Feel sad n happy today.
Today DAMN DAMN DAMN DAMN DAMN happy with my gan family.
Love you guys... n gal.
xD

Meet joe n jas at 2.30pm.
then saw a kawaii neko.
played with it a little.
it's damn playful can.
it keep playing with my hand.
but i did get clawed n bite a lit.
but it doesnt realli hurt.
the redness gone after a while.
then meet zy er zi n hx at MRT station.
then took MRT to ang mo kio.
ZY is so pissed off with his own blood mother n her fren.
becoz they were suppose to meet us at 3pm at YCK n drive us to the condo n we go play there.
but they were darn late n ZY just felt bad for making us wait.
i tried to say smth to make him feel better.

but...
gt scolded.
yeah yeah, my fault my fault.
i shouldn't even say anything.
i dun understand, so i purposely anyhow say can?
n to think i almost cried.
fucking cry baby me.

cheer up baobiie er zi.
gan marmii here will always dote n love u dehhx.
so smile~

so we walked around untill his mom n his mom fren reach AMK hub dehhx taxi stand.
we all squeeze in the car n got to the place.
went swimming n then played around like usual.
trying to drown each other.
while i keep clinging to ppl.
xD
lazy to tiptoe in the swimming pool.
muahahas.

after tt, jas accidentally kicked SOMEONE'S tummy.
and end up i go scolded "fuck off."
yeah, dumb for me to even care whether u're alright or nt.
hao xing mei hao bao.
nvm, so i did as told, FUCKED OFF AS FAR AS I COULD.

after that i we went to bath n change n went to had dinner n went for pool.
and played basket ball too.
then i sat at a side while they go play 3vs3 BBall match.
SOMEONE wasn't feeling well.
so switched player.
then i asked tt SOMEONE if that SOMEONE is okay or nt.
ask a few time becoz that SOMEONE'S face seems worser n worser so i got worried.
but guess that SOMEONE gt irritated n no matter wad i said, the reply was "STOP ASKING"
so yeah, my worrying is for nth.
i shouldnt care tt much.
KPO me.
idiot right?

after that, played pressure or was it call bullet? or wad ever it is called.
xD

JAS won!
i was the 2nd last to die.

after that took our stuff n Joel's parents sent me n hx home.
then gt home, miss called Wee to tell him i'm home n go bath.
then online, read CP blog.
then emo.
then wee call, so call himx back but very fast juii hang up liao.
then he called me again after that n talk a little then hang up again.

yeah, guess i'm a sensitive person.
but, these are signs that shows me that other ppl are much more important to you than me.
this is observations.
i know i kinda sux at it so i just take wad ever come.
n i see n judge it myself.
and yeah, tt the results.
i cant say i'm nt important.
just nt as important.
yeah, i know i'm nt the only thing important to you.
there's stuff u take it much more important than me like ur studies.
n ppl who are more important than me, to you, like ur frens.
and even ur gans n all.
i'm nt jealous.
i'm just thinking.
just wondering.
just comparing.
just asking myself.
and telling myself stuff.
and tt's all.
you do nt needa bother.
you gt ur hands full already.
dun needa bother.
dun needa try to squeeze another thing into ur hand when its already full and u cant.
even though this is just one thing.
but you're just one person.
how many thing can u concentrade on with just one life of urs?
go do ur stuff bahhs, i'll be here.
i wont bother you.
i just wan u to be happier and lessen the weight on ur shoulder.
i dun wanna be an extra weight to you.
coz if u try wanna squeeze me into ur handfull hand.
it'll be a very big n heavy stone.
becoz this is no game.
this is something i'm taking it serious of.
i've told you.
I AM SERIOUS THIS TIME.

i dunno are u sad or nt.
i dunno are u serious or nt.
i dunno if u love me or nt.
i dunno.
i dun understand you.
i dun understand ur feelings.
i dunno wad u're thinking.
i dunno wad's going through ur mind.
and i WONT know a thing if u dun open up to me and tell me.
i wanna know.
i wanna know everything.
i wanna understands u too.
wad u thinking, wad feeling, wad u doing.
which person who love you dun?
becoz i do, tt why i wanna know, i cared.

and mostly, and sadly.
i feel like...
haiis...
smth's nt working out between us.
i dunno.
little stuff always happens and made me feel sad.
maybe i'm just sensitive, maybe i'm asking too much from you.
but since i said 'little stuff', isnt it so little that you should be able to so it so easily?

[[_the changes hurts_]]

xoxo, Jasmine has been feeling DAMN DAMN DAMN sad.