LOST

25 March 2oo7, Wednesday


My Life, My Story

Chapter: LOST

Today iie didn't go to school...
iie qurall with my mom in da morning...
so went back to slp after that...

when iie woke up, my dad kept scolding miie...
iie kept quiet...
then they left da house...
iie was left alone... again...
the feeling of lonelyness overcome miie....
iie felt so lost..
iie kept crying almost da whole day...
coz iie lost my dar...
da one who issh so important to miie...
iie lost cp n now him...
both are such important ppl...
iie lost them...
iie feel like dying now...
my previous post sound like iie pick up myself...
yeah iie did...
but iie drop myself down da min iie lost dar dar...
i'm still trying to climb up...
struggling...
living...
trying to find a way, a reason to do so...

iie called dar dar when my dad left da house...
but be4 it could ring for even 3 second, iie hung up...
iie ask myself, "wad am iie doing?... we break already..."
i'm so use to calling him everytime iie didn't go to school...
haiiz...
whole day miss him alot...
realli wanna call him....
iie miss him...
iie realli realli miss him...
iie dun wan him to leave miie...
iie need you!...
IIE NEED U DAR DAR!...
i'm going crazy soon....
iie realli need you....

at nite when he fainnally online...
iie hesitated to say hi to him...
wondering why do iie wanna greet him so badly...
and seeing him reply makes miie feel better but nervous...
iie dunno to show that iie realli still loves him or nt....
so much thought came to miie...
iie realli dunno wad to do...
dar dar...
wad r we?..
did we realli break?...
why sometimes it feels like u still love miie...
and sometime not?...
why?...
it feel like u pull miie up then push miie down afterwards...
it realli hurts....
so iie decided to sweep da floor to get my mind off u....
when iie told u iie wanna get my mind of u and u sounded so sad...
my heart hurts even more when u haiiz...
but it bring hope that u still love miie...
that's why i'm so confuse...
plz ans miie...
WAD ARE WE?....

iie need an answer...
juz answer miie...
please...

a MARSHMELLOW without CHOCOLATE isn't yummy...

Marshmellow issh juz a half now...
Without Chocolate, Marshmellow cannot be one...
Marshmellow needs Chocolate to be one...