27 March 2oo7, Tuesday

Today hp kana confiscated...
Hui Ying lend from miie a while mahx...
Then Willy tan walk pass then, bye bye hp...
lolx...

after school miie hang out with cp...
Go buy his brother mam mam first then iie bought cheese fries also...
Ate some but da left over have too much cheese on it...
and besides, da cheese sux...
So went her house...
ate some le then call cc then meet cc at da mac...
Later on ate an Apple pie with a small coke...
Then listen to MP3 therefore, slowly fall a slp...

Then later woke up...
Cp they all wanna go home le so iie went home too...
on my way home iie took a 'sweet'...
Then walk in da sun's rain...
juz a small drizzle nia narz...
got home then took a 'sweet' again...
[sweet issh not a drug narz juz 'sweet']
then later start to suffer...
hahax...
dunno why suddenly keep strength less...
gastric not feeling well...
then feel like vomiting da min iie stood up...
feel like my hands blood are gushing through so darn fast that iie can feel it's movement...
Cho cho was da one who shows concern about miie and keep sticking to miie...
Wad an understandable pet...
hahax...
lubb ya cho cho...
then iie kept hesitating on calling ppl...
weather should iie call cp, dar or hendry...
coz iie can ask hendry about my situation mahx...
So in da end iie chosen dar dar...
called him and he said he'll come down find miie...
then later start vomiting every thing iie ate dat day...
So dar dar ask miie go rest first...
He reach le then call miie...
Then iie use da normal style...
Put key in da sock...
lolx...
then put on top of my shoe rack...
then went slp...
later dar reach liao he called miie...
then iie told him da key in da same place...
so he came into my house and iie continued slping untill he came into my room n hug miie...
then later went bath...
then he bewi concern about miie...
But he found out a secret about miie...
X_X DIE!
lolx... then later both siianz siianz de...
then suddenly!
MY DA JIE CAME HOME!!!
WAH! DIE!
then heart skip a beat...
bewi scared...
then my da jie asked him go home...
So dar went home...
after a while, iie called dar...
talked to him a while nia then hung up da phone....
coz iie need space to plan wad to say to my mom...
So iie watched naruto while thinking and waiting for my mom to get home at da same time...

in da end my da jie neber tell my mom...
but iie kept waiting for my da jie to tell her...
but she didn't...
Hence, iie came up with a conclusion...
it's better iie confess first better than wait till she finds out then she'll be even more angry...
so iie confess then she nag nag a while...
then a lot of forgotten memories blew in to my head...
then felt like crying...
but hold back...
one or two tears drop nia...
then hugged my mom good nite then go to slp...



28 March 2oo7, Wednesday

Today class was per normal...
juz that iie dislike going to school on Wednesday....
Coz all da periods cannot slack de...
siianz...
but today turn out fine iie guess...
After school go meet Mr shaiful...
Coz I'm da NE wrap and issh da vice of NE wrap...
Stupid lucus dunno wad reason cannot come...
then teacher 'pa ma pi' say wad, I'm one of his fav student...
He always in class 'li siao' miie in front on da whole class de neax...
but I'm fine with it though...
hahax...
Then get da stupid Garage Sales stuff...
WTH...
I'm da assistance in charge...
sure suffer de...
lucus always so lazy...
all he knows issh slp slp slp and more slp...
wad else he knows???....
lolx...

After that went detention to get back my hp...
YAY! HP!
Then later go coffee shop they eat iie slp...
since raining, we gotta wait till da rain stop...
then iie listen to MP3 till fall aslp again...
When da rain got smaller, they woke miie up and iie sat bus go home...

Then got home....
Keep on wondering wad's wrong with Ben...
Am iie wrong or issh he juz ignoring miie?...
Or issh he juz avoiding miie?...
Got stead dun want jie jie le mahx?
I'm like being treated like I'm not needed any more...
iie realli bless Ben with all my heart...
that he'll get happiness and be happi with dat gurl...
rather than being in a stat on waiting and being hurt by miie any further...
but issh this wad I'm suppose to get in return?...
SMS him dun reply, MSN him also dun reply...
wad he wan miie to do sial?...
Si bei stress...
My one and only closest Di...
doing this kind of stupid thing?...
or did he juz didn't notice da SMS and MSN?...
or am iie juz disturbing him?...
his MSN put mentally disturb...
is it referring to miie?...
haiiz... iie dunno...
wad am iie suppose to do now?...
haiiz...
da present iie bought le like no use...
no nid gib him...
becoz of that present iie got scolded by my mom...
and got my poket money cut down...
bearly enough for miie to eat...
FUCK!...
issh this 'bao ying' ?...
Maybe becoz in da past iie treat him bad so now got it back in return?...
iie realli dunno wad's wrong with my life sial...
haiiz...
Suan le...

Then later,
Called dar...
Then later watch naruto...
now watch till episode 117 le...
li hai bahx...
buwahahaha!
then later called dar again then eat...
then watch naruto...
then dar go eat so hung up phone then iie go down stair buy snack home...
eat while watch naruto....
hahax...
then later watch watch watch till now then blog nor... hahax...
well then... I'll stop here le bahx...

Oyasuminasai~
Sayonara~

LiT MaRsHmElLoW signing off - smile smile~ ^-^

Think Think

We must get HURT in order to grow,
FAIL in order to KNOW...
Sometimes our visions clear only after our EYES
are washed away with TEARS...


I'm gonna SMILE like nothings wrong,
TALK like everythings perfect,
ACT like it's all a dream,
and PRETEND it's not HURTING miie...

I feel like I'm facing everything alone
with nothing but TEARS and FAKE SMILES...

Today's today

26 March 2oo7, Monday



Today couldn't manage to wake up for school...
iie rely too much on dar dar to wake miie up le bahx...
guess iie gotta learn to change that habbit...
coz dar dar gonna starts school soon...
today after my mama went out, iie go bath...
then dar dar come my house and wait for miie to prepare again...
when iie finish preparing, my mama called and tell miie da pet shop person gonna deliver our dog food to our house in half an hour time and asked miie nt to go out...
so iie agreed and waited for that person...
after that, iie went out with dar to northpoint to eat yoshinoya...
went mac eat frence fries and Macflurry...
yummy!
miie ate so much~
kekes... then later went to find benjamin's birthday present...
acturaly wanna buy a ring and carve he and his gf name in it de...
but can't manage to contact him...
so forget it...
but iie bought another present for him...
cost miie quite alot...
my today
dar paied some too~
Then later went home nor...
A while only, dar gotta go....
Coz he meet his fren go play basket ball...
sobx.... miss him...
then later watch naruto untill now iie blog nor...
that's all...

Miss Marshmellow siging off - lubb ya dar~

P.S: HAPPY BIRTHDAY BENJAMIN DI~
WISH U HAPPY ALL YEAR ROUND...
zu ni gen ni de stead xing xing fu fu, kai kai xin xin~

a boring day

25 March 2oo7, Sunday

Haiiz...
today issh a boring day....
nth to do...
all iie do issh watch naruto...
and habing bewi bewi bad headach da whole day bahx...
miss dar alot...
all iie can do issh msg him...
coz he went offline...
but he seems so busy after being offline...
ask him wad he doing he say nth, juz thinking of miie...
but still... he seems busy...
haiiz... maybe iie think too much...

after that benjamin sms miie and tell miie he hab a gf le...
wad a surprise.....
congratz di................
happi for u neax.........
atlast u found someone u lubb~
^-^ stay happi with her wor...
hope u all EVERLASTING~....
that's all bahx..........

Miss Marshmellow signing off - bored n lonely

Passion Arts

24 March 2oo7

Today issh da day when our school Yearly Passion Arts concert issh held...
This year, it's held at da Republic Poly...
Acturaly meeting dar dar at 3pm...
then dar say he'll be late...
then iie watch naruto till headach...
so went to slp...
wake up already 4pm plus liao...
OMG!!!
then iie go prepare and then by 4.35pm like that meet dar then go northpoint...
ate chicken rice while dar ate rice with vegi,toufu and egg...
hahax...
then iie drink ribina while dar drink peach tea...
hahax...
then later on went walk walk nor...
since nth to do...
then after that went to bus interchange at 5.45pm and waited for cp they all...
we waited and waited till 7pm then they come...
hahax...
neber mind narz...
then later took 169 to Republic poly...
then walk over da over head brigde then walk a long way to da concert hall there...
we pass our ticket to da person in exchange for a pen and a bookmark...
da pen bewi cute...
but iie lasy to take it....
so gave it to ben at da 20mins break de shi hou...
then da bookmark behide gt da thing that tells us wad's coming up next...
so we kept it...
then after da show, cp and hui yi took chen chin's dad car home...
miie n dar took bus...
first 169 was too full...
we waited for da second one then go up....
habing a bewi bewi bewi bad headach da whole day...
haiiz siianz...
then larter go home watch naruto and then that's all nor...

LiT MiSs MaRsHmElLoW signing off-
A fun day with dar , cp and hui yi...

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hahax...

Movie day~

23 March 2oo7, Friday

Today went to school...
alomst late... hahax...
luck made it in time...
reach liao super thristy...
bought ribbina to drink...
drink half way nia bell ring...
then threw away... but still feel super thristy...
walk to da parade square and saw benjamin di...
tap him at da shoudle and smile to him...
it's been a long time since i've seen him in school...
i'm in da upper sec and he's in da lower...
so it's hard for us to see each other this year...
then later go to chinese class...
cp's teacher neber come to school...
but mine got...
siianz....
so had out chinese class...

then later MATHS class...
hahax...
funny sial..
miie n cp keep chating then teacher keep asking
"Shu wei and chew ping, are u all copying?"
then the first time iie answer
"a, iie theaching her how to do that question lah~!"
then second time iie answered
"er, iie asking her was's that number lahx"
then da whole class laught...
then alot ppl was outside da class by then...
dunno why...
then later the teacher say
"if u nt intrested in my lesson, u can leave da class now"
then miie, cp, hui ying, santina,poh li and xiao wen go out...
iie juz stand and say
"okay lor..." but hesitated to go out...
but still walked out first in da end...
hahax...
then they pei wo also...
since we're nt listening to his class...
>.<>
the extral teacher come again sial...
she subbo the class...
Miss Ng on anime "death note" for us to watch mahx...
then some sms some listen MP3 then da new teacher ask one old teacher come and then she confiscate my class ppl's hp and MP3...
alot kana taken sial...
hahax...
heng iie neber use....

after school miie meet dar go watch movie...
but iie went home get change first...
got home then feel a bit tired...
hug dar dar slp a while...
about 45min then wake up...
then go prepare...
prepare hao le then go GV watch Mr Bean Holiday...
Was a funny show...
Had a great time with dar dar~....
then later go walk walk around da neigborhood with dar...
sat down near Musfirah's house there de blk then chat with dar dar nor...
took two picture and one vidio there...
hahax...
da vidio issh miie inside nar...
next time show u all... it's inside my hp...
hahax...
then after that went home...
mom bought food gib miie eat...
then iie watch tv...
use com watch naruto and that's all...

Lit Miss MarshMellow signing off -
A LOvely day out with dar~
iloveyou

Da pictures

My unlucky day

22 March 2oo7, Thursday

is this naruto?...
he looks cool like that~
WAH! so suai!!!
hahax...
my dar dar more suai narz~

Today's my unlucky day iie guess...
Chinese class teacher neber come again...
as usual...
iie ask joel accompany miie...
then stood outside my class kept talking to joel...
maybe iie talk too lound so da malay class teacher closed da back door...
hahax...
noisey miie... so pai seh...

after chiness was math...
was in bad mood already....
teacher still pissed miie...
coz iie can feel that my sisters are hiding stuff from miie...
and it even in culed an outsider knowing about it too...
yeah... iie was angry and jelous that they kept secrets from miie with a non PDP...
WTF...
kinda pissed...
so forget it...
if that's wad they want then be it...
make miie feel like i'm only needed sometimes...
like i'm nt important at all...
can be replace by any one...
the class messy nia then tell miie later we go find teacher together...
iie said okayz then later left da class without a words....
wad's da meaning of this...
haiiz...
one day neber come nia these kind of stuff happens da next day...
stress miie out immidiatly...
i juz simply hate being myself...
iie juz hate being miie...
iie hate miie...
haiiz...
why do iie hab to be miie....
why am iie even trying to do?...
wad am iie even doing?...
wad am iie even thinking...
haiiz...
iie was realli hurted....
iie dunno wad's going on...
one day nt here nia then this fucking stuff happen...
siianz...
tired of my life....
haiiz... sad...

then da stupid Vanan ask miie pin up hair, tie hair push all my hair behide...
iie was realli pissed so iie talk back to her alot...
and luckily she knows when to stop...
coz iie had neber been rude to her...
guess that's why bahx...
then has been controlling my tears since then...
feeling so left out...
like so lonely like that...
like every things againest miie today...
then cp still say stuff that make miie hurt even more...
feel even more like crying...
but...
it's nt her fault any way...
who ask miie is such a BITCH....
my attitude sux to da core...
FUCK MY LIFE!... ARR!!!
haiiz...
then keep controlling untill recess...
then christ, joel, hx and elbert and da another guy iie forgot his name liao, came cheer miie up a little...
thanks a ton my frens...

then PDP come again...
nt even gibing miie a min to breathe...
hit miie with all pains...
and make miie totally cannot handle my emotion any more...
that time all iie can think was
"WAD DO YOU WANT MIIE TO DO?"
"WAD DO U WANT FROM MIIE"
"WHY CAN'T YOU ALL JUZ LEAVE MIIE ALONE?"
"I HAD ENOUGH... PLZ LEAVE MIIE ALONE WILL YA?"
"I DUN WANNA CRY...I DUN WANNA CRY... PLZ LEAVE MIIE ALONE"
"GET LOST!"
"GET OUT OF MY STUPID FUCKING LIFE! JUZ LEAVE MIIE ALONE!"
"IT HURTS! PLZ LET MIIE REST! LEAVE MIIE ALONE!"
"WHY DO U ALWAY WANNA FORCE MIIE"
"WHY CAN'T U LET MIIE COOL DOWN AND REST A WHILE?"
even saying it now spoils my mood...
it hurt miie even juz by thinking of it....
haiiz...

then later GEO class was okay...
miie cool myself down by studying
yet that stupid Dong wen keep sms miie...
Hendry also got but neber msg much...
dar also gt sms miie but cannot blame mahx... =X
iie only scold dong wen stupid by sms miie becoz...
HE'S JUZ SITTING BESIDE MIIE!!!
teacher saw but gib miie alot of chance...

then later went back to class for Bio...
back to a bit tends situation...
then later a bit okay...
thx to wee teng's help even though she dunno that she helped out...
then later after school become settle out tai ji...
then become hab prob with hui yi again...
she gib attitude again...
haiiz...
wad's wrong with her any way?...
iie realli wanna be close to her...
realli wanna tell her sorry for all da attitudes...
and realli wanna explain to her...
but... some how... iie feel that she doesn't gib a dam now...
maybe becoz she's juz currently pissed...
haiiz...
wad miserable life iie hab...
haiiz....
shu wei... stop complaining...
this is ur life... live on with this stupid life till da next life then...
hahax...

then EL period gt new teacher...
which will be teaching us soon...
woah... chaotic sial today...
then iie qurall with pdp still can joke till so happi with cp...
guess alot are fake smile bahx...
but as long as it make someone smile...
everything is worft it...
dun even know if cp's realli laughing...
coz some how feel that some are being force to laught...
haiiz...

then later settle hao stuff with PDP after school then iie went home, bath and go cut hair...
atlast my hair looks more presentable...
accept da infront de...
still short...
still gotta rely on hair strighterner and spray...
hahax...
shhh... secret... =X
after wards iie go meet PDP at around 5.45+
then almost tio tai ji...
siianz...
today so suay sial...

then meet mama afterwards and eat yoshinoya then went home after wards...
then now blogging at watching some naruto...
hahax...
relaxe a while bahx...
after the whole day stress and hurts...
let's take some rest...

AtTiTuDe GaL siging off - it hurts, it's painfull... but wad can iie do?... it's my own fault any way...


colour emotions:

RED - pissed / juz to stand out
Blue - sad/down/depress
Yellow - g;ad/thankfull
Pink - happy / paiseh
Black - nth
Purple - normal

Our Day

2o March 2oo7, Tuesday


today ss class slp,
english class slp,
2 PE class also slp...
piggy uhs?...
hahax...
Hate to slp in class though...
coz hand and legs sometime will have cramps a while...
then Science Chemistry iie gt listen...
Recess miie moody...
hahax... dunno 4 wad reson...
Chiness slacka abit bit...
Maths was chaotic...
Coz the new maths teacher was nice to bully...
every one full around with him...
Today was da worst...
They threw paper planes all around....
2 planes crash into da fan...
Da rest was fly all around...
hahax...
Nice one~

After school...
Walked home myself...
Listening to MP3 and talking to dar on phone...
almost got hit by a car...
hahax... then gt home...
bath...
then meet dar and then...
blah blah blah, dilly dalli silly sally~...
hahax... then after that meet mom...
had dinner together...
then went popular buy pen...
then walk around...
then go Cold storage buy stuff...
got cut queue by a Black Ass Ah Pek...
KNS!
but nvm... mom nag a while...
then later the guy pay a thing hab to ask so much question one....
so bei ta han...
somemore behine miie that aunty has doubble B.O...
Body Odour and Breath Odour...
Wah Sei! so unlucky...
nvm... but after that...
so far so good...
accept that iie can't stop thinking about my bill...
it hasn't come...
if this goes on, my bill gonna burst!!!
WTF! DIE!!!
then my mom say if burst then cannot buy bag, wallet and jaket le...
sad...
my bag colour's running, metals rusting...
wallet worst, drop in big big drain and bye bye...
Jaket all grown small...
and i've so many things that iie needa buy...
cut my hair again for neater look...
contact lens for da concert on 24 march...
Benjamin's bday present,
Hendry's bday present,
Musfirah's bday present...
OMG! i'm broke!
and some more...
iie owes my sis money...
FUCK MY LIFE~...
opps... >.<
forget it... this month, i'm dead...




P.S: Look forward for da Passion Arts concert...
Hope everything will go on well then...




JaSmInE; LiT MaRsHmElLoW siging off -

iloveyou
ineedyou
imissyou

i simply adore you!

a day out

18 March 2oo7, Sunday

Today had a day out with PDP...
Woek up by cp's call today...
was kinda piss coz i'm very tired...
Due to last nite's late nite chat with dar till around 5plus 6 am...

Cp asked if iie had forgotten that we said to go gym today...
iie tot she was joking~
but it seems like she's true about it...
so iie was like " =="... i'm so darn tired and u ask miie go gym?!?!"
so iie reluctenly agree but in da end, cancled...
so meet cp and cc at northpoint...
and then meet cc's so called stead at yishun mrt....
si bie pai seh but wad ever...
he seems to be a nice guy though....
shy yet honest about his mood and feelings...
but heard that he's leaving for australia to further his studies...
wow~
nice one cheng chin~
lolx...
u'll miss him rite cc?...
hahax...
so blah blah blah...
then went to bottel tree park...
play play...
then go find hui yi at her house there...
then bump into benjamin...
then stuff happens...
then later blah blah blah...
all go home lor...
miie n cp send cc's stead till northpoint there then parted with him...
he's going back johor baru...
he's a malaysian...
lolx...
all da way here wor...
li hai uhs?...
then went meet chew yan jie jie n jia ming...
watching movie together...
the show issh call " Hearty Paw"
so touching show...
iie kept crying...
u guy wanna watch?
faster go watch bahx...
it's nice~!
it's about a loyalty in a dog to his master...
sobz...
go see bahx...
bewi sad de....
then later go home nor...
chew yan jie jie send miie home...
how nice of her...
she treat miie movie, food and iie lost da thing iie buy then she buy back gib miie...
so nice rite?...
it's nt da first time though...
se treat miie alot of time to dinner and lunch and to KTV!!!
iie like going KTV...
iie love to sings...
but only when iie sound nice...
hahax...

DuMmY GaL signing out - dead... X_X

tml issh the start of the school day again...
miss da holidays...
yet... studies issh bewi important...
let's work hard for now...
Jia You!!!

happily ever after???

15 march 2oo7, Thursday

today meet dar dar around 3pm...
had our day together...
but be4 he came...
my mind flew off to my world of thoughts...
alot of stuff running through my mind...
when ever iie think to much...
i'll start sobbing...
Hendry call miie a few times...
but iie didn't ans....
guess letting him to hate miie will be easier for him to forget miie...
that's wad he wants....
isn't it?...
haiiz....
i've never realise how much iie lubb dar...
iie juz needs him so badly....
i'm sorry to who ever i've hurted so far...
to Benjamin... to Hendry...
and to u, dar dar...
i'm sorry...
i'm juz a selfish freak aren't iie?...
haiiz...
like and love are realli two different thing....
i'm so ugly and so not worthy of being love yet i'm hurting so many ppl...
haiiz...
i'm such a bitch...


well, about pdp...
things starts to settle le...
are closer to hui yi already...
good news rite?...

MiSs KaNaSai siging off - i'm bullsh!t....

com back up!

15 march 2oo7, Thursday

haiiz...
these few weeks...
da probs are borthering miie so much that i even started....
haiiz... nvm...
saying wad happen will only make matter worst...
iie dun wanna hurt any one in this prob...
but as my best fren says...
in this kind of situaction...
one will surely be hurt...
but it ended up all are being hurt...
i could have chosen the simple way...
but iie chosen another...
following wad my heart's telling miie...
but it end up...
so hard for miie to take it any more...
i'm dying, mentally...
i can no longer controll my emotions any more...
i juz simply hate being miie...
i'm so selfish.....
i flirts....
i hate being miie....

MiSsWaDeVeR siging out - depress, stress, mentally ill

A A_ _ _ _t_ _ S_ _ _ _e_

Troubled days

o6 March 2oo7, Tuesday

elloz guys...
Sorry ytd didn't blog...
was so tired so fell aslp at 7pm plus till this morning...

i'll still blog in ytd's entry below...
So read on....

o5 March 2oo7, Monday

Today was a bad hair day!
My hair juz gone crazy and out of place...
but wadever...
Met my fren and walked to school together...
Then on da way in to da gate, cheng chin POP out of no where and scared miie off my skin...
lolx... to dramatic... iie know...
so we walked in and parted with my fren and iie followed cheng chin...
so the school days went on...
dilly dally, silly sally.... blah blah blah
so after school...
went out with cp and cc...
ate KFC saw a FAT,BALD GAY MAN!
WTF!
Wear pink yet so fat and WAH LAO!
cannot make it arz!
Then iie ask cc n cp look...
then little conversation build up between cp n cc...
iie then tell them dun say about it le...
there's another guy there who is da GAY'S fren...
So they became tiam tiam...
then later they go see stuff...
left miie...
then when the two guys walk a way, cc n cp walked out...
they asked if it's a guy or a gal...
iie told them it was a guy... who is a gay...
they were shock...
but, wadever...
went in Shop n Save and saw them again...
then Cc look at that FAT ASS and smile...
==" dunno for wad reson sial...
Then the FAT ASS asked "Yes? may i help u? u gt any problem with me?"
Fck sial... so gay...
Cc then smile back and say "No"
Then when he walked pass again he iusulted "atleast i dun hab pimples plantation"
WTF! i'm a person who's bewi sensertive to that topic!
Cp got so mad she kept scolding bad words...
i'm so pissed that iie hit the mental bar...
but no big deal about it...
then later went near Cc house there da blk to chat about gangs...
feel like learning to become a gal fighter...
lolx...
but that's such a dreams...
but this dream has a hope...
coz iie ever heard be4 a gal who issh a fighter and can solo a gang of boys...
And that gal is wen;ing's cousin!!!
WAH! so admire her...
lolx...
if realli can iie also want to be like a fighter like her...
so can be underestimated...
WAKAKAKA!
can take revenage~
lolx... so imaginable bahx...
sound so tomboylish bahx...
acturaly miie kinda tombolish de...
hahax...
cannot imagine bahx...
kekes...
juz kidding~
juz da way iie behave online only bahx...
then blah blah blah this that then that's all...
lolx...

Today's entry

Today woke up, went school...
mom didn't gib miie $$...
but neber mind...
cannot let her know iie everyday leave home so early mahx...
so forget it... =P
so in da end use my own $$ to buy mam mam eat nor...
surprise at recess time and Chiness lesson...
lolx...
nth much narz...

Later maths class de shi hou...
Hui Yi told cp she dun like cp so colse to miie...
So iie was like so du lan....
So all iie can feel then is hates...
iie can no longer hold back any more...
now iie realise why iie always say "xi guan jui hao"
this phrase issh juz a lie to make miie feel better...
i've been lying to my own feelings...
and iie had enough....
iie dun wanna be the one who always ti liang hui yi....
last time all iie can think of issh... "suan le bahx... she's like that de"
why iie have neber complain about her issh becoz if iie complain about her that means iie want her to change....
and iie had been requested to be changed severl time due to my AH LIAN attitude...
and iie know how hard and painful this process would be so iie had neber requested any thing as nt to let any one to feel the same pain as miie...
but i'm wrong....
iie need ppl to know the pain of being in my shoe so as for them to undertsands miie....
iie know hui yi loves to be pamper...
so wad?
iie also LOVES to be pamper wad...
but atleast iie work hard for it...
and gt being pamper by cp and my stead...
but wad dose she do?...
all she do is complain complain complain...
iie know if hui yi read this she'll be angry at miie and ofcoz cp...
so sorry cp...
but this kind of stuff, iie can no longer torlerate it any more... [sorry for spelling mistakes]
iie can't hold back any longer...
iie dun hate u hui yi...
dun make miie hate u...
iie had a dream last nite that u hated miie and alot ppl pamper u so other ppl hated miie too...
and cp issh them one who try to hold us together...
but iie dun hope this kind of stuff to come true nor be the opposite...
haiiz...
how can my msg posiblely reach her?...
guess hui ying will surely tell her about this entry if hui ying read this...

hui yi... iie know hui ying issh a bewi nice person...
and i'm realli saying this as iie meant it...
iie last year also being pamper by hui ying de...
but iie grew out of it...
iie grew out of being like a child infront of her....
yes... iie might hate her for being aunty...
but iie turely can tell u, she a nice person...
but she has over pamper u like hw she did to miie last time till u've become greedy of being pamper....
am iie wrong?...
this issh wad iie feel...
from wad u say to cp...
am iie not correct?...
haiiz...
wadever...
no matter wad...
hui yi... learn to be open up...
dun do silly stuff behide of them juz becoz u hate them....

Back to my life's entry....
after school meet dar...
find my sister present...
share a bowl of raman...
then later go to a Vido deck sit sit chat chat....
saw alot ppl walk here walk there...
and even saw my pri school teacher...
but he never teach miie be4...
iie juz remember him only...
then rain so had to wait for the rain to stop then can go home...
when then rain small small that time, iie go and walk in da rain...
Dar was realli bewi angry...
iie neber seen his face like that be4...
iie was realli terrifired...
but kept my feelling by juz smile and looking away from his eyes...

Let miie repeat myself again...
I'M VERY SENSETIVE TO EYES EMOTION!
Do u know ur eye can show when u're acturaly smiling a real or fake smile?...
And show that weather u realli love someone anot?...
iie some how can see the differents of the eyes emotions...

Well... so chat chat chat...
then later when iie shake my sister chcolate...
WAH! no sound de...
feel like all melt le...
so open it up...
==" realli all melt...
then later take out that time it looks like one big peice of shit...
lolx...
u should hab been there...
it was hilarious...
and nt to meantion, CUTE!
lolx...
then later miie n him talk talk joke joke...
it was like a perfact day with him....
lolx...

gt back home...
blah blah blah...
online...
go H's frienster...
somehow...
dunno why... everyday also will feel like go there...
lolx...
maybe becoz of da pretty gals pic...
lolx... =P
then saw a gal at H's fren list who look like da ex...
so went and see...
SO CHIO!
apart of miie... an ugly duckling.... sobx...
then later go crazy nor...
lolx...
then dilly dally, silly sally... blah blah blah...
lolx...
till now blogging...
it's late le...
miie gotta go le...
tml gt school...
later cannot wake up again...
lolx...


MiSsWaDeVeR signing out - Sad, disappointed and HURTED | Totally LOST!

SORRY.... NO PHOTOS TODAY!

o3 March o7, Sat

ToDay:

Today miie stayed at home nth to do...
Woke up around 11pm...
Hoping someone or any one to sms miie atleast smth...
Coz usually everyday also gt de...
But surprisingly, none...
Felt so bored, lonely and bit of restless...
Wonder why and wad happen...
Everyone seems to be busy or some how like that today...
haiiz forget it....



Felt so bored so played my ps2...
iie played da game called Onimusha...
it's like a country are in war when suddenly, princess Yuki issh kidnapped by da demons...
The guy name Sha dunno wad de then went to save her...
Got into a forest then saw da small human-liked demons so he fought them...
Manage to chase them away and had a small conversation with Princess Yuki who he loved deeply...
But a big big de monster then appeared and kiddnap her again...
He tried to save her but end up badly injurted...
When he woke up he found himself at dark room surrounded by purple flames...
A mistical voice then speak to him and grant him powers to distroy the demons...
Had a headach then when he return to normal, he was at da same place where he has been knock out by da giant monster...
After that he notice he can absorb monster souls with his right arm after defeating them...
iie played untill da first king there...
lolx... then died... so lazy play le so off it...



The good news for today issh...
iie got back my wireless le oh~...
hahax..
aren't that good?...
no nid use sms le....
haiiz... say till msg...
i've already use extral 500msg le...
gotta pay extral $20 le...
My mom say if my bill go over as expected, she 'll take it back again...
haiiz... sad... can't hab my sim card again le...
bye bye my sim card...
no nid msg any more le...
so sorry u guy will find it hard to contct miie again...
haiiiz...

iie use com use till bored le so drew some pictures...
will upload it at da end of this entry...

Thoughts:

Haiiz... dar going to start school soon....
but nt really sure yet...
well... dunno wad will become of us when he starts schooling...
iie find that he will be able to find better gals when he gose to poly...
as they are far more matural than iie am...
in my age i'll be going thought childish stuff like...
Problems that aren't surpose to be there....
Promblems that are so minnor...
And might do stupid stuff if iie think too much...
and and will behave childishly...
am iie thinking too much or wad?...
after da day at KBOX...
iie think alot alot le...
He WILL be able to find better gals in poly....
iie am way too childish and inmatural for him...
haiiz...

Pictures iie drew:

Boo's Ballons

King Bun's Stars~Cute mahx cute mahx?...
do u guys like it?...
^-^

Signing off - Lonely...

A Busy Life..

o2 March o7, Friday

Few more days to my er jie birthday...
Wonder hw am iie to live on these busy and troublesome life...
Long time neber blog due to my internet being confiscated...
Currently using my da jie com to blog this entry...
Since she left the com open when she went out...
hahax...
evil miie~ =P



Money issh such a big proble....
iie told cp to gib miie one week time to prepare for da money to go cut hair... which will cost $15 and extral $5 will be treating Cheng chin to go cut hair...
then my sister birthday issh comming...
then my gan di's benjamin's birthday issh comming...
and i've finish my contact lens and my mom's nt gibing miie $ an more...
juz becoz iie bought cheng chin a present...
=="
life issh so hard to live on as a teenager...
Wonder if there's even a reson for miie to live on like this any more...
Now a days has probs with my gang and then with my feelings...
WTF....
i'll so darn tired...
haiiz...




Wo Yi Ding Yao Jia You!
i'll fight on~!!!
i'll fight on till da end~
wo hui jian chi dao de...
lolx...
sound dramatic... =="
any way...
juz hope iie won't die half way up the progress hill....
Now all iie can think of issh money, Money and more MONEY!
iie can't stand it any more...
lolx...
u might think i'm money face but u're wrong....
iie nid $ to buy ppl present to make them happi~
aren't that good?...
but due to that reson i'm broke on my own stuff that iie need...
juz a simple hair cut and contact lens~!!!
hair cut - $15
contact lens - daily so cost : $10 [for 5 pairs]
WTH!!!
fuck my own darn life...
opps...
lolx...
haiiz... wadever~
my mind has to keep FOUCUS!!!!
>.<>RAZY!
lolx....
haiiz...
smile shu wei smile~
u cannot let ppl see u sad de~
smile~~~~
arrrh! headach....
lolx...
stress sial....
lolx...
ai ya... no no iie nt stress~
bewi happi~ wahahaha!
==" think i gonna hab depression liaoz...
No no no! iie'm totally fine~
i'm alrite....
juz a bit headach....
that's all....
^-^

Today:

after school met dar then bought one pair of contacts...
then went mac change clothes...
wore dar de big big purple jaket...
he says iie look cute in it....
lolx... *BLUSH*
then took 804 to Np there then took MRT to summerset then went Cine meet hao,bing and the two jie jies... t
hen went eat LJS...
iie neber eat...
coz dun feel like eating....
coz eat = will waste dar de $$ so rather nt eat...
after that wen da KBOX there....
one person $15....
dar pay....
>.<>
but can't do any thing due to miie being broke....
sang 4 song within 3 hours...
lolx...
wasted...
lolx...
but cold till cannot sing...
keep on jao siang....
lolx...
besides, my mom keep finding miie already so cannot stay long le...
dar dar so understandable so sent miie back nor...
haiiz...hab mix mix feelings while in kbox...
half siian... half sad... half worried... half full of thoughts...
alot's on mind....
haiiz...
wad ever...
then later dar send miie home....
took MRT then reach MRT station, g0 toilet change back uniform....
then walked back home...
dar so sha....
iie closing lift door that time he rush in juz in time be4 da door close...
wo de sha gua dar dar....
rush in le then iie kinda touched...
>.< then huged him... then later we parted...
So he went back find his fren at Cine and now i'm here blogging...
that's all...

Belows arz all da photos iie've taken so far...
Loves taking photos~
The photos taken be4 chiness new year~


my er jie took this pic when i'm still sound aslp in da morning...
my little chocho~ *yawn*















My cho cho~ *Ah Bish*















My ChoCho big big nose~ kekes~















My museli de big big nose~














Da word my er jie fu wrote on da wall be4 they piant it PINK!
YUCK! SO GIRLY...
>.< But neber mind narz...












Da rose my er jie fu gib my er jie on valentine's day de....
Aren't it beautiful~ So sweet~















Photos Taken at the 3th day of lunar new year~

From facing com de left: Xiao Biao Mei [Xi Yu], Er jie, Da Biao Mei [Jing Zhi]
All of them are the ones iie pamper the most~














My er jie and Xiao Biao Mei~ Xiao Biao Mei de Hair issh natural curly~... So envy rite?...














My er jie and Da Biao Mei! Da biao mei de hair super stright~















My Xiao Biao Mei~ see da curly hair?... So kawaii neax!











Photos taken today! o2 March o7!

My er jie playing my PS2 with little ChoCho lying on her lap...














My room after being pain~
Messy uhs~... =x















My living room from brown turn to GREEN! Not bad uhs...















My Computer desk there that wall from white turn to blue...
Same gose too my door corridoor there...
when u come my house neax time u'll understand....















This issh a real flower... We called it "tao hua" iie think in english it's cherry blossom... It's mean to bring and brighten up ur love life if u place it in ur room... It's place in my big sister room...














The buds of da plants... Growing into a flower uhs... Pinkish and pretty rite?...














My new furniture~ eee... now look so china...>.< My messy home~ lolx...















My naughty museli....
Sit my my parent's massaging chair...
Enjoying himself...
Beat his backside arz~















That's all for today's entry~ [=