will sad not?...

i'm being in the middle now...
this side nt happy another side also nt happy then one extal one suddenly say he smoke and cannot be like how we used to...
hard not the position?
wanna pull three ppl tgt...
one cannot trust them any more another stubbon and egle bubble another one dunno wad....
always say he peace and say he always middle man...
but in ppl view...
obviously not realli...

now iie see the different in gal frens n bois frens...
guy fren full of lies n excuese, being a fren for the sake of it only...
gal fren irratating and hard to please...
humans sure is a troublesome bunch...

forget it...
say iie give up liiao...
and this is the last time...
dun come talk to miie...
iie dun wan shead tears for ppl who dun care...
bye idiots...

si bei act cute...
can help miie box my face?.. xD

yo yo yo~
miie back on blogging...
recently, i've been thinking of the past few years...
the things that happen n the mistakes iie made and the stuff iie learn though out it...
kinda intresting...
being alive is kinda fun yet troublesome...
hahas...
starting to see stuff in the positive way...
life seems better that way...
hahas...
even though iie still think of ppl before myself,
but atleast i'm living it fully...
i'll be boring if u only live for urself rights?...
no motivation n all...
hahas...
iie know iie might regret saying these and take back my words when sad things happen,
but yeah, it's ture that life is lyk tt dehhx...
hahas...

been cheerfull these days...
wonder how's Wee doing...
guess he'll be alrights..
he's very jiian qiiang dehhx...
^-^ kabatte WEE!...

any way, got my handphone le!!!
yay!
congratz miie...
xD
now can contact ppl more easily le...

iie no confident in myself...
dun think iie can go up to sec 5...
aiis...
feel very slacky lehhx...
how?...
my math also blur blur...
chem also blur blur...
eng n SS cannot study properly due to class dehhx ppl very noisy...
chiness like cannot help much le...
Geo is not bad...
FnN, Mdm Teng can nag for 2 periods instead of teaching...
Bio now nt bad but last year dehhx chapter all sux like hell...

should iie get back my tuition?...
like tt iie realli won't hab time for hong xian or chew ping they all le...
N level will come in between Aug-Sept...
it's like 8 months away from now...
should iie start to jiia you now?
or slack a bit more?...
xD
aiis...
very lasy but iie realli wants to study...
heart wan study but head don't wan...
hahas...
zhe mo ban...
siian dao...

think should get tuition le bahhs...
must jiia you le...
IIE WAN GO POLY! xD

in juz a few days after school reopen...
alot happen...
headach...

Cc got angry with miie juz becoz at dunno 27 or 28 dec iie never celebrate belated christmas with them...
it's like holidays so long then they never jio miie go out so iie go with other ppl then go till no money liiao then they suddenly want celebrate then iie no money le so iie say iie most probably never go due to lack of money...
and iie didn't go any where for that two days...
iie stayed home...
not like iie go out with other ppl lyk tt...

aiis...
then christ, joe n hx there also got problem...
siians...
dun talk about it lerhhx...

Then today Li Qun told miie this morning someone ask CC izzit wan che miie dai zi...
who could it be siial...
she say she dunno who also but tt person like from express class...
iie nt good with express class ppl n there where tt person come from siial...
then CC also never care liiao so wad for che miie dai zi...
such a small stuff Cc che for wad?...
obvious right?...
someone sure wanna subbo ChengChin...
or was it a misunderstanding?...
wadever...
aiis...

iie am so trouble now all thanks to my own emotional n sensetivity~
siians...

a simple sistership juz becoz of a small problem can make untill both side unhappy...
same goes to hx they all dehhx problem...
but their's one is accumulate one...
plus alot of jiiao wei n attitudes...
they say they 8 years friendship, but like fake one...
aiis...

juz abit good things happen...
iie got more freedom though...
able to get a handphone soon too~
singtel line~
got a new close fren this year, Santina...
a dunno malay or indian person...
lolx...
but she understands n speak chiness quite abit...
love her! xD

hahas...
siian, juz now cry abit...
think too much...
like iie say, iie am emotional~ ^^

guess i'll end here today...
buaiis...

._Bitter Drops Of Love_.

been addicted to the show zhong zi yi zia[X-family]~
it's nice one lurhhx...
love it...
i'm thinking of getting another hair cut...
and change my hairstyle punk like...
get myself a make over...
xD
crazy miie...

iie like the song gou ai sang by a chord...
HE'S CUTE!
but the song is very nice...
love it too~



我穿梭金星木星水星火星土星追寻
追寻你时间滴答滴答滴答答滴身影

指头还残留你为我擦的指甲油
没想走你好像说过你和我会不会有以后

世界一直一直变地球不停的转动
在你的时空我从未退缩懦弱
当我靠在你耳朵只想轻轻对你说
我的温柔只想让你都拥有
我的爱只能够让你一个人独自拥有
我的灵和魂魄不停守候在你心门口
我的伤和眼泪化为乌有为你而流
藏在无边无际小小宇宙
爱你的我

你听见了吗我为你唱的这首歌
是为了要证明我为了你存在的意义

爱你的我
不能停止脉搏为了爱你奋斗就请你让我说出口

enjoy~... =)

start of something new

been a long time since iie last blog huh...
xD

on the first day of school, iie didn't manage to wake up in time...
so ya, iie didn't went to school that day...
second day of school iie manage to wake up on 5.45am to prepare for school...
hahas...
so first day was normal...
ah huai, my father that side dehhx cousin, came into my school too~
wow?...
he become such pai kiia liiao...
aiis...
hope he will nt become worst when time goes by...
school is as boring as always...
but iie hab to study hard this year in order to pass N level...
gambatte!

now TP like become very famous like tt...
so teens n teenage mag also got intro...
lolx...
iie wonder which poly will iie be able to go next time...
but before that...
iie gotta pass my N and my O levels...
hahas...
wish miie all the best bahhx..

on 31 dec, iie meet zhi hao kor n pass hiimx his present...
cookies...
hope it is yummy...
xD
and made some for Wee too...
guess iie realli hab to end this le...
now iie dunno how to explain about us le...
all iie can say is...
this is the end...
dun wanna walk on to creat8 more pain...
maybe we might meet few years later?...
hahas...

it's a new year le...
2oo8! so iie hope he can start a new this year...
and find someone that can tresure hiimx well...
unlike miie...
:)

been watch the taiwan show " X-Family" for quite some time le...
VERY NICE...
but it's a second series of a show...
iie never watch the first series...
hahas...
the first series is "KO ONE"...
loves the show x-family...
the guy a chord, in the show, is kawaii one lurhhx...
xD

wonder when is mommy gonna get miie a HP n a studen plan...
aiis...
mommy arz mommy...
dun lyk tt lahhx...
but miie a nice nice HP with a studen plan lehhx...
xD

iie nth much to blog also...
blog alot of craps...
if iie get my HP, iie think this blog will be filled with photos le...
hahas...
so ppl, PRAY for miie too...
thanks! xP

kay bahhx...
iie end here...
lasy blog le...
buaiis...