Wee tried to encourage miie to believe tt:
[[_a life fill with happiness from, frens, family and the one you love is IMPOSSIBLE_]] ._everytime when there are happiness, there will also be sadness_.
and he sure said it well...


but some how.
iie dun feel tt happy at all...
iie felt sad all of a sudden.
iie dunno why is there pain in my heart all of a sudden.
it started when he tell miie he had those things before.
but why is it pain?
iie shouldn't be feelings pain nor sadness all of a sudden dehhx...
am iie going crazy?
iie more iie think of the future and now.
the more i'm convince my future will nt be tt happy.
iie lost sight of happiness...
iie lost confidence in myself tt iie would be able to build a happy future.

i turn myself away from relality.
what's with all the positive thinking?
it doesn't help.
iie lied to myself that it did.
iie told myself i love my life.
but iie dun.
iie hate my life.
i have always hated my existence.
iie realli do.

because iie hab to go through all this nonsense.
when will it stop?
it'll never stops.
because it's life.
everyone have to go through this.
but there's ppl who can't.

because...
iie am the one to spoil my own life.
dumbly, iie did everything a idiot would.
and ta da!
tt's my life.
and it sux.

haiis.
why should iie say till like iie very ke lian?
iie still hab frens and family.
who loves and care about me.
but why do iie feel tt way..
i'm not sure anymore.
i'm dunno what iie wan.
iie dunno wad's wrong.
iie dunno what's hurting me.
iie hate this kind of feelings.
because it's confusing....

who can save me?...