i'm in pain.
iie fell again...
looks like i've never learned my lesson...
always gibing so much hopes for myself...
dumb right?...

why didnt euu told me properly from the start.
wht was the kiss for then?...
its a lie too?...
its just for the sake of my study?
not me?...

what for.
iie said before...
if u're being nice just for my studies, thn forget about it.
it doesnt matter.
there's no longer a reason for me any more..
iie dun nid those kindness n pitiness...
its a all a lie anyway.
i dun need it.

maybe its just me.
being dumb.
like i said.
iie am dumb.
guess this is what i deserve for being dumb.
this is what i deserve.
my decision created pain for ppl.
now i'm getting what i deserved back.
retribution.
i'll accept my fate.
i'll accept the pain.

its alright...
this pain will never last for a life time.
so its okay
i'll remember the pain n the mistakes and what i've learn.
i'll take all tht life has for me and walk on.

iie dun need help.
iie dun need fake hopes n dreams.
iie dun need them.
iie dun need a fairytale...
iie dun need happiness.
iie just need to accept what life gives me.
i'll give n take.
that's what's life all about...

Today had my chinese N level paper.

THANKS BAOBIIE ER ZI ZHANG YUAN A MILLION.
for lending me ur chinese dictionry so early in the morning.
sorry for bothering euu so much today.
thanks again! (:

didnt manage to finish my compo.
finished my letter writting completely.
first time see the paper no holes.
coz iie filled up ll the words iie dunno but flipping through the dictioary.

thank HX for wishing me gd luck so early in the morning.

after both papers, went eat ban mian.
after that walk everyone to NP n mrt then we parted n pat walked me home n then he went home.

Got home, fell aslp n then wake up around 7plus.
Jasmine called me.
so iie tio shock n woke up.
hahas.
after that go bath n watch tv and studies...

i've tot about it, positively.
iie realli should move on.
no one need someone to live on.
we live for ourself & the ppl who are important to us.
We dun leave the ppl who are important to us.
We let them leave us.
We dun die when they leave us, we learn.
but no matter what, the memories stays and we'll remember them.
becoz they're once important to us.
they ARE part of ur life n will always be.
becoz they created part of it.

dun lack behind.
move on and walk on.
ppl may be there for you, but they have their own life too.
the life is ours alone, we dun create them.
we change them and share them.
that's what makes life beautiful. (:

dun let saddness drag us behind.
look at what you have now.
look at what you dun hab now.
look at what you wanna achive now.
look at what u truely need now.
make possible goals and strive them patiently.

LET'S JIA YOU TGT!
(:

xoxo, Jasmine loves YOU!