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I'm in school right now...
hahas...
having Value Education now...
mr Fizal brought us to computer lap...
told us we can do anything that we think it's related to VE lesson...
hahas...

therefore i'm blogging...
communication mahhs...
xD

Miie and Dar Okay le...
Last night we talk about it...
Thanks for trying to understanding miie, Dar...
Xie xie ni...

Even though alot alot ppl ask miie to break with hiimx...
but think i'm stubbon bahhs...
iie just wanna try my best and do whatever iie can...
so that atleast iie wouldn't regret it like how iie regret nt treating Wee properly...
hope things will go smoothly...

i sux

Yo...
It's a raining day today...
iie feel all so moody now...
Chat with WQiang kor this afternoon about Dar till iie cry...
iie dunno why either...
now just chat with dar in msn...
feel so... disappointed in myself?...
dun ask miie why...
iie just find myself such a big failure all of a sudden...
iie always can't do anything right at all...
not in studies, not in frens, not in relationship, not even in my own thoughts and feelings!
iie hate myself...

My Hp take go fix le...
when will it ever come back?
iie miss my phone...
haiis...

iie hate myself...
my life has always been so terrible n full of regrets all thanks to myself...
i never knew iie got so much to learn again...
from studies to life....
iie know nth...
nth at all...
bloody failure...
sometimes, iie do wonder...
why do iie even exist in this world...
hate my existence!

iie feel all so little all of a sudden...
haiis...

JASMINE NG SHU WEI...
I HATE YOU!...

10.44pm

Told dar iie going sleep at 10.41pm...
when iie gonna type "Nights"
he replied "wonder wth u did todae =x"
iie replied back "just sat n chat n walk in rain, tt's all"
then he said "once i look away, u'll do all the things i don like"

He went offline right after that...

i'm hurt now...
why must iie do things that he likes?...
he never did do things that iie likes...
iie took himx the way he were...
why couldn't he?...

yeah, maybe iie complain too much, maybe iie am irritating or being too much of a burden...
but aren't this miie?...
why must iie be the only one to change according to what he like?...
iie never demanded for anything...
all iie wan is for him to love miie normally...
and that's all...

can't he just accept miie for who iie am...
iie hate being in love...
it bloodily hurt...
iie used to said that if he break with miie iie will only cry n that's all...
but now, come to think of it...
and kinda feeling the pain a little...
iie dun wanna imagine wad iie will do if he leaves miie...
maybe they're rights...
i'm too obsess with hiimx...
iie realli dunno what i'm gonna do about my life if he leaves miie...
all along, the things that makes miie aim for poly was hiimx...
i'll lose my goal if iie lose hiimx...
this bloodily sux...

God Damit!
Someone, save miie...

Unwell

Today went do CIP...
Donation for the Disabled People...
Meet Andy,HYing and Pat this morning...
After that meet WQ kor...
Then went the NeeSoonCC near GV dehhx to take the container...
after that we went GV watch movie first...
after that we went ChongPang ask ppl donate...
iie very pai sehhx...
then we sat down at the coffee shop...
Andy bought mam mam while WQ kor treat miie ice-kachang...
then iie eat half juii bao le so gib the other half to kor...
so kor ate 1 and a half bowl lurhhx...
while we sitting down, got some kinda uncle and anuty donated $2 to eat of our container...
so nice of them...
then iie ownself gt dig coins from my wallet to tong in the container...
after that we walk walk around, slack slack then go back return the container...

After we return the container, we went NP walk a bit then proceed to Tamp again...
it's the 3th time this week...
Wednessday miie n XiaoWen went there to cut hair...
The next day Miie,XiaoWen,WeeTeng,HYing,Pat,Andy,WQ kor all go Tamp...
Bring Hying to cut hair...
he turn out to look abit like korean ppl...
lolx...
after that we went back Yishun and slack at Andy's house the playground till 9.45 lyk tt juii go home le...
Then today go again for fun...
walk walk...
somehow iie like it there...
think it's coz of the memories and it's the place where one of my true love lives...
iie hab two true love so far...
lolx...
then 8 plus went home...

now i'm online n blogging...
been talking to frens about Dar...
some ask miie to break some just go =="...
iie dunno...
he just dun auto call miie, auto look for miie, rarely sms miie, rarely bring mie out tgt with his frens, dun like being close in public, most of the time only say iloveyou or msg iloveyou only if iie said it first and dun sweet talks,dun realli stick to miie,quarrel with miie quite often,dun understand how iie feels and all only...
said he's totally opposite of Wee realli is opposite of Wee...
hahas...

well, now the more iie think of it the more sad it is...
but is he realli siian of miie already?
or is he just lyk tt...
what if he's realli lyk tt?...

Actions speaks louder than words but...
aren't feelings more important?...

If iie realli break with hiimx coz of this reason aren't it too guo fen?...

What if he's just too shy?...

Maybe he just nt used to it?

There's so much questions in my mind...
and the more iie think about it, the more fear is created...
now iie kinda fear hiimx abit...
nt of losing hiimx...
but iie dunno...
iie never had this kind of fear before...
even iie can't explain it...

dramatic isn't it?...
but iie can't help it...

GOD, save miie!...

haiis...
Life sux...

11.49pm:
Dar went to Joel house ton never tell miie....
Feel sad...
It's always like that...

Rawr!

At Century Square toilet[after cut hair]

At home

Before meeting WeeTeng they all on Thursday

Waiting for bus...
i look fat!
walking towards the play ground...
Reach the play ground

miie n WeeTeng
ChioBu of the day!
Hying n miie
Friday PE lesson, nth to do.
WeeTeng tied us up...
Wanna kidnap us?
The Container
Aww~, so sweet~
Both fall aslp...
Panda!
Panda: "yo!"
Rabbit: "hello~"
Kawaii DiDi!
Shhh, u see nth at all~

lala

Konichiiwa!
Last week past by faster than normal...

Qi Yi kana problem again!
WAHAHAHA!
serve hiim right for being so dumb!
iie hate hiimx to the core!
that perverted ass hole!

3 April 2oo8

for some reason, after Qi Yi prob on Thursday, iie got closer to the Chinese ppl in my class...
alot more closer~
after Chinese oral on Thursday, we went to hab dinner tgt with our Chinese teacher which is also our oral teacher...
chat alot!
our teacher not as naggy as other adults~
so cute like us~
hahas!
after dinner, we sent teacher home
we chat alot on our where there...
it was having so much fun!
after that we split into two groups, miie, HuiYing & XiaoWen will be walking towards bus interchange from ChongPang while Andy, WeeTeng and Wen Qiang walk the other way...

Got to a blk opposite of my blk and sat down slack...
slowly it started raining and iie became super hyper n crazy...
after that met mom go NTUC buy fish paste and other stuff...
met up with Patrick at MRT station too...
after that go buy stuff then we parted...


4 April 2oo8

Friday after school at 7.30pm got passion arts at our school hall...
ytd iie asked my fren help miie buy ticket already...
We went home changed and meet at HuiYing house...
Reach hui ying blk juii saw Patrick...
he brought miie up and pass miie the things he wants to gib hui ying dehhx to miie n left...
got in and we make up a it juii go bugis street...
wanna go by MRT but XiaoWen insisted that we go by bus...
was darn bored lahhs...
the trip so long~...
4.30 plus set off, 5.40 plus then reach, WTH...

walk walk abit niia then gtg le...
got back by MRT and then sat bus go school...
saw alot of our seniors that left school already...
met ah john then we join hiimx with Yong Qiang they all and settle down at the hall...
When the concert's about to start, when the lights went out, YQ threw a water bottle to the back...
Everyone was like screaming once the lights are out, so iie dunno what happen in the back and iie dun dare look back also...
lolx
then never see Dar they all any where as they saw they coming too...
so iie called Dar then he say they at BK eating, will rush over later...
but by the time they reach, they already miss 3 performace and one of them is WuSu...
iie love watching WuSu sial...
they all look so cool~
lolx!

After passion arts, we meet hui yi and went to the bus stop at waited for her dar...
then after that we went to chong pang to hab our supper...
was super hungry and thirsty...
eat eat eat and drink drink drink and ate fruits...
then finally full le...
chat here chat there then went to 141 dehhx blk play poker...
Hui Yi dehhx BF can open the lemon tea Can with his teeth sial!
then 11.20++ then go home...
Hui ying and patick send miie home as iie keep complaining iie scared...
lolx...


7 April 2oo8

Last night waited for Dar's call till 2.30am plus then fall aslp...
woke up at 5.30 and rush cooking mam mam to bring to school...
Heng iie got it in time...
After iie done preparing n cooking and packing n all, iie rush to school...
After FnN, seems like WeeTeng they all enjoy the soup n fried rice iie cooked...
wow~
so happy...

After school, kor send miie home then iie prepare to go meet dar...
Dar today never come school...
iie got to Dar house then know he muscle ach so never go school...
GET WELL SOON DAR!
iloveyou...

So happy to see Dar after nt being able to be with hiimx so long...
keep yawning today...
kinda tired...

iie wonder what should iie cook to bring to school tml...
hummm...

i'm so bored now...
iie wonder when is then RO server gonna start...
sometime iie just ran put of ideals on what to do...
RO server~ faster start nehhx...

oh well, that all for today...

PHOTO TIME:

during maths period, iie hab food & drink & Hp on my desk
how relaxing~

Steam Egg Roll
cook during FnN

ChoCho

act innocent

Aww~ sweet couple~
envy them~

HuiYi & Kenny
sleepy kenny& kawaii hui yi

kenny bite this can open!

wow!

And lastly, my ugly face!
happy?